I received a parking ticket for a city that I have never been to, nor was I in that city on that day. The car's color code on the ticket does not match my car. The license number on the ticket matches mine. Does anyone know how this happened? Can I contest this ticket that was in error?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf, because she knows that I would get mad. She never remarried or stayed with another man. Most mothers won't do that. She gave up her hopes, dreams, ambitions, things she wanted to do for herself because she wanted to devote her life on me. She said, "I want to wake up next to you everyday."
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me. She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over. I became her whole world.
I remember one of the things she told me, "You just didn't realize that everything that I was doing was only for you. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, to protect you from things that I feared about the world. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess so she poured her love for me. Do you hope that love was enough?
I am an only child and my mom was always the only person in my life. Nothing excites me. I never had any friends or been in a relationship. I have never been kissed. I feel I am different than most people. I think my brain is wired differently, like I act differently than others.
Here are some things about me.
There are hundreds, if not thousands of people who came and went in my life. I am still thinking about them after many years when they probably don't think about me. Classmates, coworkers, etc. I think about them on my days off and even former coworkers who I haven't seen in years.
I can remember things. If you and I were to have talked years ago, I can tell you everything that you told me and even the clothes that you wore. I can remember specifically when certain things happened years ago and in detail and everything that was ever said.
I overthink things a lot. I would spend months, years, thinking about things have happened to me years ago. I enjoy thinking about the same things repeatedly and replaying situations in my head.
There was that post my 50 year old teacher when I was 16 and how I played myself and how she ruined my life. And then that post about my former pro.fessor.
There was that post about a woman I who used me to type for her years ago and I still think about her and wonder if I should contact her.
I am unable to make friends and keep friends.
There was that post my former friend who wanted a romantic relationship and I only wanted to be friends, which he didn't like. I begged him to add me, unblock me over the years.
I have never been a relationship. I just throw my life away with my fantas.ies. I believe this is what is making me happy.
Is this a mental illness is it just my personality? Am I missing some cues?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf, because she knows that I would get mad. She never remarried or stayed with another man. Most mothers won't do that. She gave up her hopes, dreams, ambitions, things she wanted to do for herself because she wanted to devote her life on me. She said, "I want to wake up next to you everyday."
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me. She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over. I became her whole world.
I remember one of the things she told me, "You just didn't realize that everything that I was doing was only for you. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, to protect you from things that I feared about the world. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Now I blame myself because I made mistakes and I was even the one who was angry. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. I was so hardheaded at times and didn't listen
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess so she poured her love for me. Do you hope that love was enough?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf, because she knows that I would get mad. She never remarried or stayed with another man. Most mothers won't do that. She gave up her hopes, dreams, ambitions, things she wanted to do for herself because she wanted to devote her life on me. She said, "I want to wake up next to you everyday."
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me. She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over. I became her whole world.
I remember one of the things she told me, "You just didn't realize that everything that I was doing was only for you. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, to protect you from things that I feared about the world. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Now I blame myself because I made mistakes and I was even the one who was angry. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. I was so hardheaded at times and didn't listen
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess so she poured her love for me. Do you hope that love was enough?
I am an only child and my mom was always the only person in my life. Nothing excites me. I never had any friends or been in a relationship. I have never been kissed. I feel I am different than most people. I think my brain is wired differently, like I act differently than others.
Here are some things about me.
There are hundreds, if not thousands of people who came and went in my life. I am still about them after many years when they probably don't think about me. Classmates, coworkers, etc. I think about them on my days off and even former coworkers who I haven't seen in years.
I can remember things. If you and I were to have talked years ago, I can tell you everything that you told me and even the clothes that you wore. I can remember specifically when certain things happened years ago and in detail and everything that was ever said.
I overthink things a lot. I would spend months, years, thinking about things have happened to me years ago. I enjoy thinking about the same things repeatedly and replaying situations in my head.
There was that post my 50 year old teacher when I was 16 and how I played myself and how she ruined my life.
The post about how I flew to germany unannounced and uninvited at the airport to visit relatives I hadn't seen in 17 years and literally called them from the airport to pick me up around Christmas to stay for 2 weeks.
There was that post about a woman I who used me to type and do things for her years ago and I still think about her and wonder if I should contact her.
I am unable to make friends and keep friends. I guess there is something about me that people find different.
There was that post my former friend who put us before a judge and who I wrote letters to his mom begging him to contact me after having been blocked for 7 years. Most people would have long moved on and forgotten about him, but I still waited for him.
And then there was the post about my former professor 40 years my senior who told me that he loved me.
I have never been a relationship. I just delude myself in my fantasies. So what kind of life is this? Investing in something clearly so fake at the expense of real friends, relationships, experiences? I wasted my life away. Most people wouldn't invest so much energy on a fantasy than a real relationship. I feel happy this way, deluding and living in my fantasies. I believe this is what is making me happy.
Is this neurodivergent or is it just my personality? Is it the way my brain processes things, missing certain cues? People assume it's only social cues that individuals miss, but do you think I am missing other cues?
I am an only child and my mom was always the only person in my life. Nothing excites me. I never had any friends or been in a relationship. I have never been kissed. I think my brain is wired differently, like I act differently than others.
Here are some things about me.
There are hundreds, if not thousands of people who came and went in my life. I am still about them after many years when they probably don't think about me. Classmates, coworkers, etc. I think about them on my days off and even former coworkers who I haven't seen in years.
I can remember things. If you and I were to have talked years ago, I can tell you everything that you told me and even the clothes that you wore.
I overthink things a lot. I would spend months, years, thinking about things have happened to me years ago. I enjoy thinking about the same things repeatedly and replaying situations in my head.
Then there was that post my 50 year old teacher when I was 16 and how I played myself and how she ruined my life.
The post about how I flew to germany unannounced and uninvited at the airport to visit relatives I hadn't seen in 17 years and literally called them from the airport to pick me up around Christmas to stay for 2 weeks.
There was that post my former friend who put us before a judge and who I wrote letters to his mom begging him to contact me after having been blocked for 7 years. Most people would have long moved on and forgotten about him, but I still waited for him.
And then there was the post about my former professor 40 years my senior who told me that he loved me.
I have never been a relationship. I just delude myself in my fantasies. So what kind of life is this? Investing in something clearly so fake at the expense of real friends, relationships, experiences? I wasted my life away. Most people wouldn't invest so much energy on a fantasy than a real relationship. I feel happy this way, deluding and living in my fantasies. I believe this is what is making me happy.
Am I neurodivergent or is it my personality? Is it the way my brain processes things, missing certain cues? People assume it's only social cues that individuals miss, but do you think I am missing other cues too?
I am an only child and my mom was always the only person in my life. Nothing excites me. I never had any friends or been in a relationship. I have never been kissed. I think my brain is wired differently, like I act differently than others.
Here are some things about me.
There are hundreds, if not thousands of people who came and went in my life. I am still about them after many years when they probably don't think about me. Classmates, coworkers, etc. I think about them on my days off and even former coworkers who I haven't seen in years.
I can remember things. If you and I were to have talked years ago, I can tell you everything that you told me and even the clothes that you wore.
I overthink things a lot. I would spend months, years, thinking about things have happened to me years ago. I enjoy thinking about the same things repeatedly and replaying situations in my head.
Then there was that post my 50 year old teacher when I was 16 and how I played myself and how she ruined my life.
The post about how I flew to germany unannounced and uninvited at the airport to visit relatives I hadn't seen in 17 years and literally called them from the airport to pick me up around Christmas to stay for 2 weeks.
There was that post my former friend who put us before a judge and who I wrote letters to his mom begging him to contact me after having been blocked for 7 years. Most people would have long moved on and forgotten about him, but I still waited for him.
And then there was the post about my former professor 40 years my senior who told me that he loved me.
I have never been a relationship. I just delude myself in my fantasies. So what kind of life is this? Investing in something clearly so fake at the expense of real friends, relationships, experiences? I wasted my life away. Most people wouldn't invest so much energy on a fantasy than a real relationship. I feel happy this way, deluding and living in my fantasies. I believe this is what is making me happy.
Am I neurodivergent or is it my personality? Is it the way my brain processes things, missing certain cues? People assume it's only social cues that individuals miss, but do you think I am missing other cues too?
I have a habit of moving my hands, touching my face, scratching myself, not staying still and walking back and forth, etc. when I am anywhere. Someone said about me, "Malikot siya kapag kumikilos." What does this mean?
I have a regular post with Allied that I only work at for one day a week. I am looking for more shifts. How do I request for more shifts? Would it be easy for them to approve to give me more shifts/hours since I am only working one day?
I have a regular post that I only work at for one day a week. I am looking for more shifts. How do I request for more shifts? Would it be easy for them to approve to give me more shifts/hours since I am only working one day?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf, because she knows that I would get mad. She never remarried or stayed with another man. Most mothers won't do that. She gave up her hopes, dreams, ambitions, things she wanted to do for herself because she wanted to devote her life on me. She said, "I want to wake up next to you everyday."
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me. She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over. I became her whole world.
I remember one of the things she told me, "You just didn't realize that everything that I was doing was only for you. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, to protect you from things that I feared about the world. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Now I blame myself because I made mistakes and I was even the one who was angry. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. I was so hardheaded at times and didn't listen
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess so she poured her love for me. Do you hope that love was enough?
I got charged for an app that I didn't know wasn't free. I already uninstalled the app and requested a refund. How likely is it for them to send me a refund?
What do you think of hugs from behind? Is this more intimate than a hug from the front? Is one more meaningful than the other? Are hugs from behind reserved only for couples? Not friends, family, etc?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf, because she knows that I would get mad.
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me. She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over.
I remember one of the things she told me, "You just didn't realize that everything that I was doing was only for you. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, to protect you from things that I feared about the world. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Now I blame myself because I made mistakes and I was even the one who was angry. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. I was so hardheaded at times and didn't listen
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess so she poured her love for me. Do you hope that love was enough?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf, because she knows that I would get mad.
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over.
I remember one of the things she told me, "You just didn't realize that everything that I was doing was only for you. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, to protect you from things that I feared about the world. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Now I blame myself because I made mistakes and I was even the one who was angry. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. I was so hardheaded at times and didn't listen
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime. I posted this here because there are some who are motherless, and I just can't imagine life without a mother. It would be so hard. I can't imagine what is life like when she is gone. I also wanted to know if she ever loved me.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess so she poured her love for me. Do you hope that love was enough?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf. Alam niya kasi na magagalit ako.
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over.
I remember one of the things she told me, "Ni hindi mo man lang naisip, na lahat ng ginagawa ko ay para saiyo. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang and danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, dahil pinoprotectahan kita sa karanasan ng buhay. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Ngayon nagsisi ako dahil ako ay nagkamali at ako pa ang nagagalit. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. Siya pa rin ang tama. Minsan ang tigas ng ulo ko at hindi ako nakikinig.
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. Baka hindi ko kaya, baka matatapos ang buhay ko. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess kaya binigay niya ang pagmamahal niya sa akin. Binuhusan naman. Do you hope that love was enough?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf. Alam niya kasi na magagalit ako.
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over.
I remember one of the things she told me, "Ni hindi mo man lang naisip, na lahat ng ginagawa ko ay para saiyo. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang and danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, dahil pinoprotectahan kita sa karanasan ng buhay. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Ngayon nagsisi ako dahil ako ay nagkamali at ako pa ang nagagalit. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. Siya pa rin ang tama. Minsan ang tigas ng ulo ko at hindi ako nakikinig.
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. Baka hindi ko kaya, baka matatapos ang buhay ko. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess kaya binigay niya ang pagmamahal niya sa akin. Binuhusan naman. Do you hope that love was enough?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf. Alam niya kasi na magagalit ako.
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over.
I remember one of the things she told me, "Ni hindi mo man lang naisip, na lahat ng ginagawa ko ay para saiyo. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang and danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, dahil pinoprotectahan kita sa karanasan ng buhay. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Ngayon nagsisi ako dahil ako ay nagkamali at ako pa ang nagagalit. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. Siya pa rin ang tama. Minsan ang tigas ng ulo ko at hindi ako nakikinig.
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. Baka hindi ko kaya, baka matatapos ang buhay ko. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess kaya binigay niya ang pagmamahal niya sa akin. Binuhusan naman. Do you hope that love was enough?
My mom raised me by herself. She was always the only person in my life. She stopped working for 19 years just to dedicate her time and life on me. Her whole world seemed to have stopped and when it turned again, it was only to revolve around me. She is separated from my dad I guess ever since I was born. He walked away and never looked back. She never had a bf. Alam niya kasi na magagalit ako.
She always put me first before herself. She has always been selfless to me She left her family, her life, and went to another country by herself and married someone she didn't even know. She stopped talking to her mom and siblings for many years. And she felt something wasn't right and moved again. Then she had me and it was over.
I remember one of the things she told me, "Ni hindi mo man lang naisip, na lahat ng ginagawa ko ay para saiyo. I remember I lost sleep many nights and I sang and danced to you many hours until the morning because you couldn't sleep and you kept on crying. I wanted you more than anything in this world. I may have failed in life, but I felt like I won. I may not be rich, but I feel rich because of you. It's not because I never loved you, but because I loved you so much that I couldn't imagine life without you. I did the best I could. I raised you in the best way I knew how, dahil pinoprotectahan kita sa karanasan ng buhay. But how about that time when you felt like you did your best, and it still wasn't enough?"
She may have sheltered me excessively, but she did it to protect me from her fears about the world and because of her love for me. I remember a time when we were renting a room. And she slept on the floor with no hesitation and I slept on the couch. When I should have been the one sleeping on the floor. She said that there is no way that I am sleeping on the floor. She fed me even when she was hungry herself.
Ngayon nagsisi ako dahil ako ay nagkamali at ako pa ang nagagalit. I didn't realize that everything she was doing was only for me. Siya pa rin ang tama. Minsan ang tigas ng ulo ko at hindi ako nakikinig.
How about all those sacrifices? How can I live my life to make sure those sacrifices were worthwhile? By honoring her in every way possible while I still have her? By being successful and achieving all the good things in life? And if not, then it was all for nothing and she only wasted her life on me?
I realized that there is no one else who would ever love me as much as her. I would be so lost without her. I really don't know what I would do. Baka hindi ko kaya, baka matatapos ang buhay ko. I would choose her to be my mother a thousand times over in every lifetime.
Do you see the sacrifices of a mother? Did she love me unconditionally? She never felt that love from her mother I guess kaya binigay niya ang pagmamahal niya sa akin. Binuhusan naman. Do you hope that love was enough?