I go to rate subs to self-harm
It’s kind of an addiction now. Whenever I come across a picture of a pretty woman especially on a rate sub I become super self-conscious and I post myself basically asking for low ratings. Like I want confirmation that I am ugly so I can put it to rest, but it doesn’t actually work and I can’t accept it. It doesn’t help that I get DMs telling me I’m pretty and a few comments also saying that but most comments tell me I am below average. I didn’t want to have doubt left but I still have doubt though I am becoming increasingly convinced that I’m objectively unattractive. Why can’t I just accept that I am not pretty and will never be treated like a pretty girl?