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All I’ve got are chunky monkey shoes

I want something super simple/minimal/subtle.

All I’ve got are chunky monkey shoes

I want something super simple/minimal/subtle.

People say you can’t take meat out for more than a few hours before it goes bad but for example:

I have a BBQ

Cooked chicken, beef ribs, vegetables.

It’s in my fridge at home. I leave at 8am with it in a lunch bag not insulated/cold. Eat around 12-1pm and it’s fine. It’s not sitting in a fridge either. Am I missing something?

Edit: it makes me think of all the food I see in places like south east Asia or Latin America, not just the street food as that’s often continuously heated but lots of food is sitting in warm enviroments outside

Been in the industry a decade.

Mostly hovered around 30-50k (larger side being a rarity so most of the years around 30k but thought I’d put it as luck hit me a few years ago)

Now in my thirties I feel I need more stability as I’m now on the lower side of that income.

I’m a music producer. Independent no mgmt or signed publishing etc.

No idea what to do with my life and kind of wish I got a better job outside of school instead of being this deep into music as it’s all I know and no idea how I’d go into another workforce. I’ve only ever really worked for myself.

EDIT: very likely I could make 20k this year hence my worrying

Between 11 am and 3 pm tomorrow I will be out on the hot streets of Merida with my bags as I cross between accommodations.

Of course this is too heat time so I’d like to prepare for something to do during these hours. Ideally I just wait in once place (I’ll be in centro) for the 4 hours as I got these bags with me.

Any recommendations?

Long story short

On 50mg for 1.5 year

Therapy alongside it and still today

Grew up deeply dysfunctional enviroments for 15 years and got CPTSD

Medication helped in that moment

Since going off ive remained active and improved in many ways

Yet I can just feel low. Not happy. Not positive. Granted it could be cause finances are going down and I have nobody to fall back on.

Ideally this passes

I’m not sure if it’s related but maybe it could be

Was on sertraline for just over a year. 50mg. So nothing too big. First time ever. Helped tremendously as I was in therapy during the time too (still am). Lots of childhood trauma and big life changes now still. So much awful stuff honestly that I’m coming to terms with.

I went off it as I felt kinda numb.

First week / 2 was weird. More anxious etc

But at this point I’m a lot better in terms of I’m outside doing things, not as anxious.

I just don’t feel happy really. Maybe depressed. I live a healthy lifestyle. I’ve taken myself on a week break where I am now to try change scenery. Yesterday was pretty good but today I just feel mehhhhh. I don’t know what’s wrong. Financially I worry. I’m living in a new country currently

Ive had tons of trips. Many good. Only maybe 2-4 where things were a bit dodgier.

Im away on a trip and felt like today would be the day to do them. Its in the morning here.

Yet i didnt sleep well, stomachs a bit funky and i generally feel a bit anxious.

Still a part of me wants to do them but usually im in a better mood and such.

Any similar experiences?

Edit: think ill just save them for another day as I’d rather not waste them, I don’t even think I’d have a “bad” trip in terms of anxiety it just wouldn’t be as enjoyable as if I was to take them on a real positive happy day ya know

Keeping things short happy to go deeper in comments

Ages 14-27 in particular lots of environmental trauma
Broken dysfunctional home of abuse alcoholism gaslighting manipulation etc since young

This affected life at school etc bullying. Became mute. Defensive. Isolated etc

I’ve come soooooo far and I’m thankful at 32. Moved abroad starting new. Therapy. Healthier life. Still in solitude but branching out lately.

In breathwork when I hold breath it makes me feel spot light effect, like the bullies are there like hyenas and picking me apart, like somethings wrong with me etc

How to find peace in this stage and release? Self love and acceptance?

What age range do you find most legit DMs ?

So far I just plan on

- Running Paseo Montejo
- Manicure
- Cafe trips to be outside / watch the environment
- Any parks to chill in shade and read a book
- music museum
- check out any local clothing stores
- hang at accommodation by pool / bbq

Any good spots to eat in the lunch time?

I work in film and music fwiw and interested in anything like that / good food / experiences

I’m 32 and grew up in a deeply dysfunctional, traumatic family environment. For years I didn’t understand what was happening,I was the scapegoat, surrounded by manipulation and gaslighting, and I learned to stay quiet. I became almost invisible. A doormat.

Through my twenties I carried all of that, but I also got lucky, I built an online creative career, traveled, and experienced the world. The freedom was real, but internally I was still trapped. I didn’t even know how stuck I was at the time.

The last few years changed everything. Therapy, proper support, cutting contact with toxic people, and fully moving abroad. It’s like something inside me finally started to bloom. The irony is that as I’ve grown the most internally, my finances have taken a hit. I still have dreams and what I do for money is part of those dreams, but it’s a tension I live with daily.

Here’s what I really want to ask about: I used to feel a strong spiritual presence. Like a guardian angel or God by my side, I’d pray, and I’d feel this physical tingling sensation, like I was being heard and met. Now that feeling is gone. I’m more pessimistic, ruminating, and feel spiritually alone in a way I didn’t before.

But here’s the thing, the signs are still showing up. Last year when I was genuinely close to giving up, something significant broke for my career the very next day and set me up for months. When I needed my rent to drop by 50% to keep living well, it happened exactly like that when I moved. These things feel undeniable to me.

So is this part of the Dark Night of the Soul? Where the felt sense of God or guidance goes quiet, but looking back, the support is still clearly there? Has anyone experienced this disconnect between not feeling held and still clearly being held?

I’d like to buy some clothes (man)

No idea how to word that title lol. 24/7 is exaggerating

I’m living in Mexico. Relatively new. Taking Spanish lessons and improving.

I’m in a taxi right now listening to the radio and I pick up some words but not clear on full sentences.

I’d love to have Mexican radio playing in my kitchen all the time but somehow see a visual of the transcribed text to English so I can learn like this too.

I mean like on a small tv with WiFi or something idk.

Is there anything like it?

Otherwise I could do just Mexican Amazon prime tv with English subtitles for example.

I live a healthy lifestyle and eat mostly whole foods firstly.

Recently I got some Vital Protein Collagen Peptides as I heard it would help my skin as I get older 32m

I think I see a difference in my skin which is good but it wakes me up all throughout the night so I have to stop it. I tested on n off and it’s definitely this collagen powder. Even tried one scoop first thing in the morning with tea yet still wake up all throughout the night.

I hear this could be due to an underlying histamine intolerance too. Anyone else?

Any other collagen or something will work for my face skin?

I live a healthy lifestyle and eat mostly whole foods firstly.

Recently I got some Vital Protein Collagen Peptides as I heard it would help my skin as I get older 32m

I think I see a difference in my skin which is good but it wakes me up all throughout the night so I have to stop it. I tested on n off and it’s definitely this collagen powder. Even tried one scoop first thing in the morning with tea yet still wake up all throughout the night.

Any other collagen or something will work for my face skin?

So previously I would do splits of like chest/tris, legs/abs etc when I was young first going to the gym

I’d always feel the ache / doms the day after

I stopped going to the gym for ages and just ran, some combat sports, calisyhnics gym now and then but nothing serious

Anyways lately I picked up some dumbbells and been doing some full body workouts at home and the domskick in on day two/3 so like when am I suppose to train again?

Just going up there for a meeting but will make the most of the trip.

Not there to do adventurous tourist beach stuff. More hang out in the city, maybe shopping mall, cinema, lunch kind of things.

In my thirties working in film/music/tech. So anything arts or unique experiences I’m all for. Something chill

Meeting is by Plaza Las Americas so anywhere close to there / by uber

For example I’m going to get a sports jersey and would like some cool silver jewellery - nothing that breaks the bank too much
Thrift store clothing like 2nd street or wasteland vibes

I live in Playa Del Carmen, I’m going up to Cancun today for a meeting. So I’m not there doing tourist adventure beach stuff.

I want to make the most of the drive and do some things up there.

Generic but top of my head, shopping mall, cinema, lunch.

I work in music/film so anything creative/arts/experience/unique/tech I’m interested in

Meeting is by Plaza Las Americas so anywhere close to there / by uber

For example I’m going to get a sports jersey and would like some cool silver jewellery - nothing that breaks the bank too much

Thrift store clothing like 2nd street or wasteland vibes

So I’m living in playa del carmen but I got to go cancun today for a meeting.

I’m never up there so thought I’ll do some stuff whilst there.

Not adventure tourist stuff but maybe a shopping mall, cinema, lunch these kind of things.

Any recos?

I work in the music/film industry so love anything creative/arts, sports, tech etc

I’ll be solo!

Meeting is by Plaza Las Americas so anywhere close to there / by uber

For example I’m going to get a sports jersey and would like some cool silver jewellery - nothing that breaks the bank too much

Thrift store clothing like 2nd street or wasteland vibes