u/ur_pretty_strawberry

My guy friend is very kind to me and buys me food when i ask (sometimes) he asks my opinion on things like what shoes look best on him or whatever (not always) he shares snacks he brought from his home in taiwan when i say they look cool or even if i dont ask, if its the last snack he tells our mutual guy friend to not eat it and give it to me so I can try. I dont even have to ask. He opens car doors for me and he sends me reels often or just updates me on things that make him happy like when he got an A or when he built the lego car he bought when we went to the mall. He definitely does some of these things with our mutual so i just assume im just "one of the guys"

It took forever for him to even warm up to me though. I would basically just yap at him until he started to yap back. Hes a very shy guy and seems to be intimidated by women.

Hes started to open up to me occasionally now, very small things. He recently added me to a groupcaht with our mutual. Hes pretty attentive and is kind.

Idk he does some of these things with our mutual so Idk. My other guy friend thinks hes into me(hes 16 while me and im 19 and crush is 20 tho im abt to be 20 🥳) but i just assume hes naive. I dont see how he could be into me.

I mean he lets me in his dorm room which yeah sure is an intimate space but that could just be because he sees me as a bro. He let me in his dorm while we were helping him move but anytime i offered to helo he was like "nah its ok" but had our mutual do everything lol. He was more kind towards me while blunt with mutual but im a newer friend.

One time i asked him if he had a snack bc i was hungry anf he threw me banana bread and i was so happy, i later thanked him thru text and he said "no problem, that was my breakdown tho" i offered to pay him back but he was like "nah no worries" i still got him food tho.

He laughs fairly loudly at my jokes and stuff but hes prolly just seeing me as a bro like I said.

The only thing that i could possibly see as more than friends is i was telling him my fave color was pink (very obvious statement but due to his first language being mandarin he doesnt fully get sarcasm...) he said he notices my outfits and how I like to balance my style with pink black and white and the specific type of way i use different pieces of my outfit. I mean its very obvious the style in which i dress but noticing how I balance colors and stuff is a little much, in a good way.

Thats abt it tho. I think im just a bro.

I have a 78 when i need a 80 to pass this class and i emailed to professor if i could have an adjustment as soon as i got the grades back, she hasnt responded yet and its been a day. We dont see the final or anything on gradescope. Am i cooked? Im beyond stressed and upset

Im 19F and ive never really crushed on guys before. Ive fan girled yeah and thought a guy was cute and thought "man i wish i could take him out" but nothing genuine.

Idk my friend is starting to get to me. Hes really sweet and hes very verg blunt so for me its so so easy to understand him and not overthink. Hes so giving and considerate despite the fact he seems so closed off.

It took me ages to get him to open up and he used to be so silent and only talked to our mutual friend ill call bro cuz hes kinda like my brother.

We're a friend trio and we hang out like yesterday we went to the mall and he was just so kind to me. Hes kind to everyone obvi but it made me feel weird. Small things like him reach up to grab a figurine i wanted or even when we went to the sports store me and him spent like 30 minute's debating which shoes looked best on him. He'd asked which looked best or practical and what colors fit him and he would explain how each shoe was different.

Bro was busy emailing a proffessor bc of a failing grade he recieved mid hangout... so he wasnt in the mood for a few min

Our friend often just gives me stuff. He does the same with out mutual friend. Hes from Taiwan so he brought over some snacks from home for himself but he had some laying around and bro asked "yo can i have some" and he said "no, this is the last one so give it to her so she can try" i didnt even ask but he gave it to me and he did something similar the other day.

Its these things that make me feel so fluttery around him. Hes also in our same major, compsci (i met him in our major specific class) and hes really smart and so helpful and is helping me study for math and In turn, i get him snacks and i help him study as I seem to more confident in programming than he is.

We've had occasional talks that were deep and he shows me dumb reels on his phone that he giggles at. He laughs so loudly at my jokes, looks me in the eyes when talking and one time he told me about how he noticed all these small details about the outfits i wear when we were talking abt our favorite colors. He said he could tell how i liked to style my outfit and how i use the colors and idk it kind of shocked me. He said it like it was so obvious and maybe i am pretty oblivious but he noticed my whole MINDSET in how i dress like how I balance light colors with black and what shoes i wear with what.

I like his smile, his blunt sense of humor and I like how straight forward he is. I will literally learn mandarin just to show i think hes cool. Hes such a shy guy so most people probably think hes a recluse and he is but hes such a kind man.

I used to think he found me annoying as im a massove extrovert and yap so much and hes the complete opposite. He wouldnt really sit near me, evem if there werent other seats.

Bro told me he probably is just shy and nervous around me especially bc in his words "im really pretty". Idk if thats the case specifically but eh.

He likes a specific cartoon character (trying not to xx myself TOO much) and in trying to find a plush of him but bc the show is not as popular as it was when i was a kid, you have to look slightly harder. I want to get one for when hes back from taiwan (classes ended so he dipped)

Idk if i just really like him as a friend and feel appreciated or if im into him. I like how he listens to me yap and tries his best to keep up, even if what im saying is total fucking bullshit. I say so many stupid things bc i think stupid things.

He still smiles at me and stuff. He lets me hang out at his dorm with our mutual friend. Hes nice. And again really smart. He finds calc 2 easy. NO ONE IN OUR MAJOR THINKS THAT THAT ISNT NORMAL FOR EVEN COMPSCI MAJORS. We're in the same year, bro is a year under us so idk sometimes it feels like we have this little companionship. But thats probably confirmation bias

I got used to him and he got used to me and idk. I dream abt kissing him sometimes. And we met a friend of his today and he told us about how he tried setting him up with his sister and how he wouldnt even talk to her the entire time and i felt... hurt.

Jealous i guess.

I feel like im not really someone hed date. He barely talks to women as is, i feel like i got lucky. Then again i was persistent... idk he really likes anime girls and vtubrrs and stuff he's a bit of a dork, and im not judging him i have posters of shirtless jungkook and link for zelda but i cant help but look at them and see these pale skinned straight haired women on his Twitter timeline and yk... im a black girl. Im pretty but i mean.. you can be the prettiest peach on the tree and he could just prefer oranges instead

I have the body type of these girls but thats it. Ik theyre fictional and the other real girls he follows are cosplayers who are heavily edited and whatever (again i literally have 0 room to judge) hes not overly weird abt anything either, hes very chill and shows me stuff he has bc i like some of the things he likes too, mainly just miku, he help me choose a miku figurine haha.

Idk, i guess i needed to rant and hear from others. Ive never told ANYONE this. Not a single person.