u/Kaseffera

After two years on 4mg sublingual E and 150mg Spiro my levels are:

109pg/ml at trough - E
Less than 0 of T.

I didn’t test DHT.

I have good hairline, thick hair. Only things I think make me question I have anyhow okay HRT at this point is my erections - basically any time I want it or I see a nice girl and have thoughts I get boners. Every now and then instead of clear liquid drop (one drop usually) there can be a bit more colored, grey-ish liquid drops after masturbation.

What would you recommend me to do? I’m very restricted in finances and this HRT is only viable option for me right now in my country. Do I increase E or introduce fin on top or I go with lab tests?

I’m sitting, eating my food and thinking about what a person I trust told me. He said he told his friend that I’m trans.
Well, thing is I’m never ever gonna get across persons he talks to but I feel uncomfortable. He told me he asked her where he could go on a date with me and things but what does it have to do with me being trans? How this is an important point? This is personal. Especially since I’m working with people, I have students, their parents. I have whole bunch of people in my life that don’t know about me being trans.
World is small, especially my country. You might be one handshake away from another person. Do I want my photos (I hope he didn’t share photos) and my name and gender identity being public?

I called him out and he said it was not good and apologized but I guess it’s common sense not to share stealth trans girls identity with just anyone?

I trust him and love him but I feel uncomfortable.

Am I dramatique?

I have a friend. She’s not a bad girl, maybe a little naive but I always thought we had good friendship. Thing is I noticed something about gifts she loves to give me. This is pattern already.

First was that I had her invited in my house once and I found a needle with black burnt point in my shoe. It was put in a sole of my big boots and if not I saw it I’d wear them with that needle in. Now I don’t believe it was her… but then again how could a needle with a point that was burnt with a lighter or matches ended up in my shoe? On the streets? Going into my shoe like that?

Next was when I lived with my ex boyfriend. We had very good relationship. Then she came back to my life and she had gifts. Small ones like a plushie, a notebook and things I don’t even remember. From that my relationship with my ex took a dive and it was nothing but pain. I threw out those gifts somewhere by end of our relationship but it was too far gone I think.

Now she’s in my life and for the first time everything was going good after breakup. I started regrowing my hair after obsessions with constantly fixing it and cutting. She came into my life two days ago. Gave me clothes, a mascara and eyeshadow palette. That day and day after it has been a nightmare. Don’t even wanna describe.

Today in the morning I gathered together almost everything she has ever gifted and put them on a floor in my room trying to understand what to do.

I also messaged her and asked what she tbinks of witchcraft. She said her neighbor believes it and her mom “spinner plates” and did something with “donkey brain” - popular thing in my country. Used to control someone or something like that.

What do I do?

A friend of mine helped me to get back to university and I really feel different… don’t know how to put it.

I don’t really leave house whole year. I had depression and I’ve been spending days in my room with my pixie cut, anorexia and no self care whatsoever.
Now it’s whole university going out’s, talking with people, engaging in discussions, writing essays and things. I feel so overwhelmed and still kinda happy too.
I don’t even know what people wear. Opened my wardrobe today and can’t even put up a look.

Has anyone had big gap between semesters and started their education over after years? What’s your experience?

I love Voyage album and I have couple of my favorite ABBA songs straight from Voyage album like Don’t shut me down and No doubt about it. Oh, even Ode to freedom.

I wanted to ask what’s up with Irish/scottish (sorry, I come from other culture and don’t really understand specifics) theme in sound? Bagpipes, jingling instruments, girls singing in a medieval faire manner (especially in No doubt about it). I literally imagine my girl Frida dancing round a campfire and people around drinking ale and merchants selling stuff. When you danced with me has similarish thing going on.

If I remember correctly first songs to be recorded back in 2017 maybe were Don’t shut me down and I still have faith in you. To be honest Ode to Freedom sounds like these two too while other songs have that medieval faire feel.
I wonder when they got back in studio in 2020 (?) to fill out whole album they set new direction for the album or it was just that vibe going on?

Have you ever felt that some hairdressers are straight up jealous or just transphobes and they ruin your hair just for the love of game?

I’ve heard quite a few stories here when hairdresser was asked a feminine cut and girls received the most evil male hair.

Me, for example, I was trying to go from pixie to bob for a year but never made it and been reverting to pixie when fixing it constantly until I finally realized two places I were visiting were just running me because they are transphobic. One of those two places was good until I think I was clocked. Then the shitshow began. I was hate cut.

Finally I found a cute girl who is doing magic with scissors and is very supportive.

My transition has been good but I never had any real breasts or butt. I’m very underweight. I’m 166cm and 47kg. Once I was over 55 and had very good breasts. So… it’s very much tied to weight for me.

For some reason I struggle to keep up. Recently I measured and looks like I used to consume 1100kcal and 20g of protein daily at best. It’s been a week with relative success since I upped calories to 1600kcal at least daily and 50g of protein. You might say it’s nothing but it’s a big step for me. I seem to maintain it nicely and keep up well.
I introduced chicken, peanut butter, morning oatmeal. Almost never consumed these before.

Tell me, with this increase will I see any improvement? Also for ideal development where should my calories and protein intake be for my weight, height? Also keep in mind that as a bio male with this weight I’m more bones and skin rather than fat. Cis female might be doing much better with same height and weight. Anyway, thank you in advance!

I take 4mg E sublingually and 150mg Spiro. I split E pills and take 2mg every 12 hours.

Lab showed 90.95pg/ml on trough, meaning just before the next pill administered. So whole day levels are way higher.

Tell me, given a small dosage of E, is this result acceptable for trough levels?

P.S. tried splitting them like 1mg-1mg-2mg but I had rough seborrheic dermatitis flareup.

I have 1TB Nvme. Should I give / partition 100 or 128GB or even more?

I leave for Boot 4GB and plan 100-128 for /. The rest for HOME.

I’m splitting between sticking with Cachy or Bazzite. Thing is I love Cachy, didn’t really have any issues. Still I see couple of posts every day about an update breaking system. Like today. Some people claimed this new kernel update broke their system and they needed chroot and other yada things that I don’t even want to deal with.

I thought it was user error and people were doing silly things with their system but they answered it was just regular usage computer, nothing off installed there.

So my question is… if updates really get rolled broken why it doesn’t affect everyone? I mean if it was broken everyone’s system should broke when updating, right? You can’t not get it broken if update is broken.
But no… most people went okay with that update.
So this means that it’s not faulty update if it works great for most users.

Then my question remains: what do you do with your OS that it constantly needs chrooting, rolling etc?

Not only on mobile (IPhone 14) where I get very odd YouTube issues like this on the screen where I’m watching this video but it looks frozen and timer is not moving but also on PC. For example yesterday when using it on my Debian system I encountered bug when I clicked on a video and page did not react anyhow like I haven’t even pressed anything. Second pressing worked fine.

Can’t remember every issue but this started really bothering me.

On CachyOS I used to go to terminal and add a line in some file to add my old SSD drive for storing work related files. I’ve heard on Bazzite there’s different way for doing it due to it’s immutability.

Guys so I try to reset CMOS by shorting two pins with a screwdriver for 30 second while my pc is unplugged from wall. But it won’t work, Bios is still with correct date and time and settings are not reset. I have no idea what I do wrong. I’m certainly not retarded. I know how to short pins. Yes, it’s the right two pins.