u/gigithrowaway21

It’s almost the end of summer (thank god) and so ice rinks will be opening back up soon. However I just realized how little I skated these past two months (like 6 hours of ice time total😭) and so I was worried about the shape of my foot changing now that it’s not stuck in a boot all the time and the comfort going back down when I get onto the ice again.

Would it be a good idea to start wearing them around the house for a few hours at time to keep my feet used to them?

I spent over $1000 at Aritzia this weekend because my excuse was it’s an investment in business clothes (I never had anymore) but now I’m on their website trying not to buy that exact blazer and other options of dress in ever colour imaginable.

I just can’t stop. Like I either Uber Eats something to feel better, or buy a cookie on my lunch break every single day ($5 per cookie starts to add up after a while☹️)

I want the blazer, I want the dress. Together they’re about $350. But also want other dresses in white to give my white blazer options. But I need to pay off my credit card and other debts first. But if I do that, then I can’t buy the dress and blazer until next month when I get paid for this month’s work. But thy then they might not have it in my colour anymore. Literally what can I do. I do this every time I get paid, and I already don’t make that much money. I feel like I’m out of control.

21F
I have a really inconsistent job. The hours are only full time for two months in the summer. It’s really far away and the nature of the job (childcare/teaching) is so incredibly difficult and draining. I don’t know what to do, it messes with my mental health so badly.

But I worry that I’m just light years behind my friends in terms of making money. I didn’t go to college when then did. Soon they’ll be graduating and having real money with solid education and jobs to support them.

Last month I made probably close to $4K but I don’t know but I didn’t get the entire check yet, my boss forgot to put in payroll on time again. I’m grateful she send me about half of it on the weekend but still it sucks to not have a regular reliable source of income. It’s also monthly pay. So if one month is really dry but the next week is really good. I won’t see that week’s pay until the next month from it. It’s so inconvenient.

The job is physically demanding too. But in terms of money, it’s just not worth it when it’s got such severe off seasons. I’ve been wanting to quit but I care about my boss as a person and I want to stay as long as I can help her, but it’s really messing with me. Idk.

I’m bad at saving money, I have a credit card to pay off, parking tickets I got in my moms cars, and this other debt I have pay from a stupid decision I made months ago that’s supposed to be paid off this month, but I can’t pay it off because I don’t have all of my paycheque yet.

I just feel like I’m not in the right field. I’m worried that I’ll still be stuck where I am next year. I want to work as hard as I can to do anything else that might make me happy. I wanted to model on the side but with how inconsistent my job, the hours are always sudden and clash with when people have wanted to book me. I can’t take time off a lot because I’m the only full time employee, and so I don’t know what to do. I feel sick.

One of my friend travels like crazy with her boyfriend, a car and I think they’re talking about getting married one day too. I thought that would be me one day but I’m just stuck all by myself, trying to figure out what part of my life is even worth investing into. I’m so embarrassed.

I don’t want to talk care of kids anymore, I want to invest into the arts like I originally wanted to. I want to go school and see what’s out there for me. I want to travel too. I just don’t understand why this is all so hard for me. I don’t know what to do.

21F 150lbs

Not asking for medical advice!!! Just curious about the mechanics of how this works!!

Recently I have taken up beginner adult ballet, and for the past year and have been practicing my figure skating skills more seriously in order to soon qualify for program competitions one day in the future. However, a couple months ago I injured my left hamstring whilst doing a from left spilt. It has been injured since probably May/June. And continued to hurt all throughout ballet classes and skating.

I would stretch everyday, and for the past month tried to focus on stretches that would help heal my hamstring but every stretch seemed to make it worse and make my joints more stiff and painful. It’s like the most I stretch them, the more pain I was in even if I was get somehow flexibility wise, but the pain would affect how far I wanted to push my stretching and I would end up less flexible because I wasn’t pushing it.

Nowww there are two factors that I think suddenly helped with my pain this week and this is what they are:

I started my leg workouts from the earlier year again. I got lazy this winter/spring and just stopped doing them. The leg workout is about 3 times a week, and consists of weighted fire hydrants, donkey kicks, weighted squats, and weighted lunges in that order using 8 pound dumbbells. I have a theory that this week, since I started those exercises again, my muscles are gaining strength that’s what is helping with the hamstring pain, however it made the rest of my legs SUPER sore. So I don’t really think it’s just that.

Theory 2, my heated blanket is somehow helping with the pain. I have used my heated blanket for the past 3 days, and oh my god it’s like my pain is GONE. My joints are not painful anymore, my muscles are not as sore and tight. And my hamstring doesn’t hurt as sensitively anymore. I can’t believe that it’s my heated blanket that is helping so much.

I want to believe that maybe the amount of sleep I got this weekend has almost helped, I never get a full nights sleep except on Fridays and Saturdays. And my sleep was so good because of the blanket. I just don’t understand why?

If you read of this thank you, and if you can please tell me how it’s possible that all my hot baths, massage guns, and pain killers couldn’t help with my sore legs but my heated blanket could?🥲

I'm weaning off my meds. It all hurts. My suicidal thoughts are back. I want to cry every other hour. I just don't know what to do. My hurt hearts. I feel like a burden to the world.
I'm frustrated with everything about myself. I don't know what the point of anything is anymore. I just...! don't want to be alive. It all hurts so much. And no where will let me post about it. It's awful. I need help, but I don't know what kind.
I'm tired of hating myself. I'm tired of hating my body. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. It all just hurts.

I certain individual has been getting so much media attention these past few days. And frankly speaking seeing her makes me so angry. I talked to my friend about it, he's trying so hard to convince me that I'm beautiful and that I shouldn't starve myself because that's what she's doing and she looks heartbreakingly bad at the moment. I'm trying to believe him. But every time I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror | want to cry. I see my legs and I think about cutting the fat out myself with a knife, all horrible feelings I used to have before my antidepressants. But l have been weaning off them, and then I saw her on TikTok, instagram, Reddit and YouTube. I can't escape her.

I don't want to dog on her anymore because I know the whole world is like really mad at her already. But I'm just so frustrated. It hurts that I can't be concerned for her, because mostly I just resent that she and her team of people are advertising this as a good thing. Someone said their 7 year old daughter expressed wish to not eat anymore so she could look like her. I cried reading that. It's just disgusting what's going on. It's hurting so many people.

So, despite all the beautiful model like girls I see on a daily basis online and in real life. I got myself Froyo. And yeah my thighs are fat, and yeah I'm a few more pounds bigger than last year. But I got the Froyo. And I'm going to the beach and I'm going to enjoy it. We were all that little girl, some of us have been. My heart breaks for all of us.

If you were contemplating eating something today, this is your sign to just eat it. Enjoy it. Please. For yourself, and all of us. It's going to be okay.

I was wondering if it would help my skin stay looking younger for longer if I started taking Coleen supplements now at 21 years old. I just saw a TikTok about it, and got kind of curious. Is it worth it?

I was cleaning when I got a splash of toilet cleaner on my face (left side of my chin under the corner of my mouth) and IMMEDIATELY I gagged and washed my face with soap 4 times in a row and rinsed for over a minute. I just kept scrubbing and then I put cocoa butter on the spot. But the been hours and the spot still burns.

I have like eczema or some kind of skin condition on my face around the bottom half of my face, it always been sensitive but I’m worried about the pain and the potential breakout. I’m about to grab a cold compress for it, but I’m just so worried. What do I do? How long will it take to stop burning?

I’m going to be 10 minutes late for work today and I just don’t even know what to do anymore.

I hate this job. I hate living two hours away from it. I hate that no matter what I do I can bring myself to wake up any earlier to get there. I hate how overstimulating the environment is. I hate sharing a washroom with children. I hate how my boss speaks to me when she’s not love bombing and bribing me into staying. I just hate it all so much. I could cry. I might break down.

I (21F) started taking absolute beginner lessons this month and I’m so happy to finally be starting something I’ve always wanted to do. But I worry that it may not take me anywhere..? As in performances, is it worth it to start as an adult beginner if your dream is to one day perform and dance on stage?

I might just be tired, but I just saw a TikTok of a celebrity that I happen to be really envious of. And I know we’re not supposed to be jealous of those around us, especially the rich and famous but it’s just so hard. They look so happy and just exist doing what they love.

I feel forced to be in the job I’m currently at. I don’t have any interest in the job anymore and honestly I can’t even say I’m doing it for the money because the mental toll it takes on me isn’t worth it.

I just don’t feel like I’m living a life I ever wanted. I’m not happy deep down. When I see people staring in movies and doing press tours, and getting engaged I just get so sick with jealously. I’m mad that I don’t live enough of my own life to not know these things. I’m mad that I’ll probably never be that happy ever. I don’t know…

Normally I try so hard to practice gratitude but sometimes it slips. I can’t believe how miserable I get when I see people like that living life to the fullest. I know it’s not productive but I can’t bring myself to stop. What do I do.?

I bought a small chocolate cake from my favourite bakery a week or so ago right before my period and ate it all. It was so good but I felt so guilty about calories.yesterday I purged my dinner and now this morning I’m craving the same cake and idk…I’m worried.

I work Monday to Friday and have skating and ballet during the week too. And I walk a lot because my job is 2 hours away from me via public transport. But I’m so scared. I really want the cake but I’m worried about how much weight I’ll gain and how I my ballet clothes might fit. I’m not the smallest girl in the class and I’m so jealous.

I don’t know. I’m just insecure. I need an outside opinion. It’s a small sized cake but I’m just anxious and so sad.

I’m just so down. I feel like I’m ruining everything in my life. I’m driving away those who care about me.

I don’t feel like I’m doing anything right. I’m so lonely and I’m sad. I don’t know…I feel like a horrible person. Please help me

I’m just so down. I feel like I’m ruining everything in my life. I’m driving away those who care about me.

I don’t feel like I’m doing anything right. I’m so lonely and I’m sad. I don’t know…I feel like a horrible person. Please help me

I just…I don’t know anymore.

I feel surrounded by coke thin bodies. My entire feed is fully of gorgeous thin women. My legs and waist are the more dead give away that I’m not thin and it hurts so much.

I feel like I’m never going to stop worrying about losing weight. It sucks. I just want to be beautiful and thin. I wish I could model.

I’m hungry but not hungry. I eat but not really. I puke up the heavy stuff. And often forget to finish eating the light stuff. I’m not getting smaller, the scale isn’t budging and my waist isn’t shrinking. I’m so tired every day. But I never feel like I’m good enough.