u/catboy519

My legs always get tired even though

• My heartrate is always calm when cycling
• I never get out of breath, except for sprints.
• I don't sweat much

But my legs still feel tired quickly. I'm not grinding the gears, I know how that works that heavy gear = hard for the muscles and low gear = also inefficient but shows differently, more cardio heavy.

If I'm just leasurely riding then my RPM is about 60, paired with very gentle pedal force so that means I'm not grinding it.

Normal: closer to 90RPM

Sprint: higher than 90rpm ofcourse

But is it weird that I rarely ever get out of breath and that my legs seem to be the bottleneck in my riding performance?

When I'm infront of the computer I just can't stop multitasking. I'm like a computer CPU: continuously and rapidly switching between activities for no apparent reason.

The loop for example could look like this:

1. Open game.
2. Alt tab and watch a youtube video.
3. Then hear by the sounds that I died in the game because I forgot to go back to it
4. Now, I find myself having half-written an email. Time to open reddit and post something about an unrelated topic.
5. Post half written: now I switch over to youtube.
6. Few minutes into the video: I pause the video or sometimes I dont even pause, and Be doing something else again.

Eventually I have like 100 uncompleted, halfcompleted tasks/activities/tabs and so on.

That drives me so mad. Why cant I just finish things before moving on to the next thing?

I think having 100 halffinished things open is more chaotic than having 50 completely unfinished things open.

I know why I have the chronicburnout. Reasons are:

• Autism and adhd
• Perfectionism
• Chronic overthinking (not specifically with some topics, but literally any topic that interests or concerns me)
• FOMO?
• Being restless, I kliterally just can't make myself sit down and do nothing. The only time I'm able to allow myself to do nothing is when my body feels tired enough for it or if its bedtime and I'm in the bed.

So I guess I'm myself the source of my burnout. I drive myself crazy now. Nwo so how do I possibly solve this?

I can't just press a magicbutton on my skull that makes me care less about things like perfectionism right? How does that work now

I'm def ok with humor or humour broadly, people being silly and so on. But why do people continuously produce jokes? I don't understand the purpose of it.

And worst of all: the same type of joke that humanity as a whole seems to endlessly repeat. I don't find it funny.

I have humor, but not in the form of just randomly making jokes.

When someone makes a joke, that signals to me

• "Look how smart I am for coming up with this pun"
• "Look how funny I am"
• etc

And then I just don't find it funny at all.

My bikecommute route has long parts rurally nd I often get bored with the snaily pace of my bike.

Being an experienced cyclist ans bukecommuter I dont need to hear the obvious or beginner tips.

What are less widely known ways to go faster?

Title edit: brake heat question.

For cycling downhill, the common advice is to pulse the brakes because that supposedly helps with the temperature.

And surely that must be true if so many experienced people say it, but I don't see the logic or the science behind it.

Suppose you brake over an equal amount of distance and time and energy and compare with pulsing vs "dragging or riding the brakes", the total heat generation must surely be the same.

Ok so I guess maybe its not about how much heat is produced, but more about how fast the heat is produced and how it moves.

If you pulse the brakes there are moments where there is rapid airflow between the brake and the rim so I guess that could be it maybe... but if you apply the brakes continuously, most of the rim is still in the free flowing air so the rim itself has no problem cooling down itself, and, the relatively cold rim rubbing over the brake material should actually cool down the brake instead of heat it up, I think. I mean, the friction generates heat but the rim itself also absorbs a lot of the heat from the brakepads.

So is my understanding of how the heat dissipation works incomplete, or is the common consensus wrong?

If I compare the two:

1. Braking 100 watts of heat continuously
2. Alternating between 200 and 0 watts braking.

It seems that number 2 generates higher peak temperatures than number 1.

My physics understanding is that pulsing might be actually worse.

I'm bored because things get repetitive. And the new things I wanna do are not accessible. How do I cope now?

This question isnt about me or an ask for help but I'm myself the anecdore, anecdote which inspured this question. For example

• as a kid and teenager I was shy and introverted and awkward, now I make a lot of friends and can talk in front of big groups of people with a microphone.
• as a teen I was extremely obsessed with sports. Now I'm rather lazy and a couch person.
• as a kid I loved reading books. Now I totally dont wanna be reading books or any form of long texts walls.
• my favorite color changed (but ok maybe thats normal)
• for years I worked hard and wanted to do somrthing big and meaningful for the world. I did 2 volumteer jobs too at the same time next to college. Now I'm rather burnt out and lazy and selfish.
• I wanted to travel the world. Now, I much rather stay close to home.
• growing up I was extremely frugal and would not even spend a cent! Not even €0,01! Now I spend quite some money quickly and easily.(although big sownding still hurts and feels painful. Spending)
• I hated physics in highschool except for the last year of highschool on to now I suddenly love it. It went from rqndom stupid subject to my favorite subject. Random
• and in the past I was a co tinuoua s jokesmachine. Now, Ive grown much more serious and get silently annoyed or disappointed when people constantly make jokes

So does a word for this exist officially and why do people "change polarity" like this? When does and when doesnt it happen?

What does the phenomenon usually say about a person that has it so much.

I got an unlucky combo.

1. I'm extremely sensitive to a lack of sleep
2. I need about 10 hours per sleep per night. Of sleep*
3. I have a chaotic life that makes going to bed on time extremely difficult, often just failing.

So quite frequently I wake up feeling like a wreck and then that feeling persists the whole day. Its mostly physical. Mentally I don't really notice any difference between short or long sleep, but physically its very wrecking.

After such short night, I easily spend the whole day feeling as if theres a heavy dumbell or weight hanging on my eyelids, combined with that weird headache that then also lasts for the whole day, and ofcourse fatigue throughout my whole body, feeling extremely lazy and exhausted in all my muscles.

Its really a disaster, but I can't stop it from occurring frequently.

Are there any methods during the day to recover from having slept a far too short night?

When I sleep 9 to 10 to 11 hours, I wake up fine. But going to bed so early that I get sufficient sleep is nearly impossible in my chaotic life so very often I often deal with a lack of sleep in the morning, which I seem extremely sensitive to.

I know about the sleep cycles thing, but the length of a sleep cycle varies per person so if I dont know my own sleepcyclelength then whats the point in making my sleepduration be divisible by 90 minutes?

So I got creative was thinking and what if its possible to create a trigger to which my brain responds: if in deep sleep, ignore. if in light sleep, wake up

And then a backup alarm 0 to 90 minutes after it to be sure.

Realistically, whats the best way to wake up with a proper timing?

Sunlight alone doesn't do the job for me. If I went to bed late as like usual, I can easily sleep through the first half of the day, even with my curtains fully open and the sun blasting in my room, that does not wake me up. Sound wakes me up though, but if I sleep with my window open that means I wake up very early because of the birds making sounds.

I cleared the cache of the samsung cloud app but that didnt fix it. No clue why it hangs tbh now

Like learned words and phrases

Or does an alternative exist where I don't have to lose all the learned words?

Or how do I store learned words and phrases before deleting the data.

I'm 26 now. Back when I was 19, I was that guy who always spent the entire days on studying, homework, gym, work, volunteering, I simply didnt need free time or relaxation because I was a tireless machine. No ADHD symptoms showed either.

Burnout happened. Ever since, Ive been having very strong ADHD symptoms for years now. Guess I do have adhd and it was just hidden.

Its weird it feels almost like one big switch got flipped into my brain where it went from mode "only do work" to "only do low effort stuff"

Weird thing: I can be productive with any work that doesnt require a computer or complex thinking. I can easily do manual labour as far as my body allows.

But when it compes to any computer related task which is why I'm on this specific subreddit, including programming ofcourse, my productivity is just literally 1% of what it should be. I can spend an whole day on just writing 5 lines of useful code somehow. A part of this is the fact that whenever I'm with a device, theres just too much temptation to do other things on the internet that arent nearly as useful or necessary as the work I'm supposed to be doing.

Has anyone dealt with this and found a solution to this phenomenon?

In the Netherlands, my country, obtaining a license is very difficult due to the long bureaucratic process with months long waiting lists. Ontop of that driving lessons are infrequent and expensive too.

I want to pass with minimum lessons so therefore I must obtain the most skill per hour out of my limited lessons. For that I have 3 reasons for anyone curious:

1. Just curious how few lessons I can pass with, as a challenge
2. Saving money
3. Getting my license faster and sooner

And I do not trust that if I take on a fully passive role in the learning process, that that will get me to my goal the fastest. I believe I should steer my own learning process too, not just the instructor only.

So how do I obtain the most practise and skillgrowth per hour out of my infrequent drivinglessons?

1. I miss appointments.
2. I strongly hurt emotionally and disappoint the people in my life.
3. I struggly to take care of my health (vicious cycle)
4. I pay invoices late then get charged extra because I missed the dates
5. I rarely ever manage to check my email so I often miss a lot of very important messages
6. And worst of all my todolist grows bigger every day and I just can't get anything done off it.
7. I currently have no job or study. That would be impossible!
8. At this point, having been an almost 0% functioning person for almost 5 years in a row, I feel more and more suicidal over time. Whats the point in trying hard when I can't anymore but still nothing improves

Ive tried therapy for so many years with so many different therapists and that just doesnt help me at all. None at all. Going to therapy It just makes my problem worse because its just another drain of my time and energy...

I'm trying medication but I can hardly experiment because the doctors are so slow at replying and making appointments...

There seems to be no way to become any level of functioning so that means I will just gradually lost things and people until I'm homeless or something and then starve to death because I can't even gather the energy to do bare survival tasks.

"Mindset bro" ok ive been stuck in this situation for about 5 years with zero improvement so far, if you think you can convince me that improvement is somehow still possible despite 1000 failed attempts, do it then. Convince me.👂🦻🎧

In the Netherlands, my country, obtaining a license is very difficult due to the long bureaucratic process with months long waiting lists. Ontop of that driving lessons are infrequent and expensive too.

I want to pass with minimum lessons so therefore I must obtain the most skill per hour out of my limited lessons. For that I have 3 reasons for anyone curious:

1. Just curious how few lessons I can pass with, as a challenge
2. Saving money
3. Getting my license faster and sooner

And I do not trust that if I take on a fully passive role in the learning process, that that will get me to my goal the fastest. I believe I should steer my own learning process too, not just the instructor only.

So how do I obtain the most practise and skillgrowth per hour out of my infrequent drivinglessons?

A little extra context: I bikecommute on an ebike so I'm not a couchsitter I'm also not very sporty I'm rather inbetween the 2.

My legs often feel like dead weight. On a bad day, I can

• Hardly stand up from the couch
• Need to use my arms to pull myself upstairs
• hardly stand or walk at all
• even though my ebike with cadence sensor has about 0 resistance, pedaling can still feel heavy.

And ive been going to the doctor SO MANY TIMES. Heres what usually happens:

1. Just another bloodtest that shows nothing suspicious of suspicious value
2. Just another explanation that "its just stress and mental problems affecting the body, we didnt find something medical so you should work with a psychiatrist"

And yes Ive seen different doctors for this. I don't know what to do at this point.

Edit for some extra medical context:

• I have chronic burnout (partialy powered by autism and adhd brain)
• One year ago I randomly got Atrial Fibrillation which so far didnt come back after the cardioversion in the hospital.
• As a teenager in the past I was unhealthily overtraining at extreme levels due to my extreme obsession with sports and the "no pain no gain" philosophy. I don't know if this could play one role.Now.
• My diet is decentish, but not perfect. I drink and eat bread, peanutbutter, cheese, milk, grapes, bananas, carrots, and whatever is for dinner in the evening(random). Vegetarian too.

How do I retrieve, recover my good old motivation?

History: I was extremely motivated once in college and gym and jobs and everything. Burnout hit me.

Now, My motivation is about 1% of what it was originally. Has been for years.

I want that ability to work hard again and to feel good while working hard, not the "ugh I want to stop" feeling.

For example(tbhthe main reason I ask) Reddit. I'm addicted to Reddit in the forms of

1. Pointlessly arguing
2. Refreshing the page every minute to check for new replies, even hours long in a row
3. Making comments much bigger than they need to be.
4. Postint things that maybe I shiouldnt.

I think its mostly numbers 2and3 for me: they can easily drain many hours off my day, which seriously affects how I function and how I maintain my relationships with people. How come I spend more time on Reddit than with the people I love? It makes no sense to me.

I want to keep using Reddit. But I want to do that in a controlled way so that its just a few minutes per day as it should be. That it doesnt takeover my mind all day long.

How?