u/xhyenabite

just because a woman is in an ad that's selling sexual products doesn't mean you can sexualize her, and you weren't "sexually harassed" by a fucking ADVERTISEMENT.

i have dermatillomania and have had it since i was little, please don't lecture me about picking, i genuinely can't stop because i do it subconsciously and i've literally tried everything within my power and my psychiatrist says there's not much he can do for me about it which i feel is bullshit but that's besides the point.

i know the red lines are a warning sign of infection but i'm autistic and going to a clinic usually requires a lot of energy and mental prep for me, so if i can just slap some triple antibiotic ointment on here and cover it with a bandaid that would be preferable 😭

(first pic is edited to hopefully show a little more detail, i just lowered the light balance and upped the contrast. second pic is unedited)

eta: this is on the medial (i think that's the word) upper side of my right lower leg

eta 2: asked my mom (who is a triage nurse) and she gave me some bacitracin zinc to put on it

this could backfire on me just as easily as it backfired on OOP, but seeing as how the original post had 242 comments in 18 minutes all pointing out the same things ("why would you touch that?" "why would you SMELL that?" "why couldn't it be your aunt's?" "who cares if they have a sex toy?") i feel like i'm not alone in thinking it's insanely shitty to try to humiliate your family members to a bunch of strangers.

the comment is from me, but i blurred my username just in case!

image description: a gif showing the phrase "i don't have a specific example but you get the point" one word at a time over a plain black background.

as someone who relies heavily on captions due to a disability (auditory processing issues caused by severe adhd) it always frustrates me to no end when people have the stupid "one word (or a few words) at a time" captions. i find them more distracting than actually helpful, and then of course most of them add super obnoxious animations to the captions on top of it. it turns what was originally intended to be an accessibility thing into a "cool, quirky aesthetic" to add to a video to make it look more "legit" or whatever.

wonderful staff team of mos: i'm sorry if this post isn't allowed for any reason, but i desperately want to spread the word about these groups to as many potential victims as possible. if we can prevent just one person from becoming a victim, it'll be worth it.

trigger warning: child sexual abuse, self-harm (obviously), eating disorders, suicide, grooming, assault, murder

there are groups out there that specifically prey on individuals like us. those who struggle with self-harm and/or eating disorders especially, but also those who have mental illness(es) or who are queer and/or trans. they will almost exclusively target minors. there are multiple groups, but most (if not all) of them are extremely closely related and even share high-ranking members. some examples of these groups are 764, NLM (no lives matter), MKY / MMC (maniac murder cult), and CVLT / CBLT. the overarching network that these groups fall into is referred to as the COM network, or occasionally NVE (nihilistic violent extremism).

the groups are made up of mostly teens (shockingly and horrifingly enough) but also some adults. a lot of individuals have already been taken into custody and charged, and in some cases, thankfully, convicted of their crimes. but that doesn't mean the groups have stopped preying on communities like ours. these individuals are responsible for grooming minors, gathering csam, compiling content of people hurting themselves, getting individuals to commit suicide, and even responsible for assaults and murders of their own.

individuals from these groups may approach you with a friendly or even simply curious demeanor. they may seem supportive or comforting at first, but gradually they will make more and more demands. they primarily take advantage of their victims' fear of being blackmailed.

please read and understand this. there is absolutely no image, video, or piece of information about you that can harm you or get you in any more trouble than if you continue to give them what they ask. even if it's hard, even if you're scared, even if they have things to blackmail you with, please speak out.

some videos about this topic that i have watched

· the fifth's estate's episode about a victim's experience — ⚠️ extra TW as this video features images of censored self-harm ⚠️

· the void's video about 764

· the void's video about white tiger (a group member)

i will add more to the list as i watch more, but i also highly encourage anyone who is interested to watch and read more on their own.

this PSA does not do a great job at properly conveying how absolutely abhorrent and horrific these groups are. i just want to get the word out and educate as many people about them as i possibly can.

thank you for reading this far, if you have, and please remember to stay safe.

i've been struggling with the urge to relapse but i really don't want to be an adult who cuts anymore 💀

and i also have a friend who's younger than me and i would hella prefer her to use the pen instead of actually cutting herself bc she's like the little sister i've always wanted so obviously i don't want her going down the path i went down

maybe i should actually get a therapist and actually confide in them about being a system but ig i'm just scared of being accused of faking or not being taken seriously. but at the same time i'm a grown ass 22 year old so maybe i should stop being a little baby bitch about things

edit: i sent my psychiatrist of like 8+ years a message confiding in him about it🧍i'll post the screenshots in the comments

edit 2: nvm can't post pics in comments </3

idk man i love these things

Transcript: "These two beautiful 16-year-old girls had come home from school and found their mother murdered." — "As we get there, you have these, uh, two beautiful, young, 16-year-old girls that discovered their mother murdered."

spoiler (just in case someone doesn't want this episode spoiled for them) but >!they're the ones who killed her!<

it's just so weird to me when officers or witnesses or what-have-you just get creepily descriptive about individuals involved with or affected by LITERAL MURDER!

by the stars, i adore this book. i just started reading it yesterday, for the first time ever, and i absolutely love it. i want to meet miss atwood one day.

(paragraph is from page 112 of the 2017 print of The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood)

eta:

Image Description: An excerpt from page 112 of Margaret Atwood's novel, The Handmaid's Tale. The paragraph reads as follows, > Across from us on the other bench, one woman is praying, eyes closed, hands up to her mouth. Or she may not be praying. She may be biting her thumbnails. Possibly she's trying to keep calm. The third woman is calm already, she sits with her arms folded, smiling a little. The siren goes on and on. That used to be the sound of death, for ambulances or fires. Possibly it will be the sound of death today also. We will soon know. What will Ofwarren give birth to? A baby, as we all hope? Or something else, an Unbaby, with a pinhead or snout like a dog's, or two bodies, or a hole in its heart or no arms, or webbed hands and feet? There's no telling. They could tell once, with machines, but that is now outlawed. What would be the point of knowing, anyway? You can't have them taken out; whatever it is must be carried to term.