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If I say I like how a flower looks, and you say you’re a uniformed idiot that’s just concerned with aesthetics when this flower is this and that, and caused me and my pets this and that. No you’re the idiot for thinking my statement applied to you.

I’m so fucking tired of the internet with people thinking everything is about them. It’s like the bean soup situation when one lady on tik tok made a video about how bean soup is good, then the comments were filled with “what about me I don’t like beans” and “I’m allergic to beans” and “I don’t have beans”. It’s not about you, oh my god not everything has to apply to you.

Any long opinion post that I write out I always have like a long list of “exceptions” and “not talking about x and y…”, just not to get attacked. You can scroll, disagree or agree but don’t “what about me” or “what about my specific special situation” it. Sometimes I think it’s rage bait when I specifically say in a post for example “don’t mention fish I’m not talking about that”, and someone starts talking about fish. Are you illiterate or are you brain dead? My god.

I have a low tolerance for people, always have since high school. I went to a super strict high school no phones and only uniforms kind of thing, and every year I’m in the same class with the same people for all the subjects. My best friend is on a different floor, so the whole school day which is 8 hours, I zone out and try to separate myself just to be able to handle being around these people and teachers, I’d have conversations sometimes but that’s it. Then I see my friend for 10 minutes on break, and go back to class. Second break is the same thing, and I go back to class. I come back home, I eat, sleep all day, wake up at midnight maybe do my homework, go on my phone, and get ready at 6 am and leave again. Really depressed, Truly miserable. I couldn’t handle it, I even wanted to kill myself but felt bad about it so I didn’t. I always felt so weird compared to all the other kids of school, like I was hyper aware of my existence.

I graduated, I felt the best I did in years, I couldn’t even believe it. I don’t have to sit in long ass lectures and get yelled at all day and be forced to wear a uniform and do this and that with my hair and nails. I went to college, felt way way better, talked to more people, I was doing alright.

But I still can’t be around my family for too long without getting completely drained, same with most of my friends, and I need like hours alone after every social thing otherwise I’m exhausted and snap at people for no reason. Months went by, a year. Now I’m stuck again. I still live with my parents because that’s just what you do untill you get married where I live, but my course results came out, and they’re not the best, and I hadn’t talked to my mother in like three days despite me literally living with her in the same house (it’s a long story what happened between be and my parents but basically years ago they’d take my phone for weeks because they said I can only be on it if I’m hanging out with them and I shouldn’t spend so much time alone, so I got mad and never hung out with them and just spent all my time alone. It was this thing of feeling like I was forced to sit there and just listen to them fight all day, I wasn’t interested. I’d barely talk to anyone all day so I’d vent on a notebook, one day I came home and my mom went through my stuff and read the books. Did nothing. Didn’t even speak to me about it, and I still don’t know how to feel about that because I was so hurt that she did that), haven’t texted anyone either, just stayed in my room alone. Right now all I’m focused on is getting enough steps, sleep, and eating good food, and I feel selfish for it almost. Because I don’t understand why I’m this way, and why I’m completely drained by certain people and not by others, it’s like I wanna take my brain out and wash it.

I can be social and fun and all that but it only ever happens with certain people. Most of them aren’t my family, and my family isn’t even bad anyway.

My dad thinks I just avoid them because I flat out don’t like them. Which is stupid because I do, they’re my parents I love them. But I just wanna be around them mostly when we go out or if we’re eating dinner or something, most the time when I wanna just sit around and do nothing or read or go on my phone I like to focus in quiet and be alone. I don’t wanna be with them while trying to relax, because I don’t wanna be perceived.

I’ve asked about certain shit on here related to this, and in two different post I got the same comment of something along the lines of “you sound like you’re just a completely miserable person and just making excuses”. At this point I think I might be, I don’t know how to change it. I feel really bad because my parents are generally good parents and here I am just being in my room all day and barely talking to them. Even with my grandma and shit, I’m the oldest grandchild, and I rarely ever talk to her unless she asks something.

في احد جرب مطاعم صحية حلوه موجوده في طلبات و كيتا؟ لأني أدور و أدور مافي وايد

غير أناناس و بيك و Joe the juice جربت forevermore و كان سيء، بس الي عجبني منهم الovernight oats باجي الأكل ايي بارد و ما يازلي الصراحة

شنو مطعم صحي جربتو حلو و سعره معقول؟

If you’re able to take your kids to school, then why tf are you homeschooling them? Idk I feel like if the people teaching your kids need credentials, then why do you think you can do it on your own? There’s so much shit kids that were homeschooled miss out on that I can’t even name all of them. But beyond even the school part, what about after school? college??? Hello? Not everyone has to go to college but I think it’s very selfish to take that opportunity away from your kids before they can form an opinion on it.

Of course there’s always exceptions and I’m not talking about those, but if just a regular ass person decided they wanna homeschool their kids for some dumbass reason like thinking the school dosent teach shit, or wanting to be a van life family, or some other non-necessity crap, that’s just a bad decision, and your kids deserve better.

Edit: honestly it all depends on the parent’s education and what fits their child’s needs. If the parent that is homeschooling is an absolute dumbass (which is wide category unfortunately), then it’s most likely gonna be bad. But if they’re smart, smart enough to be able to do all that on their one with their child then that’s great honestly, maybe even better than school but that’s a very small percentage of people that can do that. With enough money, time, and resources.

Those are exceptions, people who are actually qualified or pay someone or something that’s qualified, then it’s no different than a teacher. I’m talking about the unqualified. And for less fortunate people though, that’s pretty hard, not to mention how not regulated homeschooling is in certain areas. You never know what people are doing at home with their kids. Unschooling. I somehow forgot to mention that. If you don’t agree with me on the homeschooling thing ok but you cannot like unschooling come on. I can defend homeschooling in many cases but I struggle to find ways to defend unschooling.

Also, about the college thing, where I live, a kid that’s been homeschooled is either never gonna get into college, or gonna have really really tough time doing so and might have to travel to a different country. Good for you homeschooled people that went to college but that’s a regional thing.

Problem comes when I’m sleeping over at a cousin’s house, or whoever, and now I’m never alone, and I start loosing my fucking mind and snapping at everyone over nothing because I cannot catch a fucking break without people. I feel like it should be more normal to do that, spend hours alone and not get questioned about it. But clearly my family disagrees.

One time I had to go with my on of my parents’s side of the family to a beach/resort hotel. Great, right? Well, no. Because we share rooms and eat breakfast together and might as well shit together because it’s the weird shaded glass bathroom, I need a fucking break. I spent two days there, came home, and had to spend the whole rest of the day alone, then the one after that mostly alone too. My family went out without me.

My parents, and sister are generally pretty introverted too, but not as much as me. They wanna spend time together, I don’t even wanna spend time with them bro, if I’m at home, then I should let my guard down, if I let my guard down, then I wanna be alone unless it’s eating dinner with them or something. But they make it out as if I’m some crazy person that never wants to interact with people for doing so.

I mean they know I’m an introvert they’ve always known, one time my grandma was asking my little cousin when will she get a car so she can take the kids out to play, my cousin said what about her? (Me) and my grandma said, are you serious? She’ll probably leave them on the curb and go home herself she dosent like children.

Well yeah, grandma. I don’t like children or people but she said it in a half jokey, half mean way. If you can’t tell I don’t come from a culture that’s full of introverts really, you’re kinda expected to like greet people and make conversations and entertain shit or whatever. I cannot do that, after a family trip once I came home from the airport and my eye was twitching and I was sweating to shit because of all the stress. And they look at me like I’m some freak for not wanting to be around them all the time, I’m sick of this shit. What do I even do? What do I say?

When someone can cut off a family member or a friend for being treated badly by them or without basic decency my respect immediately grows for them. Like good for you, break that cycle. Where I come from it’s very normal to still keep in touch with family and come to gatherings unless they did some truly horrible shit to you, but depending on the family sometimes even that is not enough for them.

So anytime I see someone either within my culture, or not break off these relationships that do nothing but hurt them, I’m like, damn. I love you for that.

Istg I’m totally fine if you just tell to get ready, if you tell me to get ready quick then I’m breaking nails and accidentally stabbing myself with my mascara, if you tell me we’re going now and I have to finish now? Suddenly I don’t even know how to close my bag properly and I loose shit I just placed even if it didn’t move. Every. Single. Time. No one I know relates to this shit. They think I’m being dramatic.

Dude just now I was supposed to go out with my family, and while I was ironing my clothes they said they’re in the car. Just like that, no warning. So now I’m rushing, and suddenly I can’t even close buttons, so I Throw my top on the ground because I’m an idiot and to look for my shoes instead, I find the shoes, but now I loose the top. Genuinely I don’t know how I just can’t find it anymore, then I realized I don’t know where I left my bag either, then my phone is lost too, and I have to scream at Siri like a crazy person to call to tell them I won’t be fucking coming, I know if they keep waiting on that car I’m probably never gonna be ready. It’s like I can’t see straight because I’m stressed. My god. Thing is this happens to me only these situations, when someone’s waiting for me.

And guess what? Now that they left? I found the damn top.

أنا منزمان ماكلت من five guys الصراحة، مادري إذا غيروا هالشي بس أتمنى انهم تسنعوا

بس كنت كل ما آكل عندهم برجر القصدير الي تيي في ريحته تلوع الجبددد، مادري ليش جذي يعني

My nails are always long because anytime I cut them short, I feel very uncomfortable. It’s really hard to explain but I like need to apply pressure on them. Like I find myself pressing on them a lot, it’s unbearable. When I was still in school I used to go to a very strict one, our nails had to be short. Sometimes I’d forget to cut them and they’d make me cut them there and I’d just be pressing on them all day.

So I’ve always eaten oats, just cooked them on the stove with two parts milk to one part oats then a little stevia, but last night I tried to make overnight oats.

I added half a cup of oats, half a cup of milk, and about two tablespoons of yogurt. Then sliced apples with one tablespoon of maple syrup, and a little bit of lotus spread. I left them in the fridge, came back to them tonight, and they are stringy as hell. It’s so gross, oh my god. It tastes good, but I cannot get over the texture.

I’ve seen online that it needs to be a 1:1 ratio it work, so did my yogurt really ruin it? If so, how? And also they’re so runny. Should I add more milk next time? Idk looking for some overnight oat lovers here. How do I fix this?

Edit: I took the advice, and just stuck to cooking them instead, same recipe, but way better. I may not like overnight oats after all.

I’m gonna play a little bit of devil’s advocate here, and say that jj pulling that gun in the pilot was kind of necessary. Because though it was dramatic to be pulling out a whole ass gun, topper was so gonna drown John b and no one was doing anything about it. If jj didn’t pull out the gun, he might’ve actually drowned him. Doing something is better than nothing.

I haven’t rewatched the show in a while, so I can’t think of any dumb but necessary things that he did, but looking past his stupid-ness, he always tried to come up with solutions to “fix” things, never sat on his ass and did nothing. And he really was the only one concerned with keeping all of them together, and very concerned with defending them. I’m curious to see what happens with them in season 5 without him, because it can’t be good, he was the glue of the group. I feel like they’ll separate a lot, or not at all because of what happened when they did and Jj died.

The way you were raised, and the area you were raised in, really affects how you’ll turn out, it’s so fascinating to me. Sometimes I’m more intrested in learning about how people were more so than who you are today. I could go on and on about this, but what you show and do to a child will maybe likely stick with them for the rest of their life and that’s crazy.

Also, does anyone have any book recommendations about that topic? Or videos? I can’t find shit.

They never said who jj thought his mom was, or why Luke turned out to be so bad in the end. Because in the flashback scenes there was one where Groff asked Luke if he can take care of a baby and Luke said guess I’d be as good as anyone. So he thought he could take care of jj, and he was good with him in the flashback scenes when jj was little, so what changed?

In season one after Luke and Jj returned from the police station, and back home, Luke screamed that Jj was a peice of shit and that “your momma knew”. So who the hell did jj think was him mom???? Im so curious. I don’t understand how you could spend a whole episode on a character and not really go into details beyond his dad killed his mom and gave him away to the mechanic. Okay and? So what happened with the mechanic?

I swear to god most of it is just people eating stupid amounts of food messily in the car. It didn’t hit me how global it’s gotten until I started getting ads on tik tok of people from where I live doing it too. It’s so nasty.

Does anyone even enjoy watching that shit? Is it just rage bait? If so how come so many companies are just okay with rage bait marketing? That’s crazy.

I really wish I could say it’s just a tik tok thing, but when it becomes a trend it’s no longer just online.

“Bedroom reset” being just cleaning your room, “strawberry makeup” being just a lot of blush, “brownie glazed lips” existed before you were born, “latte makeup” is just a lot of bronzer, and a “partless slick back” is just a fucking ponytail. That’s just what comes to mind immediately, but I could on and on.

Why. Why does this keep on happening?

So I live on the other side of the world, and I swear to god I always hear about this shit in America about rubber fruit and fake chocolate and cancer causing everything and 1000 calorie cookies….what is going on over there?

Genuinely what is going on holy shit. I’m sure some other countries are going through this and there’s just not as much media coverage on it, but from my feed it’s the US. Is this shit true? Or am I just believing bullshit on the internet. Truly I hope you guys from the US are doing alright, because with the state of everything there, it seems rough.

So I’ve always been quiet, that’s a consistent thing. But over the years I’ve gotten louder with certain people and quieter with others, depending on who I’m comfortable being around, and it devolved into me being different with everyone.

Id say I’m most “me” around my sister, but it’s a different me around my parents, my cousins, my aunts, my college friends, my old high school friends, strangers, strangers on campus. I just genuinely cannot loose the weird social filter my brain makes. I can’t be real. Everything I say and do feels so fake. I physically feel like I can’t just drop my guard around anybody. At this point I’m not even sure who I am in private.

And anytime my friends meet my other friends, or I’m with them around family, I don’t know how to act because I’m a certain way with each. It’s not even that I’m completely different, I’m just more blunt with some, more “friendly” with some, it’s just my whole life has been a series of trying to make myself bearable to be around. Because if I was the real me whoever that is I’m afraid I’d be hard to be around. Because I can’t explain shit properly, I can’t communicate my feelings, I can’t sound “casual”, I can’t force myself to smile around certain people, i can’t force myself to have certain reactions, I have to fake all of it. It’s not like I don’t feel, I feel so much. I just cannot translate it…physically.

Someone could tell me their dog died and I’d feel bad truly, but how am I supposed to react? I could get told the best news of my life and I’d feel so happy, but I can’t really say it, or show it properly. I can love hanging around someone so much but that smile awkwardly instead. It feels like I’m preforming to be a person. A socially acceptable one.

And even with all of this “fake-ness”, I still struggle to be approachable, to seem friendly. Anytime I’m with someone it’s always them getting approached and asked questions and I’d feel like such shit because what am I not understanding here? How am I supposed to act? Why can’t I just do whatever you people do to seem so..human?

I’d try to be myself sometimes, but then I laugh too hard at something, or zone out too hard for too long, or say something that sounds mean that I didn’t intend to be that way, and I get a bad reaction, and it feels like my insides just shrivel up. I get so exhausted after hanging out with people because I just cannot exist. It always feels like I’m performing something, like I play this little game and I’m someone else for a little bit, then I go home and I’m me again. I cannot exist in public.