u/xhyenabite

saw this pretty old lady and was wondering what breed she may be. any guesses?

CANONICALLY QUEER TOMS!! WHY DOES NOBODY TALK ABOUT THRUSHCALL AND PEBBLENOSE?

not just hinted at or implied or heavily headcanoned to be queer. CANONICALLY QUEER! in plain language! WE WON!

edit to add: it's not even just a slip-up either. if you look at their wikis, they're mates!!

edit 2: alright alright i get it, people talked about it for a while. i just never saw the posts about it. can y'all stop saying it now :')

every nightmare in the chain ended the same way, with me (not me me, but the "character" i played in the nightmare, it's weird) becoming disabled in one way or another due to an accident (usually a workplace accident, most of them involving heights). if i didn't try to force myself awake, the nightmare would restart from the very beginning. if i did try to force myself awake, i'd wake up for a few moments but be too groggy to move, then immediately get dragged into another nightmare.

the chain ended when i was given a choice. ride the elevator with "my" (the character's) father in order to "cure" my disability (but we both had this gut feeling that the elevator would fail and result in greater disability) or just . . . live with the current disability. not really much of a choice if you ask awake me, but oh well. obviously i chose to live with my current disability.

then i was "allowed" to wake up.

the weird thing is, it's super early for me to be awake, especially since i took my sleep meds last night. i woke up at like 8am, meanwhile i normally wake up around noon or later. i'm also just as groggy and foggy as i would be if i forced myself awake (which i can do occasionally, i'm assuming once my sleep med has mostly worn off, since it requires a lot of willpower)

anyways, i'm not putting this here as a "what's the deeper meaning?" thing, but rather for y'all to have a glimpse into what it can be like for some patients with severe chronic insomnia who have to take sleep meds every night.

(my sleep meds, regardless of the ones i take, always increase my chances of nightmares as well as complex sleep behaviors, so i've woken with a bruised hand because i punched my nightstand lmao)

it's awful. either take the meds and have nightmares every night and risk hurting myself or my fiancé in my sleep, or don't sleep at all and ruin my mental and physical health all over again :') thanks insomnia!

edit to add: i'm disabled in the waking world, but not due to an accident or anything. i have pots and chronic pain and mental stuff. :')

we think we saw one of the parents luring us away but it was a little hard for me to get details of it. it fanned its tail at us to get our attention and the tips of the tail feathers looked orange or red, and the rest of the bird was black and white if i remember correctly.

second question: is this normal for them to be so close to active train tracks? the nest was practically right up against the rails! i hope they stay safe :(

northcentral wisconsin, usa

idk what to even say atp. all my brain keeps repeating is "this is awful" over and over and over again. i barely knew him but he was only 21 years old and the guy who did it is 19 and the boyfriend of the victim's ex iirc.

my hometown is one of those fairly small "everyone knows everyone" towns. yeah there have been murders but . . . fuck, guys. it's awful.

i messaged my class president and asked her if we could hold some kind of class memorial for him. afaik this is the first classmate we've lost and it's in such a traumatic and horrifying way. i feel sick to my stomach. his poor baby. the rest of his family. his friends too.

a lot of my classmates (myself included) have already been posting to facebook sharing our condolences to his family.

i can't believe i hated so many of my classmates while growing up and once i reached adulthood, i started missing all of them, and now one of them is gone forever and i'll never get to know him more than a classmate. a baby is left without his father because of some stupid """accident""" according to the guy who did it.

if i wasn't dirt fucking poor i would donate to the gofundme in a heartbeat. i asked my best friend (who is also a classmate) to lmk if the funeral is open to the people he graduated with bc i will 100% go if it is.

i hope he rests in peace. i hope his family is okay.