u/Ecstatic_City_1529

I’m at my lowest I have been in a really long time I was feeling euphoric mostly cause of my relationship with my ex he was angelic he took care of me listened to all I had to say but as it goes
I figured he was cheating on me the whole time. I really did my all I gave him all my love but I think I was acting dumb too as there were many red flags that I didn’t see just because my relationship with him in person was beautiful but he used to act odd other than that.
I’m heartbroken and feel so hurt watching him get the fame and now he’s in another relationship that he publicly posted
Before that I was being posted
I was the one he was singing songs for
Now it’s her
And I see how he’s deceiving her too as he isn’t loyal to anyone he was texting many women with me too
I had a chance to expose him but couldn’t have enough courage to do so as.. as I was scared he turned out to be all fraud
His career his history and his family too helping him put up with lies which is weird and so wrong cus why would u let ur brother and son to do something this bad to his gf
Now im completely devastated I will not feel safe in my relationships no more
He ruined my sense of self and my trust in people
I have nothing going on for me nor do I have any energy to do so. I know that is not my fault I’m depressed and need treatment but for now I don’t have access to that
I don’t know when will I stop feeling like this
Im just writing it to get it out of my head
It’s like I have failed
Morally as well as emotionally
Morally cause I had a chance to expose him but wasn’t courageous enough cus a lot of bad things were coming out abt him like drug use and accusing women of stuff
He was a pathological liar and idk how bad he is and what’s under the mask he put on

He’s out there dating another women
I know who he is and now he’s gonna go do it again
It hurts that I didn’t go public about it and he got no consequences even infact he got more fame than ever
I’m tired but I’m grieving the person I thought he was I’m angered at him for who he turned out to be and I feel guilty for not taking him out in public
While he ruined my life

He was a cheater and I made alot of sacrifices for him got against my family
My family had turned really cruel towards me were threatening me that they’ll stop my education even. But I didn’t stop loving him I was so blind in love I don’t know what else I could’ve done to keep him
But to him it wasn’t anything
I eventually figured he was texting two more women and idk how many I don’t even know of
Well he was lying throughout everything he had said was a lie from hating drugs to his career all were lies he tricked me into loving him by saying all the right things and basically he was my best friend but he didn’t care a bit about whether I live or die. My friends were trying to make an expose post but I just couldn’t bring myself to take part in it as if my family had known esp my father it would create so much trouble for me as he might have my private pictures.
But the thought of him doing exact same things with others suck the life out of me I feel like I will be responsible if he does it again with another cause I couldn’t bring myself to upfront get public abt it
Like for the context it would’ve been anonymous but he’d know I’m behind it
Considering his fake life and fake love I would’nt be surprised if he gets back become a stalker and try to hurt me
I’m just struggling so much with these thoughts of saving myself vs saving others
But I feel like an Ass hole for not being courageous enough.

He was a cheater and I made alot of sacrifices for him got against my family
My family had turned really cruel towards me were threatening me that they’ll stop my education even. But I didn’t stop loving him I was so blind in love I don’t know what else I could’ve done to keep him
But to him it wasn’t anything
I eventually figured he was texting two more women and idk how many I don’t even know of
Well he was lying throughout everything he had said was a lie from hating drugs to his career all were lies he tricked me into loving him by saying all the right things and basically he was my best friend but he didn’t care a bit about whether I live or die. My friends were trying to make an expose post but I just couldn’t bring myself to take part in it as if my family had known esp my father it would create so much trouble for me as he might have my private pictures.
But the thought of him doing exact same things with others suck the life out of me I feel like I will be responsible if he does it again with another cause I couldn’t bring myself to upfront get public abt it
Like for the context it would’ve been anonymous but he’d know I’m behind it
Considering his fake life and fake love I would’nt be surprised if he gets back become a stalker and try to hurt me
I’m just struggling so much with these thoughts of saving myself vs saving others
But I feel like an Ass hole for not being courageous enough.

I have been in a relationship which shrank my world, my family got in between and yk how families are In third world countries they were abusive towards me bcz of my rs and stuff and still I ended up getting cheated on. So that’s there but now I’m tryna build my social life cause I barely talk to anyone and maybe that’s why people take advantage of me. I barely go out cause it’s curfew in my house all the time too😭
And my closest friend circle is kinda distant too cause of how strict my family is they sometimes get mean to my immediate friends. It’s incredibly isolating for me cause I’m forgetting how to even communicate
I feel like I’m boring and not worth talking to so people become mean towards me.
But I have all the good intentions and I do everything to love and care for my friends. But my family just keeps taking everything away from me. And that’s what my ex kept doing too.
How do I become more social when my family limits me and I too feel insecure abt how I talk

I have been in a relationship which shrank my world, my family got in between and yk how families are In third world countries they were abusive towards me bcz of my rs and stuff and still I ended up getting cheated on. So that’s there but now I’m tryna build my social life cause I barely talk to anyone and maybe that’s why people take advantage of me. I barely go out cause it’s curfew in my house all the time too😭
And my closest friend circle is kinda distant too cause of how strict my family is they sometimes get mean to my immediate friends. It’s incredibly isolating for me cause I’m forgetting how to even communicate
I feel like I’m boring and not worth talking to so people become mean towards me.
But I have all the good intentions and I do everything to love and care for my friends. But my family just keeps taking everything away from me. And that’s what my ex kept doing too.
How do I become more social when my family limits me and I too feel insecure abt how I talk

I feel like years of isolation have made me an easy target for people who don’t have good intentions, and I don’t know how to fix it.
I was in a relationship that ended up shrinking my entire world. My family also became much stricter because of it (I’m from a third-world country where parents can be very controlling), so I rarely get to go out. Ironically, after all that, I still got cheated on.
Now I’m trying to rebuild my social life, but I barely interact with anyone. My closest friend group has become distant because it’s hard for me to meet them, and my family has even been rude to some of my friends. It’s incredibly isolating, and I genuinely feel like I’m forgetting how to socialize.
I also have depression and social anxiety, so I overthink everything I say. I constantly feel like I’m boring or that people won’t enjoy talking to me, which makes me shut down even more.
I know staying isolated isn’t helping, but I don’t know how to become more social when I have limited freedom and very little confidence.
Has anyone managed to rebuild their social skills after years of isolation? How did you meet people, become more confident, and stop feeling like you had nothing worth saying?
I’d really appreciate hearing from people who’ve been through something similar.

If you do know how to pirate it lemme know and if it’s safe to download it on my laptop. I’ve seen some sites but they seem to carry viruses I wanna start on graphic designing as I’m doing a course but I don’t have any software yet I started Canva but it doesn’t have much features it’ll help me a ton if I get a pirated version as paying for it costs like most of my pocket money it’s expensive in my country. Thank u

I get angry af cause they just don’t leave me alone even when I say don’t talk to me
I know I’m being a bitch but the fact that they don’t listen turn me into one
How to not get so angry as I know it’s bad and I feel guilty later
As they fight back and leave
But they just don’t respect my boundaries

I ruminate all day abt things that went on after my breakup any advice

My research partner and I are currently working on our annual research project. I’ve almost completed a draft of the Introduction and Materials & Methods sections, although they still need refinement and additional information that we’ll obtain later from our data analysis. The problem is that I have very little knowledge of research methodology, biostatistics, or SPSS.
My partner has experience with SPSS and has offered to handle the statistical analysis, which is helpful because my laptop is currently not functioning properly. However, I still want to contribute meaningfully to the project rather than simply waiting for the analysis to be completed.
At the moment, I’m unsure what skills or concepts I should focus on learning. What aspects of a retrospective study should I understand in order to contribute effectively? Are there specific topics, research concepts, or sections of the manuscript that I can work on while the statistical analysis is being performed?
For some context, I’m a first-year medical student and this is my first research project. We were randomly assigned into groups, and I don’t really know my teammates personally. Communication within the group has also been somewhat limited, which sometimes makes me feel as though I’m not doing enough.
I have tried learning research on my own, but the field feels enormous and a bit overwhelming. Since we need to complete the project within the next two months, I’m hoping to focus my efforts on the most important things first.
If anyone could suggest what I should learn, read, or work on during this stage of the project, I would be extremely grateful.

I feel weighed down by shame a lot more than I want to admit.
It shows up in small moments when I’m not articulate, when I say something wrong, when my words become something people laugh at or turn into a joke.
And then I spiral.
I start feeling like maybe I shouldn’t talk at all. Like my voice is something that creates problems instead of connection.
I’m exhausted by how much my communication feels like a flaw I can’t fix fast enough. I want to be better—I really do but my mind keeps replaying past moments where I “messed up,” like they define who I am.
It’s not even just embarrassment anymore. It turns into shame the feeling that something about me is fundamentally off, and that I should shrink myself to avoid being seen wrong again.
But I don’t actually want to disappear. I want to learn how to speak without fear sitting in my throat.

I feel ashamed of alot of things
I’m not articulate and sometimes say the wrong things and they end up being a point of jokes
I’m so fucking tired of being so bad at communicating that
It sucks that I said smth wrong and now
I feel like I shouldn’t even talk
I want to be better
But the thoughts of past suck

I have been cheated on and used by someone who appeared to really care abt me I revolved my life around him

even when my parents almost abandoned me I stayed with him, I loved him and did everything I could for him but i just couldn’t get it
I figured he has been talking to 2 others and idk how many he must be talking to
He freaked out when I commented on his post and didn’t even like it while he keeps liking other women’s comments so I guess it was nothing new for him to cheat.

He even made a song with my name in it and declared publicly that I was the only
Only to figure out I was being used for his lust and nothing else
It’s like I found out I was with a devil all this time and don’t even feel safe now as a lot of ppl are figuring out abt him being a cheater
But I guess me dying would make ppl really take it seriously and let everyone know how shitty he is

And he just put me through sm suffering
I wanna die so he doesn’t do it again with another
He’s dangerous lies abt his job his whole history and even accuses women of sleeping with him to harass them
I feel bad

I 20F was in relationship with this person 22M for a year, I loved him a lot, ALOT cause he made me feel like I finally am back to life
I had troubles at home and studying medicine was taking a toll on me so he became my escape, but this guy in the very beginning told me he works in military and he’d even say that on stage, he was in army so I believed him cause why would someone lie publicly about something like this.

He was the perfect boyfriend, held me when I cried, listened to every problem of mine and would say beautiful things to me it would put me into peace in an instant by talking to him but now I suspect it was the weed or pods he would do. He used to say it’s his brother who has an addiction and he takes him to rehab and that he tried to commit sui\\\\\\\*\\\\\\\*\\\\\\\*\\\\\\\*, but I doubted that because his sister seemed to have not cared at all she was posting reels at that time being all normal

In the v beginning he said he had his best friend die in an accident but then again I doubted that too he showed no pictures of him or anything, it doesn’t matter that much now but the thing is I guess it really made me wanna protect him and love him as much as I can so I started to go beyond my capacity to show him how much he is deserving of love, I fought my parents for him cause they were racist and doubted his stories but I only thought it’s just them being small minded racists, my parents threatened my education and even my life but still I talked to him secretly.

He would lie about trivial things like white lies which do nothing much but prove him to be superior, tragic, wronged or better than everyone else. I wanted to pour out as much as possible cause what seemed to have happened to him was horrible and I wanted nothing but him to be happy. He was very euphoric mostly silly laughing at jokes hysterically.

But turns out he was cheating on me the whole time and would try to hide his phone from me but I didn’t think much about it cause like I trusted him more than any
Thing, he had said we will elope after my graduation cause my parents wouldn’t have agreed to me marrying him, I wonder what he would’ve done to me if I had ended up eloping.

I really want answers..he seemed so genuine his eyes were so full of love, he’d always take my consent in everything and never tried to hurt me, he even made a song for me with my name in it, I really wanted it to be real cause I would’ve died for him if I had to, I lost my parents trust in me, my friends and now him too
I just wanna know what tf it was
Was it weed?
Was it multiple personalities disorder?
Was it him being a narc?
Did he ever love me? Cause I don’t think so that he did as after him cheating he posted a story for me saying “you left so don’t be shocked about who I talk to”
I know he didn’t love me
But what was it ? Why did it seem so real?

TLDR; my ex lied about everything his job his history and him loving me too I’m left confused about what even was real? And did he ever love me? How can he watch me go through sm and still cheat and lie? Was it weed? Was it multiple personalities disorder?

I 20F was in relationship with this person 22M for a year, I loved him a lot, ALOT cause he made me feel like I finally am back to life
I had troubles at home and studying medicine was taking a toll on me so he became my escape, but this guy in the very beginning told me he works in military and he’d even say that on stage, he was in army so I believed him cause why would someone lie publicly about something like this.

He was the perfect boyfriend, held me when I cried, listened to every problem of mine and would say beautiful things to me it would put me into peace in an instant by talking to him but now I suspect it was the weed or pods he would do. He used to say it’s his brother who has an addiction and he takes him to rehab and that he tried to commit sui\\\*\\\*\\\*\\\*, but I doubted that because his sister seemed to have not cared at all she was posting reels at that time being all normal

In the v beginning he said he had his best friend die in an accident but then again I doubted that too he showed no pictures of him or anything, it doesn’t matter that much now but the thing is I guess it really made me wanna protect him and love him as much as I can so I started to go beyond my capacity to show him how much he is deserving of love, I fought my parents for him cause they were racist and doubted his stories but I only thought it’s just them being small minded racists, my parents threatened my education and even my life but still I talked to him secretly.

He would lie about trivial things like white lies which do nothing much but prove him to be superior, tragic, wronged or better than everyone else. I wanted to pour out as much as possible cause what seemed to have happened to him was horrible and I wanted nothing but him to be happy. He was very euphoric mostly silly laughing at jokes hysterically.

But turns out he was cheating on me the whole time and would try to hide his phone from me but I didn’t think much about it cause like I trusted him more than any
Thing, he had said we will elope after my graduation cause my parents wouldn’t have agreed to me marrying him, I wonder what he would’ve done to me if I had ended up eloping.

I really want answers..he seemed so genuine his eyes were so full of love, he’d always take my consent in everything and never tried to hurt me, he even made a song for me with my name in it, I really wanted it to be real cause I would’ve died for him if I had to, I lost my parents trust in me, my friends and now him too
I just wanna know what tf it was
Was it weed?
Was it multiple personalities disorder?
Was it him being a narc?
Did he ever love me? Cause I don’t think so that he did as after him cheating he posted a story for me saying “you left so don’t be shocked about who I talk to”
I know he didn’t love me
But what was it ? Why did it seem so real?

TLDR; my ex lied about everything his job his history and him loving me too I’m left confused about what even was real? And did he ever love me? How can he watch me go through sm and still cheat and lie? Was it weed? Was it multiple personalities disorder?

I was in relationship with this person for a year, I loved him a lot, ALOT cause he made me feel like I finally am back to life
I had troubles at home and studying medicine was taking a toll on me so he became my escape, but this guy in the very beginning told me he works in military and he’d even say that on stage, he was in army so I believed him cause why would someone lie publicly about something like this.

He was the perfect boyfriend, held me when I cried, listened to every problem of mine and would say beautiful things to me it would put me into peace in an instant by talking to him but now I suspect it was the weed or pods he would do. He used to say it’s his brother who has an addiction and he takes him to rehab and that he tried to commit sui****, but I doubted that because his sister seemed to have not cared at all she was posting reels at that time being all normal

In the v beginning he said he had his best friend die in an accident but then again I doubted that too he showed no pictures of him or anything, it doesn’t matter that much now but the thing is I guess it really made me wanna protect him and love him as much as I can so I started to go beyond my capacity to show him how much he is deserving of love, I fought my parents for him cause they were racist and doubted his stories but I only thought it’s just them being small minded racists, my parents threatened my education and even my life but still I talked to him secretly.

He would lie about trivial things like white lies which do nothing much but prove him to be superior, tragic, wronged or better than everyone else. I wanted to pour out as much as possible cause what seemed to have happened to him was horrible and I wanted nothing but him to be happy. He was very euphoric mostly silly laughing at jokes hysterically.

But turns out he was cheating on me the whole time and would try to hide his phone from me but I didn’t think much about it cause like I trusted him more than any
Thing, he had said we will elope after my graduation cause my parents wouldn’t have agreed to me marrying him, I wonder what he would’ve done to me if I had ended up eloping.

I really want answers..he seemed so genuine his eyes were so full of love, he’d always take my consent in everything and never tried to hurt me, he even made a song for me with my name in it, I really wanted it to be real cause I would’ve died for him if I had to, I lost my parents trust in me, my friends and now him too
I just wanna know what tf it was
Was it weed?
Was it multiple personalities disorder?
Was it him being a narc?
Did he ever love me? Cause I don’t think so that he did as after him cheating he posted a story for me saying “you left so don’t be shocked about who I talk to”
I know he didn’t love me
But what was it ? Why did it seem so real?

I (20F) was in a relationship for about a year with my ex. Things ended badly, and I’m now trying to make sense of everything and figure out how seriously I should be worried.
He was a fraud lied about his job and was cheated on me throughout the relationship

He also repeatedly tried different forms of emotional manipulation after things ended, possibly because he knows I have information about things he’s done that he wouldn’t want exposed.

On top of that, there is a serious concern for me: during our relationship, we exchanged private/intimate content on Snapchat (some of it was view-once). My fear is that he may have saved or recorded some of it using another device, even though I have no proof that he did. He has not explicitly said he will leak anything, but given his behavior, my anxiety around this has increased.

I’ve told my mom about the situation, and she is aware and supportive. I’ve also been considering what I would do if anything ever did get shared, but right now I’m stuck between feeling like I should prepare for the worst and not knowing if I’m overthinking it.

I’m so tired nothing has ever gone in my way and the person for whom I struggled so much did me so dirty they literally had a lot of women in their DMs they were always cheating even when they had made us public
Even when they told their friends and family about me
Even when they made me so emotionally dependent on them
They got me in so much trouble and saw it all happen
The rs almost got me abandoned by my parents
But he had to cheat
My love wasn’t enough
I wouldn’t stop telling them how much I love them and how important they are to me
I wouldn’t stop praising them in front of everyone
I did everything I could for him to love me. Wrote him a whole diary explaining how much I love him
A whole jar with notes in it. I gave him so much love so much efforts but to him it was nothing
He was apparently single to others while he was holding me as I break down while he was on calls with me for hours telling me how much he loves me
It was all a performance it took so much from me and will continue to take from me
I feel so humiliated
No one has ever done me more wrong than him
I was already in so much pain because of things going wrong in my life
I don’t love him anymore as he was not just a cheater but a fraud he lied about his job and everything he even accuses women of sleeping with him , buys bot followers he is just such a loser and I want to erase my memory of him
I wanted it to go right so badly
I was doing everything in my life to end up with him
I was literally planning to marry him and he promised me that too
Kept telling me he has a ring for
Me for a year but never got it
He just performed with no action and I loved having atleast someone
To talk to someone to reassure me
But now that he’s gone
I feel the same loneliness
The same inadequacy
Sorry for this long ass vent please if you can drop some advice on how to heal from such a betrayal