u/Dependent-Amount-239

I hate myself again, idk why. I was so happy until recently, just last week I thought i was the coolest and hottest person and now whenever I open my camera app I feel like throwing up. My face is stupid I’m annoying and I have the worst hair ever. Why can’t I just fix my fucking issues what’s wrong with me. I’m a terrible miserable fucking person and I don’t know how anyone puts up with me. I don’t think I even deserve love anymore.

So far Ive been listening to Yes, Camel, U.K., Chris Squire (Fish out of water), Ambrosia, and King Crimson and I want to know what are some other bands I should check out.

For context Im going into my Grade 12 year of highschool (Senior year I guess) and Ive already taken Precalculus 12 Twice (Once in Grade 11 and again last month as a summer class to improve my mark). Im taking AP Calc AB starting in September when school starts and I dont feel very well prepared for it. Ive done some research into derivatives and integrals (Just the power rule really) but Im not sure I have a good enough foundation for Calc. How can I be better prepared for it?

Lol I know this is a dumb question but I’ve seen a lot of memes lately about the toll of engineering on students and is it really that bad? I’m gonna do electrical engineering either way there’s no way I’m changing my mind but is it that miserable or is everyone just being dramatic?

The first couple times I took the test it came back as INTP-T but since then I’ve become a lot more self confident and extroverted and I kinda feel like I’ve changed so I retook the test (twice) and made sure that I wasn’t lying to myself while answering the questions and both times it came back as ENFP-T. Is this a normal thing or am I subconsciously lying to myself about who I am?

The first couple times I took the test it came back as INTP-T but since then I’ve become a lot more self confident and extroverted and I kinda feel like I’ve changed so I retook the test (twice) and made sure that I wasn’t lying to myself while answering the questions and both times it came back as ENFP-T. Is this a normal thing or am I subconsciously lying to myself about who I am?

For context, my grades aren’t looking too good and I probably won’t get into UBC engineering after I graduate. I found out that I can do my first year at a college and then transfer so I’m just curious if Douglas or KPU would be better. I live in North Langley so the commute to Douglas would be shorter than the commute to KPU Surrey so I’m leaning toward Douglas but is there any reason I should go with KPU instead?

I’m retaking PC12 and I just got my second test mark back, a miserable 74. My average grade is now 82 it’s over for me I won’t get into any university and I’ll never become an engineer or a scientist. How am I always so bad at everything, how am I always so pathetically unremarkable and inferior to everyone else. I wish I was just smarter, I wish I wasn’t too fucking stupid to achieve my dreams.

So I just became acquainted with sonarr and radarr and prowlarr today so forgive me if this is dumb but I tried adding 2 shows on sonarr and I can see them in the series tab, but neither of them are downloading, theyre not appearing in the activity tab. When I look at them in the series tab they both have red triangles in the upper right corners and that strip above where it says monitored is grey. Its hard to explain I wish I could post a screenshot or something.

Im trying to port forward a proxmox container with my minecraft server in it so that my friends can connect to it. I logged into my router but it said I needed to do it on the app. So I opened the app and tried to set up a new port forward but instead of letting me type in the ip address of my container, it gave me a drop down menu of devices which my container wasnt on even though it was connected to the network. Theres literally no option for a manual set up so they dont give you any other way to do it. Im completely stuck and I have no Idea what to do please help.