u/Souldecoder

Initially, I thought it was due to consumption of pornography, so I started declining the use of it, but it did it to some extent. It decreased my brain fog a little bit. I even went to the gym for the last two months, but still, it didn't help me with any brain fog of any kind.

Then I thought it would be due to dehydration, and it was because I was consuming two or three cups of coffee per day. I started consuming more hydrating content throughout the day, which cured my little bit of brain fog.

Then again, it was due to, I thought, a lack of calories, so I started maintaining calorie balance, but it didn't have much effect on my brain fog

I am a college student, and after getting from the college, I get tired. My body gets tired. My mental energy gets exhausted. For recharging, I consume water and have a cold bath or something like that. I don't know how to cure this brain fog, or should I try it? What should I try to reduce this and completely remove this from my life.

I didn't know what streak speak I am on, but for the past 2 days I am getting little benefits, but not to the point where I am getting attraction from the people and deep sleep. These 2 things I am not getting right now, but apart from these, these are my benefits till now.

1. I become more assertive and a little bit egoistic too. When people try to push me back, I become a little more assertive and a little more stubborn. And I didn't keep my foot back just due to lack of mental energy. I was having enough energy.
2. one dog puppy came near me automatically, and where I was sitting, the puppy lay down below my legs, using it as a shelter. Another thing happened when a small kid in the street just loudly says "Hey there mommy look big brother" But the thing here is I am able to attract animals and kids, but I didn't have enough attraction for people right now. I am not getting enough from the people.
3. I was having a tired body, but still went to the gym today and did the gym very fast with very high energy and half the sleep. I didn't sleep fully. And after I came back from the gym, I felt so tired with a little bit of deep sleep. Which I found very refreshing and very energizing

So I have struggled a lot with the emotional neglect and decision making and during the process of removal of these things I found some double voices and some family structure that I want you to share with us so you can find it too if you have these If you have been arrange narcissistic family structure where the people already have a very active nervous system but you as a normal person struggle with these Definitely you were the scapegoat and you have faced some of these which I am listing on the basis of my experience

1. My parents gave me food enough for the survival but not enough calorie requirements that fulfill my bodily needs and they later taunt me for "why I am getting slim ? "

2. My clothes were stained and not of my choice not of my fitting as whenever we go for shopping of clothes my mother used to interfere in my clothes and choose it for me and they later taunt to me that why " I don't stay hygienic and in a proper format ?"

3. Whenever I work something extra and earn some amount of pocket money from my skills or something they take my money for some urgent need and they get a taunt to meet that " I am not motivated and ambitious enough?"

4. They disturb my sleep and do not follow a proper sleep schedule which makes my body a little sensitive and they later taunt me for "very obsessed with the sleep"

5. They leave decision on me and whatever the reason I take they taunt me or describe it as simply " wrong decision "or some kind of mistake by nitpicking it their default response is "Nah this is wrong" not because it is illogical but its done by you

First of all, why am I writing this post? Because I felt a lot of nostalgia for the college and, side by side, felt very sympathetic and helpless and powerless about my situation right now. I don't know where I am heading and what I will end up with.

I grew up in a toxic childhood, and now I am without my father figure. After that, I have a very hard time fitting in the group and have always been lonely and outcast by the group. In college, this has become more intense because people here have a lot of masks on their face and no consideration for friendship without results Along with this, I have a history of emotional neglect, problem-and-decision-making, and attracted a lot of narcissists and self-centered people. I see people reciprocating to each other, supporting each other, but I don't even have one person who I can call my friend in college I have many connections and acquaintances. But whatever person I attract ends up being with a mask and self-centeredness.

I don't know what I am going to become either. I end up being like them or just a person with high empathy, low boundaries, with a little bit of ego, no toleration, and always blocking them in the end.

My hobbies

• Deep passion for machine learning
• Psychology
• Human behavior
• A little bit about astrology
• Read about Vedic philosophy
• Avid book reader

First of all, from which house can I see the flow state? I feel a complete loss of time and full focus. But the condition is that no people should be around, no person, and I should be isolated so that it generates solitude.

After flow state, I feel like I am recharged and connected to my emotional self and my inner self, generally overall. Forget all the tensions, forget all the anxiety-related things, and just I will do now anything mentality.

I have struggled a lot in socializing for the past 3-4 years and have a hard time fitting in the group due to my non-alignment of personality. But between these, I have found three or four people who have my personality type, and we go well with each other, from which the majority had a narcissistic or self-centered tendency. Maybe because I have narcissistic tendencies or I have a low-boundaries and high-empathy type of personality but I go well with the philosophers and type of people who think about" why I exist. "

What I have learned about socializing is that whenever I gave some kind of results, like good marks or workmanship in the laboratory, the group associated with that work includes me, respects me, and communicates with me in a proper way. And whenever I lose the results, they tend to outcast me or make me lonely, or just decide their things in between them and not include me or even suggest to me.

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EDIT : 1/1 chart done

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I noticed a pattern Abt decision making

Whenever I try to make decision on my own I am so unsure about it I try to talk to a respectable person I know and follow their advice with my own salt like base of decision is not mine but I don't blame them either if the decision gone wrong or right

Another thing in case situation is so uneven I can't discuss with those people so I make decision in away that I try to break my decision by doing a contradictory thing to that decision so I don't bear the consequences of it so I am becoming more unsure Abt it

Previously I have overcame the emotional neglect I can clearly see through it my parents were lazy Abt the stained clothes so till a certain age I was too but how I can see and overcome emotional neglect at my will and improve it on weekly basis ,

my parents chose the clothes they like not of my fitting but now whenever I go to shopping for clothes i refrain them from interfering and take my clothes and mention their decision is wrong as I don't like it personally

these are my observations till now so pls comment on this if u have any other observation for it

I have dealt with 3-4 narcissists in my life till now and I found some common traits they have, like a constantly stimulated nervous system and always being in survival mode. So consuming too much caffeine, like tea and coffee
Along with this weird energy of isolation, they avoid groups for some reason. I don't know, especially for the social narcissist I have met. I don't know about the social narcissist.

my questions :

So, particularly, I want to know: what is a narcissistic supply? What are the telltale signs that the person is trying to get the supply from you? You can detect it and not give it on time.

And along with this, I want to know why the person why the narcissistic chose me, just because I have empathy or I have low boundaries or any other reason other than that.

Thanks a lot for your support in advance. !

The following questions will be very different, so these are not points, but these are separate individual questions, or may or may not be connected to each other.

1. I have seen narcissistic people, very result-oriented people, and they usually have good connections. They materialistically get all the things they want. I have seen from the outside very easily. But as much as theory I have read about narcissistic people, they are complete void. So what problems do you face that you desire that other people have and you don't have? Is it having a personality? Is it having a healthy relationship dynamic, or what that you desire and you don't have, but other normal people have?

2. if someone ignores you, I have seen narcissistic people get some injury, but what about blocking? If someone blocks you, your victim blocks you. What intensity of injury have you felt from inside? Like, narcissistic people, as much as I read, don't process emotions like normal people. How does a narcissistic person feel when someone blocks him or her?

I listen to other people's personal experiences and share my own. Recently, I started the gym, and one person in my circle, not in my friend circle but someone I interact with daily, shared that my progress is good. After that, he started giving his life lessons about the gym, sports, and physique.

Then I thought a philosophical discussion would be created because we were both interested in philosophy. I did the same, but after a few statements I made, he started giving his life lessons about philosophical things, how much he read it, etc. If I listen to these types of people, does it give me respect, or does it make me carry emotional baggage? Does it count as good listening skills or something else?

Where the person has good listening skills versus where the person is becoming an emotional baggage ?

ARIES ASCENDENT ONLY

1. rahu in aq in 11H and ketu in leo in 5H
2. saturn in cancer

If your chart satisfies one statement, you can still share your chart. If your chart satisfies both statements, pls share it asap ! but you must be ARIES ASC and any moon sign you can be It could be with any placement. It doesn't matter in which house it sits. It doesn't matter if it is in conjunction with any other planet .

I have been struggling to fit in the groups as I have a little rebellious nature and intellectual freedom

so nature has given me a new way of making social connections that I started attracting outcasts, actually. This sometimes includes people who are narcissists and have selfish tendencies, but I found people of my type don't actually grow well with groups

I found that I like people who are ambitious, spiritual, focus on self-improvement, and have hobbies. And all my friends need not meet on a daily basis, but just one or two proper meetings will make our connection. We can actually be very good friends without meeting each other for a very long, long time. <- my new way / my way

Friendships are focused on intellectual similarity, like the same mental energy and the same emotional patterns. If you are the scapegoat, you are likely to attract more people who are scapegoats or more dependent and don't have boundaries. If you have the same mental energy and have boundaries by yourself, you will become kind of an inspiration between these people.

How have you guys who have faced outcasting and loneliness in their college days overcome it in the corporate world or in the adult world? How does friendship in the adult world work, because the friendship we used to have in childhood is very different from the adult friend circle

what you have done with a lot of free time, with that outcasting and loneliness, and is traveling more, watching movies more, or joining clubs or any sports, helped you in overcoming that?

I was doing well last week, but this time my family members were outside, so I was home alone the whole day. Sitting there, I did a lot of research in the afternoon time. I kept myself busy in the morning and afternoon as well, but in the evening time I was home alone with brain fog and a sluggish body due to withdrawal symptoms. The sluggish body and fatigue is some real problem. However, I can deal with brain fog to a certain extent, but that is again a problem too.

And just the one video thing made me relax today. But instead of spiraling, I just did it one time.

I want quick recovery. How can I do this?

1. I will read only one chart for one person in detail.
2. It is on a first-come, first-served basis.
3. Please do not post any chart in the comments box.
4. And put your presence in the comments only.

EDIT : slot 1/1 filled by female candidate

I was observing today in college and realized almost all people who were empathetic and good in nature were alone sitting in the corner. But people who have generational wealth or have very great exceptional results have groups.

Is this the social life of adulthood, like after college and even in college, the friend circle or social circle? That every other guy is lonely and loneliness is increasing, or am I missing something or overthinking?

I was observing today in college and realized almost all people who were empathetic and good in nature were alone sitting in the corner. But people who have generational wealth or have very great exceptional results have groups.

Is this the social life of adulthood, like after college and even in college, the friend circle or social circle? That every other guy is lonely and loneliness is increasing, or am I missing something or overthinking?