u/BlackStallion657

It’s hard to change for the better. When I struggle I often have people tell me that I’m making excuses for myself when I don’t start things I need to or when I struggle. It’s so hard to get things done at times.

I hate how my brain is, I hate how cold the world is. I hate how I struggle with this alone. No seems to care.

I wish I would kill myself but I’m too much of a coward

I am on a journey to be extremely skilled in art in order to achieve a lifelong dream to get into as a hobby. With anything in life, I always strive for improvement when it comes to things I want to get into. With my life suffering from depression/anxiety, imposter syndrome and a comparison towards others, something that I'm passionate about becomes a steep journey to the peak of the artist mountain that I strive to be. I'm not trying to be a professional artist as a career, I want to draw as a hobby with the skills as a professional. As a complete novice in my mid twenties, I am trying everything I can in order to improve. I am finally getting treatment for the mental health issues that went untreated or not fixed properly throughout my childhood. Though late in my life, I have an understanding on myself.

I do research and have friends that draw as a career, but it's sometimes really hard to take the information. The reason is because they make it seem so easy, especially on YouTube. I need to improve to be the artist that I strive to be, just like the pros that I look up to. So I need to do research and learn from people with more experience than me. But it's frustrating because they really make it seem so easy to fix the problem. It's like I hate watching the tutorials, but I have to in order to improve. I know that it takes time to improve and that drawing is a marathon, not a sprint. However, I feel that I am the only person struggling with this. Especially with trying to juggle learning foundations and study pros art by observation, tracing and copying. With the added difficulty of changing a mindset that I've been so use to in my life.

Is this a normal feeling to have? It's embarrassing at times. Whether it's Youtube tutorials, drawing courses or advice from pros.

I get imposter syndrome and I feel that I’m not doing a good job compared to others. I have a bad habit of spending money but I’ve been trying to make strides in trying to properly manage my finances and set up security for myself. Essentially, I’m trying to better myself, but I’m struggling.

Am I doing well?

Hello everyone, I'm currently a Senior at a big SEC school. I major in Advertising with a dual minor in Social Media Analytics and Digital Media. I want a career in Advertising/Marketing, specifically in Social Media or Media Marketing. Despite my strong grades, high remarks from every professor and drive to get better; I'm struggling to get that first professional internship. Last semester, I started working for my schools media news engagement team.

Currently, while on summer break, I am taking a SEO certification course on Coursera. I do plan on getting a certification on Google Analytics as well as Excel. I'm running my own content page as well to really get experience in running a social media page and reviewing analytics of my posts.

As a person who is graduating in December 2027, would having an Excel certification help me stand out as a competitive applicant. My career coach and some faculty members within the college of my University tell me I have time, but I am really trying to be as proactive as possible. I was given a second chance at university, I really want to make it count. My greatest fear is being homeless, I am doing everything I can so that I avoid that circumstance after graduation. While working in a field that I enjoy and can provide me money with rent, food and other basic necessities.

ike the title says, I have been thinking of wanting to apply for grad school at a prestigious university. I dropped out of my first university due to severe depression and anxiety. I returned to university two years ago and I'm close to graduating with an Advertising degree (Dual minor in Social Media Analytics and Digital Media). I have my step father's GI bill, so it will cover 90% of my time at grad school as well as stipends for housing/rent.

As a person who deals with an inferiority complex, I doubt myself a lot. It doesn't matter that I get praised by my enthusiasm by my professors, my high marks or my dedication to my future career. Due to the trauma that I went through all of my life, I just felt awful that I even thought about applying for Grad school at a prestigious university. I currently have a 3.5, I failed my intro into accounting class despite all the hard work and effort that I put into my studies. I was on the deans list for 3 straight semesters when I first transferred here. I have been involved in clubs and really reaching out to faculty and career coaches to set my future up for success. I'm currently taking an online certification on coursera so that I can stand out after graduation when searching for a job.

Am I stupid for wanting to do this? I do try very hard in my studies. All of my professors and organization heads speak extremely highly of me. But, I doubt that I will be worth anything when applying.

Like the title says, I have been thinking of wanting to apply for grad school at a prestigious university. I dropped out of my first university due to severe depression and anxiety. I returned to university two years ago and I'm close to graduating with an Advertising degree (Dual minor in Social Media Analytics and Digital Media). I have my step father's GI bill, so it will cover 90% of my time at grad school as well as stipends for housing/rent.

As a person who deals with an inferiority complex, I doubt myself a lot. It doesn't matter that I get praised by my enthusiasm by my professors, my high marks or my dedication to my future career. Due to the trauma that I went through all of my life, I just felt awful that I even thought about applying for Grad school at a prestigious university. I currently have a 3.5, I failed my intro into accounting class despite all the hard work and effort that I put into my studies. I was on the deans list for 3 straight semesters when I first transferred here. I have been involved in clubs and really reaching out to faculty and career coaches to set my future up for success. I'm currently taking an online certification on coursera so that I can stand out after graduation when searching for a job.

Am I stupid for wanting to do this? I do try very hard in my studies. All of my professors and organization heads speak extremely highly of me. But, I doubt that I will be worth anything when applying.

Edit: I just wanted to add that I've been seeing a therapist and am on medication for the past 2 years. Though I'm at a much MUCH better place than before returning to university, It still sucks to get depression episodes from time to time. I wish I could be normal like everyone else.

A school from a different conference that has a similar fanbase, skill/potential or history as your own.

For the Vols, definitely would say Nebraska or Penn State.