I want to earn so bad

A clg student rn and I keep feeling guilty for all the damn expenses like when does it stop, when do I stop spending my parent's money and start to do something that will work out, cause I genuinely feel uncomfortable, it's not like they have any issue, not at all, I just don't want to anymore.

Idk what works for people, I have tried but I wasn't able to earn from anything, as of now, I am just trying to make money, even if it is fricking 100 rupees idc at this point.

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u/Soren_thunder — 14 days ago

I want to earn so bad

A clg student rn and I keep feeling guilty for all the damn expenses like when does it stop, when do I stop spending my parent's money and start to do something that will work out, cause I genuinely feel uncomfortable, it's not like they have any issue, not at all, I just don't want to anymore.

Idk what works for people, I have tried but I wasn't able to earn from anything, as of now, I am just trying to make money, even if it is fricking 100 rupees idc at this point.

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u/Soren_thunder — 14 days ago

I want to earn so bad

A clg student rn and I keep feeling guilty for all the damn expenses like when does it stop, when do I stop spending my parent's money and start to do something that will work out, cause I genuinely feel uncomfortable, it's not like they have any issue, not at all, I just don't want to anymore.

Idk what works for people, I have tried but I wasn't able to earn from anything, as of now, I am just trying to make money, even if it is fricking 100 rupees idc at this point.

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u/Soren_thunder — 14 days ago

How do you get more linkedin impressions

Have more than 1500 followers still I don't get impressions, whyyy not, what can we do about this??

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u/Soren_thunder — 14 days ago

What's your favorite pen

I accidentally deleted the last post so posting again 🥀 cause replies were cool af, I want to know more pensss

u/Soren_thunder — 14 days ago

I don't know what to title this really

I hate that I fell for someone who I can't even get to understand.

I posted about this a few days ago, and it's so easy to say "move on it was not even a relationship" but I am just trying to find an explanation on why is my mental health suffering, why is it that when you feel like this person is someone I want to risk all walls with, ends up becoming another wall himself.

I don't know if this post is a question or rant, maybe I just want to hear people go "we all go through this and it is easy and there's more to life and you will get better" or maybe "it happens for a reason" but there's a limit to what words can do.

Attachment is scary, you wait all your life protecting yourself from bad choices, having standards, staying careful with every man you meet, and then you finally come across you want to understand, see the flaws of, see through, get curious, lose your shit over someone tou barely know, feeling stupid, and stuck in internal conflict with your old beliefs, it's a war within, but despite all that, you open up, you reach out, to understand that person, just for it to not go anywhere.

Just for people to turn it into a psychological explanatory game, it goes nowhere, explanations don't help, nothing makes sense, it just stings.

Stuck with, "maybe I should've tried harder, he was suffering too", and "everyone has their battles, if he was fated, it would've been clear". So many narrations, yet I have no final answer, why it had to end like a million daggers, when it wasn't supposed to be "that deep."

Ya. You end up, questioning yourself again, blaming yourself again. Why did I open up, why did I give so much, why did I try so hard...or why did I not try harder, but there's a limit of everyone, there's a point where you have to choose self respect, that person is not to blame and that's the worst part, you have no one to hate, no grudges, no dead ends. It is just unsettling silence. You just got there for months trying to "get over it" just to look yourself in the mirror and have nothing but questions, and only one to blame is fate.

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u/Soren_thunder — 19 days ago

I don't know what to title this really

I hate that I fell for someone who I can't even get to understand.

I posted about this a few days ago, and it's so easy to say "move on it was not even a relationship" but I am just trying to find an explanation on why is my mental health suffering, why is it that when you feel like this person is someone I want to risk all walls with, ends up becoming another wall himself.

I don't know if this post is a question or rant, maybe I just want to hear people go "we all go through this and it is easy and there's more to life and you will get better" or maybe "it happens for a reason" but there's a limit to what words can do.

Attachment is scary, you wait all your life protecting yourself from bad choices, having standards, staying careful with every man you meet, and then you finally come across you want to understand, see the flaws of, see through, get curious, lose your shit over someone tou barely know, feeling stupid, and stuck in internal conflict with your old beliefs, it's a war within, but despite all that, you open up, you reach out, to understand that person, just for it to not go anywhere.

Just for people to turn it into a psychological explanatory game, it goes nowhere, explanations don't help, nothing makes sense, it just stings.

Stuck with, "maybe I should've tried harder, he was suffering too", and "everyone has their battles, if he was fated, it would've been clear". So many narrations, yet I have no final answer, why it had to end like a million daggers, when it wasn't supposed to be "that deep."

Ya. You end up, questioning yourself again, blaming yourself again. Why did I open up, why did I give so much, why did I try so hard...or why did I not try harder, but there's a limit of everyone, there's a point where you have to choose self respect, that person is not to blame and that's the worst part, you have no one to hate, no grudges, no dead ends. It is just unsettling silence. You just got there for months trying to "get over it" just to look yourself in the mirror and have nothing but questions, and only one to blame is fate.

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u/Soren_thunder — 19 days ago

Felt Shiv ji's presenceee

Pata hai aaj kya hua, so I am a huge believer of, "He is watching over when no one knows what you're going through". But I've always wondered too about how much truth it holds, and I know this is debatable to some people, but I want to share an experience, nothing crazy, enough, to move me. (So just listen, without judging for once, you don't have to resonate, it's ok.)

I am going through a hard time trying to find myself, I've been out of touch with myself, yesterday, I woke up feeling very sad and overwhelmed for no reason, something very crushing, and I had to rush because I had college at 8, so I forced myself to get out of bed and get ready. Now I listen to songs while getting ready, because it's my fav thing, however, I did not even have the energy to listen to anything at that moment, I wanted to cry and I don't know why, again I was feeling very down, but I picked up my earphones and played my "peace playlist" after a very long time, it has all my favorite bahgwan ji songs. It calmed me down, as always, atleast my anxiety went down.

I left, it was very cloudy (gloomy) and I was just listening to his song, I don't think I'll ever forget this. I was listening to "Namo Namo" while entering college, then I felt sunrays on me so I looked up, and it looked like Tripundra (the three horizontal lines on shiv ji's head with his third eye in the middle), it was so clear and I paused, my hands are shaking even while writing this because this was hands down one of the most powerful moments of my life. I was looking up while the song in my ears went "Amrit sabhi me baat ke, pyala vish ka tune khud piya". I felt a rush of emotions idk, I wanted to cry, felt it in my throat, but I had the biggest smile while looking up, it was beautiful to look at, felt like I was standing eye to eye with him, while he was watching over, just letting me know he is there.

When I clicked this picture, it was not as clear as when I was looking because I clicked this after sometime (I was just staring up for 30 some seconds, till then the clouds have disintegrated - as in the pic)

This will sound very small, maybe dramatic to some people, but it was HUGE for me, even when I'm thinking about it, I want to cry, idk what it is, but knowing he is there on every step, he knows, he suffers with me, he is doing his best with me, there is just so much peace in knowing this, it is genuinely beyond me.

Anyways, I wanted to share this, for people going through hard times, hang in there, it gets better.🧡

u/Soren_thunder — 26 days ago

Swayam or IKS???

So currently in 2nd year (Christ NCR BBA Honours) and if there are seniors here or those who know that we have to choose between these two, teachers are confused af, they all have different opinions, orientation dosen't help.

I wanna hear from people those who already did any of these, WHICH ONE SHOULD ONE CHOOSE, easier to score, not that complicated??

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u/Soren_thunder — 1 month ago
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Everything about second hand Ford Ecosport

Okk, so earlier my brother wad plannubg to get a bike, but now we're thinking of getting a second hand car instead, my brother like this one, but there are a lot of questions, plus we've never bought a car before or angthing second hand. We're badically hella new to the car game.

I need your help hereee, all the people who own cars, specifically second hand what all things did you have in mind while buying one? This is a huge decision so I don't wanna miss out on any important information, lmk if you have anything to say, also I hope it's a good decision, cause Ik finding spare parts will be hard and stuff, but I think this one is manageable. People will same car, also share your experience, I appreciate it!

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u/Soren_thunder — 2 months ago

Everything about second hand Ford Ecosport

Okk, so earlier my brother wad plannubg to get a bike, but now we're thinking of getting a second hand car instead, my brother like this one, but there are a lot of questions, plus we've never bought a car before or angthing second hand. We're badically hella new to the car game.

I need your help hereee, all the people who own cars, specifically second hand what all things did you have in mind while buying one? This is a huge decision so I don't wanna miss out on any important information, lmk if you have anything to say, also I hope it's a good decision, cause Ik finding spare parts will be hard and stuff, but I think this one is manageable. People will same car, also share your experience, I appreciate it!

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u/Soren_thunder — 2 months ago