u/Keksbutter123

Ugh, it`s kinda weird writing this. I`ve always heard so much good stuff of Dayz, so I caved in and bought it like last month. I knew it would be hard, to expect few interactions and lots of dying. It isnt my first time playing a hardcore game and usually I LOVE this type of games.

I played through the main campaign of Cuphead, I also enjoy Hell Let Loose, System Shook remaster is said to be difficult but I again loved the slower pasted combat and focus on resources and exploration and I also started Hunt Showdown: 1896 shortly after buying Dayz.

Now that I think of it, only one of the games that I didnt enjoy was Rust, I didnt like the focus on basebuilding and the punishment for early exploration. Partly, that was the reason why I even bought Dayz, a game without 80% of everything being locked behind a stable base

All these games are also pretty hard, so I thought i`d enjoy the challenge for Dayz too.

I... did kinda??

Ugh, thing is, at first it was A LOT of fun! I knew I wouldnt get an action filled, Left 4 Dead-like game, and for what I expected, I loved it! I loved the athmosphere and the looting, and slowly finding out how things work in such a buggy, junky mess of a game. It was all the things that I wanted from Rust and more.

then I played a little bit each day. Once I even killed a goat and ate it over a fire, my biggest achievement so far. About 3 times i`ve been shot and about 2 times peoples where friendly to me.

And then there`s the exploration aspect. Oh mannn, I love that as well! All places feel like actual places and traveling from town to town feels like a dream I`d wish I could do irl rn. I actually always think of trying hiking irl everytime I play Dayz. Something about the sheer quietness and natural beaty of those places just makes me feel happy (both irl and in-game, but prefer irl ofcourse(but im too young to hike)).

But like, all of my most recent rounds have been very VERY different.

My first complaint: I just aint seeing any players. And again, I know this game is supossed to be isolating and shits, but year me out for a second pls! I played for 30h, almost 2h every 3 days, I died like 40 times, AND I HAVENT SEEN A PLAYER **AT ALL!** I know, how seeing a player every 20 mins ruins the tension, but godammnnn, at this point, I dont even feel any tension, just cuz I have not once been shot to death by some random sniper. This game feels singleplayer at this point!

The only times I`ve ever seen a player was my first 3 or 5 rounds. I met quite a few on spawn, and even if we/I died shortly after, ts was what I wanted from Dayz. Some actual interactions with tension, where the other side could be doing planning anything.

In Arc Raiders, the abmm (action based matchmaking) removes the tension. In Rust, everyone is more toxic than the average Discord mod so shoot on sight, meaning no tension. And now in Dayz, there just are SO FEW INTERACTIONS, I literally am not scarred in the slightest bit of getting shoot.

Secondlyyyy: Performance sucks ass. Servers are laggy and I often get kicked out cuz they`re too full. This might be a mild complain and maybe only because I live in germany without any modern wi-fi cables, but it is so annoying.

And final point: At some point, everything just feels too harsh. Everything feels luck-based to be exact. I know none of the maps or spawn locations. I spawn, then I walk around and then, I either am unlucky and die or I am not and I.. survive for 2h max. I even learned a lot of mechanics of the game from youtube and from in-game experimenting. But I die so often, and every time it just feels like I wasnt lucky enough to find a knife in 20 mins. Literally what can I do against this?!

Maybe the game gets easier as I get to know the map and just have memorized where the next police station is. But like, am I just supossed to die for 200h straight cuz I cant learn a complex map?! Is everything in this game just tied to knowing the map?!

And if it is, I just dislike using maps honestly. I, as I said, like the exploration aspect, the feeling of being lost in a very real world, of discovering new unknown places. Do I have to give up the whole exploration aspect, just so I dont starve on every run!?!

All of this kinda makes me feel likes I expected the wrong type of stuff from this game. I expected more of an social game with looting, others say Dayz is first and foremost just and survival game, and to be honest, I usually dislike extreme survival games.

Should I just stop playing at this point? The only thing I can fix about my playstyle would be just switching to modded servers. I only play official so far and many people see it as a "challenge" to play on those.

pls give advice.

also, I dunno what to play so imma play Dayz now

idk why, but godamn I like this game.

I playd plenty fps before, and I can say with ease ive never had a game like this before.

The vibe qnd athmosphere is topnotch fire! Im sure ive never played a darker game before.

And the combat, both pve and pvp is just so satisfying and fair. There is always something to improve and mistakes to erase.

Im writing cuz I playd so many hardcore fos before, and all were just too hard with no real ways of improving.

"Oh, you died in Dayz?! Well, f you."

"Oh you died in Hunt Showdown?! Here's the angle you've been shoot from, the weapon, and even with a few braincells you'll notice all the mistakes you made in ur run."

plus dying wastes not much time. I swear so many people would be less annoyed in Arc Raiders, if dying and redeployibg didnt take 10 mins!!

In Hunt, at worst you loose like 750 bucks and a well leveled hunter and thats mostly it.

Im just happy to find a game, where dying is often a part of the fun and where the game lets you grow.

(also, I suck obvi, k/d at 0.25)

edit: is there an photomode?

So I ran away from home yesterday at around 3 am, returned at about 4:30 am. (by myself)

Here`s the story and also rant.

It began like every other night, my parents where in the living room watching tv at a somewhat high volume. And I cant sleep obvi cuz of that, as neither have my own room, nor a door between the living room and my bed. So it can get really annoying.

And here`s is some info about me: im pretty annoyed by loud things. And by people arguing. Chances are, it`s cuz of them. So usually, I just sit in my bed and try to sleep. And I hate every minute of it. And the anger builds up with each night. I am too nervous to go up to them and tell "can yall pls turn that shit off?", as half the time I ask for that, they take pride in their shit and ignore me.

so I got so annoyed that I just decided to shut 1 doors that is between both our rooms (which we never close, cuz idk). And I did it too hardly, and my fucking father complained. I was just dead tired and wanted to sleep, so I said if we could pls skip this discussion and if I could just go to bed. He yelled at me for being "so depressive". I just siad in an annoyed voice how I wanna sleep and just shut the door. Then he yelled SO LOUDLY, that I grabbed the plant on the side of the room and as I let it go, it ruined its balance and the vase dropped and broke.

He yelled like the mf that he is and I was so shit scarred that I just locked myself in the guest bathroom. And they the started to knock for every 30 mins and yell horrible stuff, trying to get me to sleep in my normal bed (note they didnt wanna beat me, just to get me outta the bath (for some reason)). And with each knock, I got more scarred and scarred. At 2:50 my brother left is room cuz he needed to work early, and he knocked REALLY REALLY hard on that damn door. Note, the bath was less than 1 square meter and each and every sound was louder than normal.

And then I broke. I offered and said a sentence after 3h "if yall take your distance, I`ll get out" so they did.

And I took the chance, the house was too loud for me, I couldnt take it anymore, I actively wanted to punch those people or myself if I had been longer in there. I took the chance and escaped. I quickly put on my jacket and some random shoes without socks, and I ran away.

My mother noticed, what I was trying to do and was blocking the door. Didnt stop me, I just gently pushed her aside and went away, whilst crying.

3:00 am and my original plan was just going for a 10 min walk, but as I kept thinkin about it and they kept on calling me by phone, I went farther and farther into the city center. I live in a very safe, walkable city, and im male. so I didnt need to worry that any dangerous stuff. At least I believe that. At the very least the streets were safer than anything.

Some people say you need some kind of copium for when you`re so scarred and angry, well mine is either isolation and my phone (the bathroom) or going outside, going for a walk. The beauty of my city just calms me. Even if it is scary, almost liminal being outside with no other people, once I reached the harbour, I just wanted to stay there. Then I reached the center

This is what I wrote then at 3:40 - 4:10 :

https://www.reddit.com/r/needadvice/comments/1tdi8n5/i_ran_away_from_home_need_help_asap/

https://www.reddit.com/r/Advice/comments/1tdi7cv/i_just_ran_away_from_home_need_help_asap/

I knew I couldnt stay there, I needed external advice and reddit really was my best option.

Mostly I just wanted to hear some encouragement to go back. Comments, on how people also had something similar to this in their teens, on how my parents worry sick about me. They dont I assume. Well, yeah they do. Cuz they dont wanna go to the police. They dont wanna get in trouble.

Im from pakistan and in similar third world countries, children are only made to be used as tools. They dont love me, they wanna profit from me.

Whilst I was on my walk, my father also kept texting and calling me, at some point even my brother started to call me. I always either declined or just ignored. I wrote to my father also some shit about "Pls just lemme out for a few h and go back to sleep" as kind as I could. At some point they even went out to look for me, but I have better cardio and endurance than them and got farther than them. Suffice to say, the walk did calm me down, and it brought me to tears almost 5 times, mainly cuz of reddit comments trying to tell me that my parents love me, which they probably dont.

The outside world (or isolated online world when I game) is so much better than my home, everything is quite, no one is wanting something from me. That is another BIG sidepoint: people always wanna control me for some fucking reason. My father is annoyed when I... do literally anything, Mother wants me to pray, and I have had an older brother who kept complaining about me being unmotivated at times. I broke contact with him, but I cant with my parents, I rely on them. (My middle brother is chill. Well, yesterday he wasnt with the knocking)

What I want is just some privacy: I want my own room with a lockable door, and times where my parents dont storm in while im doing stuff (mostly gaming, sometimes other stuff). And I want them to stop caring so much if they cant even control themselves in the first fucking place.

I also have noticed an immense build-up of fear from the last night, and that of anger from the last month. I constantly wanna destroy and punch things to calm down if im angry (the walked helped cuz I was scarred rather than angry). It`s the only time, they actually seem to understand and care about me. Works even better when I threaten to hit myself really hard. Self harm is something i`ve started doing last month, about every other week when my mother specifically would get on my nerves. She only listens when I start getting physical. Luckily enough, I was taught in martial arts class to never hit other people (thats how I was in able to "gently push aside" my mum with minimal force and without hurting her, and how I learned to punch things).

Since yesterday, I have not talked to my father or brother. They all seemed to ignore what I did. No speech about "here`s why you suck", also no "pls we like you, dont die". My father never said smt along the lines of "I like you" ever, so if he`s not angry, I guess he just says nothing.

What do I do chat? My older brother I already had to abandon, and now again? Is he SO angry at me, that he just stops talking to me? What do I do now? As of now, the only person positively supporting me is reddit for fucks sake. So thanks yall first of all. Thanks for reading THAT MUCH text. And pls send advice. I don know what to doooo. Today I just lied in my bed the whole day. I fear that they`ll judge me for doing literally anything else. For gaming, for trying to sharpen knifes, for drawing. I doubt they even wanna see me.

I am soo scarred while also being so angry, and I have no ways of escaping either feeling. My martial arts class dont work for me, when im there, I dont relate the fighting to violence and I cant let out my anger by just throwing people (I do judo). When im there, the kindness of the folk overwhelms me so much, that I forget about all the abuse and anger that I only feel when returning home. Those classes are a distraction and nothing else, maybe an healthy distraction, but I still feel so angry. I just wanna tell them how much they suck but I know, my shy ass cant shout louder than them so im forced to sit here on a friday evening and write ts.

TL:DR im scarred and angry at my family. I ran away to escape the loud stuff at home and they dont support me in any way, even after returning.

So I ran away from home yesterday at around 3 am, returned at about 4:30 am. (by myself)

Here`s the story and also rant.

It began like every other night, my parents where in the living room watching tv at a somewhat high volume. And I cant sleep obvi cuz of that, as neither have my own room, nor a door between the living room and my bed. So it can get really annoying.

And here`s is some info about me: im pretty annoyed by loud things. And by people arguing. Chances are, it`s cuz of them. So usually, I just sit in my bed and try to sleep. And I hate every minute of it. And the anger builds up with each night. I am too nervous to go up to them and tell "can yall pls turn that shit off?", as half the time I ask for that, they take pride in their shit and ignore me.

so I got so annoyed that I just decided to shut 1 doors that is between both our rooms (which we never close, cuz idk). And I did it too hardly, and my fucking father complained. I was just dead tired and wanted to sleep, so I said if we could pls skip this discussion and if I could just go to bed. He yelled at me for being "so depressive". I just siad in an annoyed voice how I wanna sleep and just shut the door. Then he yelled SO LOUDLY, that I grabbed the plant on the side of the room and as I let it go, it ruined its balance and the vase dropped and broke.

He yelled like the mf that he is and I was so shit scarred that I just locked myself in the guest bathroom. And they the started to knock for every 30 mins and yell horrible stuff, trying to get me to sleep in my normal bed (note they didnt wanna beat me, just to get me outta the bath (for some reason)). And with each knock, I got more scarred and scarred. At 2:50 my brother left is room cuz he needed to work early, and he knocked REALLY REALLY hard on that damn door. Note, the bath was less than 1 square meter and each and every sound was louder than normal.

And then I broke. I offered and said a sentence after 3h "if yall take your distance, I`ll get out" so they did.

And I took the chance, the house was too loud for me, I couldnt take it anymore, I actively wanted to punch those people or myself if I had been longer in there. I took the chance and escaped. I quickly put on my jacket and some random shoes without socks, and I ran away.

My mother noticed, what I was trying to do and was blocking the door. Didnt stop me, I just gently pushed her aside and went away, whilst crying.

3:00 am and my original plan was just going for a 10 min walk, but as I kept thinkin about it and they kept on calling me by phone, I went farther and farther into the city center. I live in a very safe, walkable city, and im male. so I didnt need to worry that any dangerous stuff. At least I believe that. At the very least the streets were safer than anything.

Some people say you need some kind of copium for when you`re so scarred and angry, well mine is either isolation and my phone (the bathroom) or going outside, going for a walk. The beauty of my city just calms me. Even if it is scary, almost liminal being outside with no other people, once I reached the harbour, I just wanted to stay there. Then I reached the center

This is what I wrote then at 3:40 - 4:10 :

https://www.reddit.com/r/needadvice/comments/1tdi8n5/i_ran_away_from_home_need_help_asap/

https://www.reddit.com/r/Advice/comments/1tdi7cv/i_just_ran_away_from_home_need_help_asap/

I knew I couldnt stay there, I needed external advice and reddit really was my best option.

Mostly I just wanted to hear some encouragement to go back. Comments, on how people also had something similar to this in their teens, on how my parents worry sick about me. They dont I assume. Well, yeah they do. Cuz they dont wanna go to the police. They dont wanna get in trouble.

Im from pakistan and in similar third world countries, children are only made to be used as tools. They dont love me, they wanna profit from me.

Whilst I was on my walk, my father also kept texting and calling me, at some point even my brother started to call me. I always either declined or just ignored. I wrote to my father also some shit about "Pls just lemme out for a few h and go back to sleep" as kind as I could. At some point they even went out to look for me, but I have better cardio and endurance than them and got farther than them. Suffice to say, the walk did calm me down, and it brought me to tears almost 5 times, mainly cuz of reddit comments trying to tell me that my parents love me, which they probably dont.

The outside world (or isolated online world when I game) is so much better than my home, everything is quite, no one is wanting something from me. That is another BIG sidepoint: people always wanna control me for some fucking reason. My father is annoyed when I... do literally anything, Mother wants me to pray, and I have had an older brother who kept complaining about me being unmotivated at times. I broke contact with him, but I cant with my parents, I rely on them. (My middle brother is chill. Well, yesterday he wasnt with the knocking)

What I want is just some privacy: I want my own room with a lockable door, and times where my parents dont storm in while im doing stuff (mostly gaming, sometimes other stuff). And I want them to stop caring so much if they cant even control themselves in the first fucking place.

I also have noticed an immense build-up of fear from the last night, and that of anger from the last month. I constantly wanna destroy and punch things to calm down if im angry (the walked helped cuz I was scarred rather than angry). It`s the only time, they actually seem to understand and care about me. Works even better when I threaten to hit myself really hard. Self harm is something i`ve started doing last month, about every other week when my mother specifically would get on my nerves. She only listens when I start getting physical. Luckily enough, I was taught in martial arts class to never hit other people (thats how I was in able to "gently push aside" my mum with minimal force and without hurting her, and how I learned to punch things).

Since yesterday, I have not talked to my father or brother. They all seemed to ignore what I did. No speech about "here`s why you suck", also no "pls we like you, dont die". My father never said smt along the lines of "I like you" ever, so if he`s not angry, I guess he just says nothing.

What do I do chat? My older brother I already had to abandon, and now again? Is he SO angry at me, that he just stops talking to me? What do I do now? As of now, the only person positively supporting me is reddit for fucks sake. So thanks yall first of all. Thanks for reading THAT MUCH text. And pls send advice. I don know what to doooo. Today I just lied in my bed the whole day. I fear that they`ll judge me for doing literally anything else. For gaming, for trying to sharpen knifes, for drawing. I doubt they even wanna see me.

I am soo scarred while also being so angry, and I have no ways of escaping either feeling. My martial arts class dont work for me, when im there, I dont relate the fighting to violence and I cant let out my anger by just throwing people (I do judo). When im there, the kindness of the folk overwhelms me so much, that I forget about all the abuse and anger that I only feel when returning home. Those classes are a distraction and nothing else, maybe an healthy distraction, but I still feel so angry. I just wanna tell them how much they suck but I know, my shy ass cant shout louder than them so im forced to sit here on a friday evening and write ts.

TL:DR im scarred and angry at my family. I ran away to escape the loud stuff at home and they dont support me in any way, even after returning.

I just ran away from home. Need help asap.

So,

my parents and I got into an argument and I then locked myself into the bathroom. The argument was about how they wont go quiet ecen at 1 am. I wanted to sleep in the bath and some privacy, as usually, every 30mins my parents check on ne and I have not even a room of my own. I did this for 3h and they just kept knocking on the door.

Then they got REALLY frustrated and punched it hardly, cuz they wanted to sleep. So I promised that i'd come out if they just went away.

Then I took that window of time and quickly put on my jacket and went away, as I was too annoyed of CONSTANT YELLING.

And thrn I went walking for hslf an hour. To the city center, where I have wifi and can make this post. They kept calling and still are, even send my brother for search.

But I am scarred of going back. They'll be angry, very.

Im texting with m with my father and he still is just SOOOO annoyed.

I am scarred and have to go back, sooner or later. What do I do? Pls help me yall!!!

So,

my parents and I got into an argument and I then locked myself into the bathroom. The argument was about how they wont go quiet ecen at 1 am. I wanted to sleep in the bath and some privacy, as usually, every 30mins my parents check on ne and I have not even a room of my own. I did this for 3h and they just kept knocking on the door.

Then they got REALLY frustrated and punched it hardly, cuz they wanted to sleep. So I promised that i'd come out if they just went away.

Then I took that window of time and quickly put on my jacket and went away, as I was too annoyed of CONSTANT YELLING.

And thrn I went walking for hslf an hour. To the city center, where I have wifi and can make this post. They kept calling and still are, even send my brother for search.

But I am scarred of going back. They'll be angry, very.

Im texting with m with my father and he still is just SOOOO annoyed.

I am scarred and have to go back, sooner or later. What do I do? Pls help me yall!!!

edit: im 16

So uh, I use the bow and crossbow A LOT! Is this a bad beginners weapon, or are those just as viable as those other guns?

yes, thats it.

So uh,

I played plenty of shooters before and I always thought (and still believe) that I have pretty decent aim. But whilst trying Hunt Showdown 1896, I nearly never hit those hunter. Sometimes, the ironsights dont feel like 100% accurate or not completely alligned with the actual shoot. Am I missing smt or do I just suck?

Also, I might be impatient but how long does it take `till u get decent at the game? Im sure I killed only 1 Hunter in my entire playtime, which im fine with, I dont mind hardcore games too much. But I also dont wanna spend like 1000h on this, smt like 200h would be a lot more tolerable for me.

And, as an Arc Raider player, they need to add pve mode (jk)

What I do is I just wanna chew on stuff and have smt in my mouth constantly. I dont care what it is, of course I pic the delicious stuff if it was there but as long as it aint bitter so that it tastes like poison (for example that one vegetable from Pakistan/India), imma eat it up.

What is also rather interesting is how I am not a picky eater unlike most other overweight folk as it seems like. I am much rather the solar opposite of an pick eater. Many try to help by explaining, how one can improve foods to taste much more delicious and still keep it healthy, but when I watch it, i`m always like "Nah, I could eat those berries straight without the chocolate".

I dont care about taste (unless it`s REALLY bad), I just wanna eat. Sometimes I even chew on random stuff lying around like paper that I cut out of the corner of pages or my pens. There was even a time where I was chewing copper wire that was lying around in my room.

The ways I usually snack are also just quite bizarre. Sometimes my mother boiles potatoes and just keeps them in a plate in the kitchen. Those are usually 5-7 potatoes, without any seasoning, oils or other stuff. Tbf I dont even know why she does it, maybe for me? Anyways, I can always manage to eat 3/4 of them and usually finish it all by the end of the day.

I have rarely ever feel full after eating and when I do, I feel like I overate. But even then, in 3h max I`ll be able to eat again like nothing ever happend.

So far I just viewed all of this as "Huh, I guess im fat af but at least I can chug down healthy shits", but in our household, healthy shit is never bought so I just am stuck with being overweight until I can move out and eat like 1 box of a random raw vegetable every day.

So, can yall tell if im just fat our if I should go to the doctor? Cuz I dont know shits about ED. Even if I dont have it, can yall chat give me advice on how to stop my behavior?

As of now im 16 mtf and oc im extremly overweight for my age and gender (male body cuz pretransition) if it matters, and I do carry a few autistic traits, although I didnt go to a doctor yet so I wouldnt rely on that bit of info.

Did I mention im overweight? I am EXTREMLY overweight and each time I look at the scale, it just a little higher than the last time. This is so annoying and scary and I dont know what to do.

I sm almost done with the damage so, tf do I do with those now?

I definitely wanna give em away in matches, likely not people on reddit or friends on steam.

Although, the classical way of just dropping shit in front of people is boring. Any ideas on how I could spice the give-aways up?

Maybe a shop where they need to pay or I'll shoot them (price can be very low, just 3 pieces of metal or smt).

Maybe a gameshow where 2 raiders are battling each to see who gets the stuff.

Maybe I just ask a fun question and then give it.

idk these are my ideas, yall have more creative/better stuff?

Title.

I started WAY too late cuz of work and now I am going into every event there is, too push my damage with 4-6 stacks of heavy ammo and a fully upgraded Bettina. Cuz of all the fighting, I also have about 8 Cores so I also could make those legendary weapons, but as of now I really dont need that.

Can ts work out? How can I maximize damage? should I also farm Deadlines?

God save me pls, I need that 5th skill point!

Edit: Anyone want a IV Bettina, fully modded and with 4 stacks of heavy ammo?

I hsve for the past half year slowly been switching from fast-paced fps like Tf2, Cs2 (rounds are short), Ultrakill (I still play that)

to very different shooters. The type of shooters, where in a gunfight, you might just sit behind a corner for 1 min. I played Arc Raiders, Dayz and just bought Hunt Showdown.

Nows the thing, I thought I had improved or at least carfied over some of my previous skills to said games, but no. I suck so hard in this type of slow combat. I dont know what strategies there are, when and how I should push/fall back or when to heal.

Mainly I think that's cuz I dont have that much playtime in those games. Dayz I bought last month and I ve not even been in a gunfight yet, as to be expected from Dayz, I still love that game.

Arc Raiders I have 160h but for such a long time I was just trying "hounorable combat" in mixed lobbies. But thats not how I improve my combat skill even if I were to do it, so imma have to commit fully into pvp lobbies which i am gonna do right after the expedition.

And Hunt? Well, I just bought it. Of course I only had 2 gunfights and oc I lost both of them What else is there to be expected?

So, do yall have sny tips how to fight in those games? How long I should stay behind cover, what to do when the enrmy runs or heals and all that stuff? Any help would be appreciated yall

So in this sub, most people seem to be wanting being seen by as few players as possible. They join low pop servers and avoid high traffic routes.

Now I wanna do the opposite, idc if I die I just would love to play with others. My problem is that I only had like 4 runs where I met other players.

also im new player so I suck