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I feel so disgusted of myself imaoooo. This morning I woke up and saw my ugly face in the mirror. And I couldn’t help but just start scratching random spot until it bled. I feel very ugly. I have acne everywhere still, and don’t go saying ‘oh just use acne products’ WHEN I ALREADY DO. I CAN’T LOOK GOOD IN ANY OUTFITS ANYMORE AND I DON’T KNOW IT SUCKS IMAO.

I’ve been really inspired to go urban exploring, but first off-I have no one to do it with. No friends, I’m lonely as hell. Second off, there’s literally nowhere in my area to explore. (I’m looking for abandoned malls, if anyone knows any abandoned malls in Washington or smth that’d be helpful.) and third, I’m thinking it’s bad for my resume if I get caught or smth, advice?

I’ve wanted to explore an abandoned mall for quite some time, but I’m worried about it being dangerous. (Especially since I’m not a guy.)

Haiiii ^_^ I’ve been thinking..should I save up to completely redecorate my room? Or get more Cutecore outfits? Or? Should I just get outfits THEN the room? Or the other way around? TwT my room is absolute trash because it’s not that cutecore. Which do I do?~ ꒰ঌ(╥﹏╥)໒꒱⋆⑅˚₊

I feel empty inside because of how ugly I am. The only thing I really feel nowdays is just emptiness, usually anger, and just a dull thing of happiness whenever something like that happens. I’m so ashamed of my own appearance. I can’t even look at the mirror anymore. I look shitty as hell. I have acne everywhere..and I hate my stupid Eurasian appearance, which ruins my eyes. I feel disgusting in every outfit. Even in those comfortable hoodies.

I did a trip maybe..eh..7 months ago? Maybe more than that? It’s been a longggg time since this happened. Anyway, it led me to the back of an old high school next to a dumpster. I had to hop a fence to get over it. It was kind of nasty. I saw a ton of homeless behind the school (how is that allowed?..) and so I walked past it, and got to this dry grass area surrounded by a fence, I ALSO saw this creepy old lady from like..the other side of the fence (I was in front of it, and she was like..maybe 20 feet away?) walking around..it felt like there was smth watching me. Idk, kind of a creepy event. I haven’t gone to do a round in like..months 😭✌️

I’m trying to go for a ‘doe eyed look’ almost but idk how to do it 😭✌️ I’ve never used eyeliner, and I only own one of those pencil ones. I might go to the store or smth and buy a liquid one later, but I still dunno how to do the doe eyed look help