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I’m about to be 18F and I’ve been in community college for two semesters. I started my first job around 4 months ago. It’s an easy job at my college with great coworkers and a great boss.

I’m going to be honest, I’ve been falling deeper and deeper into a depression and generally losing interest in everything.

Ive been overly self-aware for as long as I can remember. I was given access to the internet early, and learned about all the stereotypes of youth, common experiences people have, and everything like that. I would judge kids in middle school for getting into romantic relationships because i read that those usually don’t last. (I did not have friends I’m middle for obvious reasons and I barely had friends in Highschool because I became anxious around that time lol.)

I would base my behavior around what I thought I should act like at whatever age I was. And I also used to think of my life as an “experience”. Do reckless things just to say it happened to me. Use the drama of that to fuel my creative pursuits. I loved watching social drama vicariously through the few friends I had. Though tried to stay out of it myself. I found people interesting. I loved watching people change around me. Humans were interesting. Being a teenager was part of my identity. Life was a weird movie I was watching around me.

I haven’t drawn or wrote anything in months. And I’ve realized that’s because I don’t see anything interesting happening to me anymore. I don’t care about writing two characters trying to rekindle a bond, because that’s not going to happen to me anymore. Adults don’t tend to stick to complicated social dynamics.

I lost my main inspiration for creative works. And I based my identity around making creative works. I like the emotion in them. I don’t have anything to draw emotion from anymore.

I got very used to the structure I was in, too. I would make friends with teachers and play up a shy and helpful persona, so that I’d get on their good side and have more privileges. I knew how to make teachers like me. I knew I could act naive and nervous around adults as a 12-14 year old and they’d take pity on me and help me with whatever I needed. I could become a helper around 15-16 and have adults trust me more and turn a blind eye if I bent the rules. (Nothing insane. Just like, ignore that I was on YouTube in class.)

Beyond college stereotypes and what to expect, I never found an interest in adulthood. And reading about adulthood now, I have even less of an interest in it. It looks incredibly lonely. Monotonous. Unless you have kids, which I don’t plan to have, life tends to get boring. People solidify themselves around their 30’s, and their personalities don’t change much beyond that. You don’t get to watch your peers change. Nobody’s around each other enough for any meaningful social drama to happen. So there’s nothing interesting to vicariously watch. I have fiction, but that’s not the same.

I have money now, sure. But I’ve gotten bored of that too. Nothing I do is special anymore. Because as a poor teenager, anything interesting I did was novelty. It was special. It’s not special anymore. Because I can drop $200 to go to a concert if I want. I can take myself to a water park. It isn’t special. I didn’t “get” anything. It’s just mindless entertainment so the day is less boring.

I’m just struggling to see a point beyond this.

I’m about to be 18F and I’ve been in community college for two semesters. I started my first job around 4 months ago. It’s an easy job at my college with great coworkers and a great boss.

I’m going to be honest, I’ve been falling deeper and deeper into a depression and generally losing interest in everything.

Ive been overly self-aware for as long as I can remember. I was given access to the internet early, and learned about all the stereotypes of youth, common experiences people have, and everything like that. I would judge kids in middle school for getting into romantic relationships because i read that those usually don’t last. (I did not have friends I’m middle for obvious reasons and I barely had friends in Highschool because I became anxious around that time lol.)

I would base my behavior around what I thought I should act like at whatever age I was. And I also used to think of my life as an “experience”. Do reckless things just to say it happened to me. Use the drama of that to fuel my creative pursuits. I loved watching social drama vicariously through the few friends I had. Though tried to stay out of it myself. I found people interesting. I loved watching people change around me. Humans were interesting. Being a teenager was part of my identity. Life was a weird movie I was watching around me.

I haven’t drawn or wrote anything in months. And I’ve realized that’s because I don’t see anything interesting happening to me anymore. I don’t care about writing two characters trying to rekindle a bond, because that’s not going to happen to me anymore. Adults don’t tend to stick to complicated social dynamics.

I lost my main inspiration for creative works. And I based my identity around making creative works. I like the emotion in them. I don’t have anything to draw emotion from anymore.

I got very used to the structure I was in, too. I would make friends with teachers and play up a shy and helpful persona, so that I’d get on their good side and have more privileges. I knew how to make teachers like me. I knew I could act naive and nervous around adults as a 12-14 year old and they’d take pity on me and help me with whatever I needed. I could become a helper around 15-16 and have adults trust me more and turn a blind eye if I bent the rules. (Nothing insane. Just like, ignore that I was on YouTube in class.)

Beyond college stereotypes and what to expect, I never found an interest in adulthood. And reading about adulthood now, I have even less of an interest in it. It looks incredibly lonely. Monotonous. Unless you have kids, which I don’t plan to have, life tends to get boring. People solidify themselves around their 30’s, and their personalities don’t change much beyond that. You don’t get to watch your peers change. Nobody’s around each other enough for any meaningful social drama to happen. So there’s nothing interesting to vicariously watch. I have fiction, but that’s not the same.

I have money now, sure. But I’ve gotten bored of that too. Nothing I do is special anymore. Because as a poor teenager, anything interesting I did was novelty. It was special. It’s not special anymore. Because I can drop $200 to go to a concert if I want. I can take myself to a water park. It isn’t special. I didn’t “get” anything. It’s just mindless entertainment so the day is less boring.

I’m just struggling to see a point beyond this.

I’m newly 18F and I’ve been in community college for two semesters. I graduated high school early. I started my first job around 4 months ago. It’s an easy job at my college with great coworkers and a great boss.

I’m going to be honest, I’ve been falling deeper and deeper into a depression and generally losing interest in everything.

Ive been overly self-aware for as long as I can remember. I was given access to the internet early, and learned about all the stereotypes of youth, common experiences people have, and everything like that. I would judge kids in middle school for getting into romantic relationships because i read that those usually don’t last. (I did not have friends I’m middle for obvious reasons and I barely had friends in Highschool because I became anxious around that time lol.)

I would base my behavior around what I thought I should act like at whatever age I was. And I also used to think of my life as an “experience”. Do reckless things just to say it happened to me. Use the drama of that to fuel my creative pursuits. I loved watching social drama vicariously through the few friends I had. Though tried to stay out of it myself. I found people interesting. I loved watching people change around me. Humans were interesting. Being a teenager was part of my identity. Life was a weird movie I was watching around me.

I haven’t drawn or wrote anything in months. And I’ve realized that’s because I don’t see anything interesting happening to me anymore. I don’t care about writing two characters trying to rekindle a bond, because that’s not going to happen to me anymore. Adults don’t tend to stick to complicated social dynamics.

I lost my main inspiration for creative works. And I based my identity around making creative works. I like the emotion in them. I don’t have anything to draw emotion from anymore.

I got very used to the structure I was in, too. I would make friends with teachers and play up a shy and helpful persona, so that I’d get on their good side and have more privileges. I knew how to make teachers like me. I knew I could act naive and nervous around adults as a 12-14 year old and they’d take pity on me and help me with whatever I needed. I could become a helper around 15-16 and have adults trust me more and turn a blind eye if I bent the rules.

Beyond college stereotypes and what to expect, I never found an interest in adulthood. And reading about adulthood now, I have even less of an interest in it. It looks incredibly lonely. Monotonous. Unless you have kids, which I don’t plan to have, life tends to get boring. People solidify themselves around their 30’s, and their personalities don’t change much beyond that. You don’t get to watch your peers change. Nobody’s around each other enough for any meaningful social drama to happen. So there’s nothing interesting to vicariously watch. I have fiction, but that’s not the same.

I have money now, sure. But I’ve gotten bored of that too. Nothing I do is special anymore. Because as a poor teenager, anything interesting I did was novelty. It was special. It’s not special anymore. Because I can drop $200 to go to a concert if I want. I can take myself to a water park. It isn’t special. I didn’t “get” anything. It’s just mindless entertainment so the day is less boring.

I’m just struggling to see a point beyond this.

I’m 18F and I’m currently enrolled in community college. I don’t have any remaining childhood friends. I’ve tried making friends here, but people just don’t seem interested. I’m 6 years younger then all of my coworkers. So while they’re nice company and I like talking to them, I can’t really be their friend.

I’ll be transferring to University as a junior. I plan to try to get a dorm and stay there my junior and senior year (That’s probably weird. But oh well.) However, I’m terrified that I won’t make any friends in university. Most people make their friends in freshman year. Most people would’ve already had cliques. And it’s only two years. That’s not a long time to forge a meaningful bond.

So, just looking for advice I guess. Have any of you made any long-term and meaningful friends as University transfer student? If so, how?

I’m 18F and I’m currently enrolled in community college. I don’t have any remaining childhood friends. I’ve tried making friends here, but people just don’t seem interested. I’m 6 years younger then all of my coworkers. So while they’re nice company and I like talking to them, I can’t really be their friend.

I’ll be transferring to University as a junior. I plan to try to get a dorm and stay there my junior and senior year (That’s probably weird. But oh well.) However, I’m terrified that I won’t make any friends in university. Most people make their friends in freshman year. Most people would’ve already had cliques. And it’s only two years. That’s not a long time to forge a meaningful bond.

So, just looking for advice I guess

I’m 18F and I’m currently enrolled in community college. I don’t have any remaining childhood friends. I’ve tried making friends here, but people just don’t seem interested. I’m 6 years younger then all of my coworkers. So while they’re nice company and I like talking to them, I can’t really be their friend.

I’ll be transferring to University as a junior. I plan to try to get a dorm and stay there my junior and senior year (That’s probably weird. But oh well.) However, I’m terrified that I won’t make any friends in university. Most people make their friends in freshman year. Most people would’ve already had cliques. And it’s only two years. That’s not a long time to forge a meaningful bond.

So, just looking for advice I guess. Have any of you made any long-term and meaningful friends as University transfer student? If so, how?

Hello. I’ll be applying for Spring or Fall 2027 as a lower-level transfer student. I currently have 22 credits from community college. I didn’t take language in high school and I haven’t taken language yet in college.

Would I still be able to transfer? Would I have a better chance transferring if I stay under 30 credits, or go over 30 credits and become a “mid-level” transfer?

So I’m soon-to-be 18F. I’m in the USA. I’m in community college right now and plan to try to transfer to a university soon. The family I lived with growing up was abusive. And while it’s better now. I still just, want to be away from them. I don’t want them in my adult life much. I want to be somewhere that feels far away, so I can heal from whatever psychological effects it had on me.

I live 45 minutes away from a university. I didn’t want to go to this one, because of how close it is. But unfortunately, with further research, this place is my best bet. It’s the most transfer-friendly college in my state. And the only one I’m likely to get dormming in.

But I’m terrified to still be that close to my house. If my family wanted, they could easily drive to my university if they’re mad at me. Or I could randomly run into them. I’m not really “away” from them, if they know they can access me that easily.

So, can I just lie to them? Tell them I got accepted into a different university? Or is there some way they could find out?

I’m newly 18F. I don’t have childhood friends. I was very reclusive as a teenager dealing with a bad home life. It’s not like I didn’t have any friends, just very few. And my last friend moved when I was 16. I didn’t bother making any after that.

I’m the type of person to heavily value platonic friends/connections. Friends are family you choose, and all.

I’m in community college now. And as much as I try, making friends here is just difficult. Clubs barely exist, and students mostly just leave after class. A good chunk of my classmates are also well into adulthood and don’t exactly want to socialize with a new adult.

I’ll be transferring to university as a junior, and I don’t know if I’ll really manage to make any close friends that late into college. Most people would’ve already had their groups. And it’s only two years. As opposed to the four a lot of college friendships get. I can’t really rely on college to make close friends anymore.

And now I’m faced with the looming dread that, holy fuck I might be alone for the rest of my life. From what I’ve read, a lot of adult friendships are shallow. Activity buddies. Nobody you ever really trust or love.

So just, have any of you made close/genuine friends after college? Is it possible? Or does that window close with college graduation?

I’m 17F (soon 18). I’m on my second semester of community college. I was originally going into nursing. But actually doing the class-work for it, and re-evaluating my life from the perspective of “What do I *actually* ***want*** to spend my life doing”… I realized I’m going to hate nursing. I just chose it because it was practical. And I figured I could tough out the abuse they go through. But that’s probably setting myself up for a miserable life.

Being reliable and practical is good. But it won’t matter if I quit after 3 years and change careers anyways. Nursing has a high burn-out rate after all.

Thing is, I have no idea what else to switch into. So I figured I’d seek suggestions here. So I can look into some jobs that maybe I haven’t even heard of before.

Topics I’m good at and/or like or would be okay working in -

\- Biology
\- Psychology
\- Sociology
\- English/Writing

Out of these.. realistically none are all that useful. Which is why I’m stuck.

Some of these could be alright if I go to grad school. Which I don’t mind doing.

Id actually like to work in the research field. But I’m not sure how realistic that’d be, since I’m switching to university as a Junior and I don’t know if I’d be able to get research experience that late.

Does anybody have any suggestions? Thank you.

I’m 17F (soon 18). I’m on my second semester of community college. I was originally going into nursing. But actually doing the class-work for it, and re-evaluating my life from the perspective of “What do I *actually* ***want*** to spend my life doing”… I realized I’m going to hate nursing. I just chose it because it was practical. And I figured I could tough out the abuse they go through. But that’s probably setting myself up for a miserable life.

Being reliable and practical is good. But it won’t matter if I quit after 3 years and change careers anyways. Nursing has a high burn-out rate and everything.

Thing is, I have no idea what else to switch into. So I figured I’d seek suggestions here. So I can look into some jobs that maybe I haven’t even heard of before.

Topics I’m good at and/or like or would be okay working in -

\- Biology
\- Psychology
\- Sociology
\- English/Writing

Out of these.. realistically none are all that useful. Which is why I’m stuck.

Some of these could be alright if I go to grad school. Which I don’t mind doing.

Id actually like to work in the research field. But I’m not sure how realistic that’d be, since I’m switching to university as a Junior and I don’t know if I’d be able to get research experience that late.

Does anybody have any suggestions? Thank you.

I’m 17F (soon 18). I’m on my second semester of community college. I was originally going into nursing. But actually doing the class-work for it, and re-evaluating my life from the perspective of “What do I *actually* ***want*** to spend my life doing”… I realized I’m going to hate nursing. I just chose it because it was practical. And I figured I could tough out the abuse they go through. But that’s probably setting myself up for a miserable life.

Being reliable and practical is good. But it won’t matter if I quit after 3 years and change careers anyways. Nursing has a high burn-out rate after all.

Thing is, I have no idea what else to switch into. So I figured I’d seek suggestions here. So I can look into some jobs that maybe I haven’t even heard of before.

Topics I’m good at and/or like or would be okay working in -

\- Biology
\- Psychology
\- Sociology
\- English/Writing

Out of these.. realistically none are all that useful. Which is why I’m stuck.

Some of these could be alright if I go to grad school. Which I don’t mind doing.

Id actually like to work in the research field. But I’m not sure how realistic that’d be, since I’m switching to university as a Junior and I don’t know if I’d be able to get research experience that late.

Does anybody have any suggestions? Thank you.