u/TradeSweet4965

I got it when i was around 6 years old and it makes me so happy that I still fit under it ( I'm 5'1 lol )

pretty awkward, trying to giving making another post like this a try. I am autistic, I like plushies & history, twin peaks, Anne Rices works, Vampires in general, Disney, older literature, The Weimar republic & history, stationary, the macabre etc.

Would mention a pretty important about myself but this sub automically flags the proper term as ""suggestive"" inter*** which is stupid so I'll be unfortunately using the outdated & inaccurate terminology, Hermaphrodite (since i have to use outdated terminology, no i don't have both, its hormonal. Genuinely the most insufferable part about these AI mods that some of these friendship subs have) & I'm a trans boy.

It's blue & in the shape of a sail boat

Thankfully its not as full in the day, though not as empty as I'd like. I've been through a lot recently and it genuinely feels terrifying to go out at all especially in a rural town where people have seen your face as a missing person , shared over 100 or more times. I hate going out, I wish i could be a shut in now, forever.

I have ptsd , my life is horrible for a long list of reasons , it tends to shock people online who do know my life story, its all more complicated than I'd like, I've only ever been in an actual relationship with one older man & I'm grateful it was him atleast, one good thing in my bleak life though he's gone just like harold smith in twin peaks, both shut ins so his character is comforting to me. I think living in this hellish rural area in the south , she'd understand me more than most would , same with Harold smith or Audrey horne. Unfortunately they're not real , only fictional characters. It's nice to see characters who have similar lives to me , similar issues and obstacles. Maybe one day it'll get better but I doubt it.

I'm an intersex/trans boy around 18 with no access to hormones because of where i live so people tend to assume 11-14 y.o boy age wise for me so idk , I like to cope by pretending I'm a lost boy / Peter pan adjacent

The AC in my room is broken and the heat where I live is horrible, I thought it'd be cooler since it's night time but no.. it's actually warmer than it was today. I recently bought a mini fan to cope but obviously it's not very strong

He's gone, no matter how much I wish he wasn't, I can't change it. My body aches, I'm depressed and nauseous.

He was so perfect for me and I was so perfect for him. Maybe if I get deeper into the occult, I could speak to his spirit or be guided to someone similar. He was so kind.. He was a shut in, kept to himself, etc but meeting up with me ruined everything, made things worse.. he never blamed me even once. My heart aches so much, sometimes I feel like I'll have a heart attack. It hurts extra not only was I the first person to understand him and vice versa, he was my first kiss, my first everything. I hate my life, I hate it, only this could happen to me.

My first boyfriend & guy who understood me is now deceased, our time together was brief sadly. I'm latino and my primary attraction was orginally to other latino & men of color until him. I had never been attracted to blue eyes or long blonde hair before, i also never minded body hair but now i perfer clean shaven & smooth like he was too. He had been interested into the occult since he was a teen during the satanic panic, read Anne Rice, played the piano, wore a beautiful suit, tended to victorian graves now my type is men like him, men who Resemble Lestat or Book Marius and are into the macabre. I can't find myself physically attracted to most men now even if they have a okay ish sorta personality.

It feels awful but yeah, now my type is this extremely niche sort of man and I don't know what to do because I'm like the most awkward nerdy young adult/teenage boy ever , I have no idea how to attract such a guy again.

Are there any specific spells or Magick to find/point you in the direction of a soul mate? Anything to attract someone?

In addition to that, are there books occult books that specifically touch on the topic of love? I'd love to learn more about it in general

I like to give my teddy bear forehead kisses, makes feel better when I cry and I don't want him to be so sad either.

I'm 18 m, kay that's it. Lol

How to properly do manifestation? Im new to this but I want to be pointed in the right direction. Do I need to buy new things to do this , do I just use house hold items , are there ways for it to be more effective??? Please let me know , okay bye ! Have a blessed evening/day :)

I'm an Intersex boy who's 18 years old, this does contribute to me seeming younger than I am , kinda just heads up so it isn't super off putting.

( I do have a bunch of health issues & often get sick so my replies may be a little delayed, so so very sorry !!! )

i am a level 2 Autistic, I have a love for plushies and many other things.

I often get compared to a sickly victorian boy, my typical attire doesn't help im sure lol. I've recently been getting into Anne Rices works like cry to heaven and the vampire armand. I enjoy the show separately (iwtv amc).

I enjoy the macabre. I collect teddy bear memorabilia, love classic Disney, love vampires, Oscar wilde, love learning about LGBT & Intersex history & classic literature, i like to go antiquing/thrifting, music from the 1900s-1980s mainly, etc. I often carry a teddy with me like Sebastian from Brideshead revisited. I enjoy reading & learning about history!!! I've recently been getting into the Occult ( i am very much a beginner & new to all of it ! ). I think cemeteries are beautiful.

I'd love to make other friends who are lonely , misfits, freaks, losers & get the feeling of being an outcast, you don't have to be tho! My only requirements are that you be 18 or over ( no age limit from there, you can be 50 idc ), be open minded & preferably not conservative. Other than that I'm pretty open minded and do not judge, I mean that. Let's rant, let's play online games together, watch movies together, send voice messages to each other, etc!

【Oh quick note, this goes alongside "be openminded", I don't not wish to be friends if you support the death penalty】

Okay okay feel free to dm me :) stay paw-some!🧸 please be respectful and polite

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I'm an Intersex boy who's 18 years old, ( I do have a bunch of health issues & often get sick so my replies may be a little delayed, sorry !!! )

I often get compared to a sickly victorian boy, my manner of dressing doesn't help im sure lol. I've recently been getting into Anne Rices works like cry to heaven and the vampire armand. I enjoy the macabre. I collect teddy bear memorabilia, love classic Disney, love vampires, Oscar wilde, love learning about LGBT & Intersex history & classic literature, i like to go antiquing/thrifting, music from the 1900s-1980s mainly, etc. I often carry a teddy with me like Sebastian from Brideshead revisited. I enjoy reading & learning about history!!!

I'd love to make other friends who are lonely , misfits, freaks, losers & get the feeling of being an outcast, you don't have to be tho! My only requirements are that you be 18 or over ( no age limit from there, you can be 50 idc ), be open minded & preferably not conservative.

Feel free to dm me :) stay paw-some! 🧸

I'm an Intersex boy who's 18 years old, ( I do have a bunch of health issues & often get sick so my replies may be a little delayed, sorry !!! )

I'm a big freak & loser. I often get compared to a sickly victorian boy, my manner of dressing doesn't help im sure lol. I've recently been getting into Anne Rices works like cry to heaven and the vampire armand. I enjoy the macabre. I collect teddy bear memorabilia, love classic Disney, love learning about LGBT & Intersex history & classic literature, i like to go antiquing/thrifting, music from the 1900s-1980s mainly, etc. I often carry a teddy with me like Sebastian from Brideshead revisited. I enjoy reading & learning about history!!!

I'd love to make other friends who are lonely , misfits, freaks, losers & get the feeling of being an outcast, you don't have to be tho! My only requirements are that you be over 18, open minded & preferably not conservative.

Feel free to dm me :) stay paw-some! 🧸

I'm often sick and dealing with health issues along side other stress in my life so I can't always reply to people online right away, lots of people have been overly mean and aggressive about that, it's draining. I try to reply when I can? I don't know what they expect from an 18 year old boy who was barely able to graduate because of physical & mental health issues. I do desperately want friends, I'm not purposefully mean to people or anything.

I guess I'll just stick to talking to my plushies and my quiet hobbies.