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For a while I’ve used my full name but I don’t like how it looks

In recent years I made a new alias and wondering if I could register it as a LLC or something and just use it as the official credits for PRO like PRS etc for example

Ziggy Stardust for example. That would show up in credits of songwriter or producer instead of birth name

Only here for a week. Want a toaster for bread. Instead of buying a new one from Walmart is there any stores I can pick one up for 100-200mxn

Any that does the job!

I’m at least 4.7”

I was 6”+ before

This is just measuring from tip to the skin not pushing back into the bone which some say to do which I’m more 5.5” then

I’m fit healthy so not fat to lose

I never ever had a issue with my penis it worked great and the ladies enjoyed it

I haven’t had sex in a few years due to peyronies
I got it fixed. Surgery implant. So painful.

Anyways I haven’t had sex on this too now as it feels so small.

So distressing

I had a at2020 for years. Got it for free.

Recently I picked up the Sm7db as I heard it’s a versatile mic to record my vocals and artists I work with. I’m a producer mostly.

Travelling a lot and recording vocals on my beats.

Id4 interface.

I tend to sing quite close to the top of the mic. From googling maybe I got to sing off in diagonal direction maybe.

Thought I’d post incase anyone got advice?

Was on 50mg for a year

Helped a lot at the time with rumination and anxiety

Was 30 years old

Went off for about 6 months

Now I need to get back on as my life is just hard no family money declining nothing to fall back on deep cptsd

I wake up like with the almost feeling of needing to catch my breath anxiety still

Anyone else feel like this going back on?

I feel like when I first got on it I felt good pretty quickly

Is this normal? I’m on EST. Thought it’d be USA but it’s like Indians and Asia so far in the few likes I’m getting.

Anyone got advice on how to work through nervous system stuff to manifest dream life?

A few points:

- dysfunctional alcoholic family
- now I’m by myself in new country leave old life behind
- bullies in school
- never feeling enough or worthy
- feeling like something is wrong with me I guess due to all the above
- becoming a scape goat to narcs
- feeling weak and inferior

I’m now in my 30s got therapy do EMDR meditation breathwork and stuff

On the right path

But my survival mode tendencies block manifesting

Long story short I make a lot of music online and it’s been really rewarding but I’m just in my apartment by myself. I live in a very small town and people are mostly in the studio for reggae music.

I’ve got a couple placements via the internet and I’m looking to do a trip to Los Angeles in a few months to connect with some artists and some managers.

Thing is I’m a whole fish out of water. I’m kind of introverted and shy. But I see people I look up to in the music industry who clearly are good with people so I want to improve in that part.

Any advice?

I’m thinking to start joining more hobbies or something to be around people talking and being human.

I’m a 32 year old guy here.

Pretty much been running since I was around 23. Frequently. 5-10ks mostly. Just a good way to start the day.

Not long ago I had a surgery so had to stop. Since being back I’ve started off walking. 10k steps kinda distances. I’ll throw in some light sprints here and there.

I kind of prefer it right now.

It’s calm. Casual. Not a slog. And I enjoy sprinting now and then in short bursts.

I’m just wondering how beneficial is this instead of running? Long term…

I bought a NLT bible cause honestly I see Jesus Christ talked about more than any others like Allah, Buddha etc…

Of course I resonate with a bunch of proverbs in the NLT, like I would in the Quran and others.

But I’m wondering if there’s a go to book of like one god above all of it?

Got like 4 hours to kill in Cancun tomorrow from 12-4.

Probably will go to a shopping mall or something maybe see a film.

Wanted to make this post incase any suggestions.

Ideally not in any super busy packed places. Just looking for relaxing vibes in AC / cooler areas.

Also any legit big Havianas (sandals) stores?

I keep finding small Havianas sections in places but they don’t have enough sizes

Long story short I’m out on my morning walk it’s a beautiful day. Sun is shining. I’ve done a bit of a run. I’ve gone down to the beach getting some exercise before I go home. Get some work done.

And I’m quite literally just arguing in my head and even a bit out loud to people that I thought were friends many years ago who kind of belittled me made me feel small try to put me in a box and tell me who I am they didn’t accept me as I am and they wanted me as like some little scapegoat where they could offload all their own trauma

Because now I look back and I always knew what they were saying wasn’t my reality but I can see how it is theirs so they’re quite literally projecting but because I was so insecure and weak, I didn’t have a good family system and I didn’t have help I kind of became a doormat and it allowed people like this into my life like narcissist and they were just use me as the battle of the joke almost in conversations to make themselves feel better, I guess.

So here I am years later and I’m I’m not around them anymore, but I’m here like trying to defend my Myself all the way back then and it’s almost like I want them to know that they they’re fucking wrong
And it’s not healthy, but it’s like I almost want to get super successful just to be like that’s right

Been off Zoloft 130 days after a year on it, thinking about going back on but feel bad about that. Anyone relate / have advice / motivation?

Undiagnosed CPTSD since about 14, I’m 32 now. Grew up with addiction in the house, no adults to turn on to.

At 14-15 I was literally asking for someone to help, for my parents to get into rehab, for someone to get me out. Nobody came. So I turned to the internet and diagnosed myself with anxiety and depression based on what I read.

Didn’t get real help until 29. Started with talk therapy, which made me realise none of what I went through was normal, then moved into trauma work: somatic, EMDR, IFS, CBT. That’s when I understood this wasn’t just anxiety and depression.

Trauma stuck in the body works differently. Hypervigilance, can’t come down off red alert, spotlight effect, the way you relate to people is just altered. Not the same as anxiety from a breakup.
I’m stubborn and always believed I could fix myself through exercise, clean eating, meditation, reading. Those help and I’ll keep doing them, but I reluctantly went on 50mg sertraline for a year. Doctor said I could stop after 6 months, I stayed on for 12. It worked well the whole time.

130 days off it now and it’s been okay, but stuff I never got around to while medicated, mainly becoming social again after years of real isolation in foreign countries, is starting to feel harder again. I’m leaning toward going back on the same dose for 6 months.

Part of me resists because coming off makes you think you’re “cured,” but that’s not how this works. There were things I needed to do while on it that I didn’t do.

Anyone been through this cycle? Off it, doing fine, then things creep back and you need another stretch on it, not forever, just longer than a year after this much trauma?

Undiagnosed CPTSD since about 14, I’m 32 now. Grew up with addiction in the house, no adults to turn on to.

At 14-15 I was literally asking for someone to help, for my parents to get into rehab, for someone to get me out. Nobody came. So I turned to the internet and diagnosed myself with anxiety and depression based on what I read.

Didn’t get real help until 29. Started with talk therapy, which made me realise none of what I went through was normal, then moved into trauma work: somatic, EMDR, IFS, CBT. That’s when I understood this wasn’t just anxiety and depression.

Trauma stuck in the body works differently. Hypervigilance, can’t come down off red alert, spotlight effect, the way you relate to people is just altered. Not the same as anxiety from a breakup.
I’m stubborn and always believed I could fix myself through exercise, clean eating, meditation, reading. Those help and I’ll keep doing them, but I reluctantly went on 50mg sertraline for a year. Doctor said I could stop after 6 months, I stayed on for 12. It worked well the whole time.

130 days off it now and it’s been okay, but stuff I never got around to while medicated, mainly becoming social again after years of real isolation in foreign countries, is starting to feel harder again. I’m leaning toward going back on the same dose for 6 months.

Part of me resists because coming off makes you think you’re “cured,” but that’s not how this works. There were things I needed to do while on it that I didn’t do.

Anyone been through this cycle? Off it, doing fine, then things creep back and you need another stretch on it, not forever, just longer than a year after this much trauma?

Long story short (I’m on phone)

I don’t have family, dark cptsd, stuck in freeze state a lot, hyper vigilant, deer in headlights, spotlight effect, on edge speaking to anyone, inner critic, wake up and feel like someone is judging me instantly (me judging the feeling I feel), feeling like an alien, ugly, bad body dysmorphia. I’m so isolated.

Just something’s off top of head.

I’ve done sooooo much work. Currently doing EMDR and IFS which have helped a lot! And I’ve grown so much. I’m way better than ever. Which always makes me feel like I shouldn’t go down the medication route. More so out of fear of it making things worse.

But I’m at a point thinking maybe it’s the thing I need.

I’ve been through hellish trauma from 14-25. I’m 32 now.

I spoke with doctor and they recommended sertraline. 50mg. We start smaller though and build up.

I’m wondering to anyone out there who’s either been on and off for long periods or just on for like 5-10+ years. Does it harm us much? I have healthy anxiety too so that’s probably asking 😅

I need a damn break

I’m 32

Always been against trying medication MYSELF as I didn’t want extra chemicals in me.

But now after years of work

Maybe it’s necessary

Doc recommending sertraline

Curious if others have any life changing positive experiences so I can look into the drugs and talk to doc

I’m 32

Always been against trying medication MYSELF as I didn’t want extra chemicals in me.

I exercise, sleep somewhat normal, eat clean, put in nature, try meditate etc

But now after years of work

Maybe it’s necessary

Doc recommending sertraline

Curious if others have any life changing positive experiences so I can look into the drugs and talk to doc

(I don’t have family, dark cptsd, stuck in freeze state a lot, hyper vigilant, deer in headlights, spotlight effect, on edge speaking to anyone, inner critic, wake up and feel like someone is judging me instantly (me judging the feeling I feel), feeling like an alien, ugly, bad body dysmorphia. I’m so isolated.)

I’m 32

Always been against trying medication MYSELF as I didn’t want extra chemicals in me.

But now after years of work

Maybe it’s necessary

Doc recommending sertraline

Curious if others have any life changing positive experiences so I can look into the drugs and talk to doc

(I don’t have family, dark cptsd, stuck in freeze state a lot, hyper vigilant, deer in headlights, spotlight effect, on edge speaking to anyone, inner critic, wake up and feel like someone is judging me instantly (me judging the feeling I feel), feeling like an alien, ugly, bad body dysmorphia. I’m so isolated.)

I’ve always been someone that’s not gone down the medication route.

Thinking I can do it myself if I keep persevering but now I’m thinking maybe it’s necessary due to my upbringing.

Doctor suggested sertraline.

Just curious to hear from others if any really helped them?