u/4ri3ll4

i mean to delete it

i wish the things that turn me on didnt turn me on

like its not bad in a way thats illegal or stuff like p*dophilia yk but its just weird and gross and i dont even like it

like i'm writing a research report and it has to be about something i've read this year but i literally cannot decide and i've never written a research report sooo

and like i've always had this issue in school whenever i had to pick a topic to write about-

is anyone else like this??

erm why are emojis not allowed in this sub what the heck

does anyone else make up plots for movies or tv shows and then act them out and shit

i hate smells of foods and it makes me so angry i want to hurt somone because i hate it so much i hate it i hate it i hate it im crying a biting myself because of it and its so stupid but why cant they put the fucking exhaust on when they make food what the fuck is wrong with them i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate her i wish she was dead fucking waste of oxygen and space belongs in a mental hospital

i want to start this off by saying i am a pretty paranoid person. i have had worries that my father might look at me weirdly for a long time now even though i have no proof that he ever has or ever will.

idk if it's weird or not to wear a sports bra or something that exposes ur body in front of ur father or not but my family is like really religious and is always going on about modesty and whatnot.

he called me to the doorway of my parents room to lecture me about my trans friend (again) and about other family plans; the normal stuff.

but then he finished and i had to walk away. i had just come out of the shower, so i was holding my sweatpants and covering my front. but then i turned around and walked away and i was trying to walk quickly and get away quickly because idk it felt weird and i heard him make a noise that sounded both confused and surprised, which could be because it's the middle of winter and i should be wearing more or even because i had a big purple flowery sticker on my cgm that probably looks weird, and my brain is short-circuting now because i have a sort of internalized fear of all men because of stories i've heard from other women and girls and i just need some other girls to tell me I'm freaking out over nothing and that i'm crazy for thinking this.

have u ever looked at ur daughter's chest in a weird way? or their body in general.

ik this is an insanely weird question but i'm kinda paranoid that my dad might have weird thoughts about me and i don't really interact with him because of it.