u/TravelOtherwise8507

I showed negative symptoms of schizophrenia. Still do. Numbness, cold affect, detachment. My sister did not, but ended up developing positive (and later negative) symptoms as she progressed in age. As a 19 year old, she's dropped out of university and is now homeless and untreated. As an 18 year old, I'm treated and stable, and just got diagnosed for schizotypal. 

I didn't understand what was going on with me. I thought I had autism, I do not think I do now. I've been diagnosed with ADHD, Bipolar 2, Schizoid, and Schizotypal. I believe the autism was a misdiagnosis, so I don't count it as one of my diagnoses.

I do weird stuff like carry a toy everywhere I go (even if it's just a small toy duck I keep in my pocket). I carried a plushie to university. 

I began developing suspicions and paranoia of people quite early on, as a young teenager.

My negative symptoms were quite prominent to the point where my (narcissist and borderline) mom would be trying to guilt trip me and it'd have zero effect. I'd stare at her blankly. 

So, i have

*Deep breath in*

Schizoid, bp2, audhd, and schizotypal. Just got diagnosed with schizotypal today

It makes sense now, the paranoia, the eccentricity, the carrying a plushie everywhere, the fear of ppl.

Hey, I'm a person diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder. Tomorrow I will have an appointment to see if I have schizotypal. I most certainly have the traits. 

I feel nonhuman, I have mild magical thinking, I am paranoid of others. I cannot stand close relationships, they make me want to puke. While I have bipolar disorder + autism, this has occurred outside the course of these two disorders. 

I don't shower, I use sponge baths, using a bucket of soapy water and bar soap, in my room, like a damn weirdo. 

I've always felt a certain sense of not being able to relate to others with schizoid personality disorder. I don't feel indifferent towards people, I actively feel disgust towards them and distrust them.

I feel seen here.

I'm 18 years old, was diagnosed formally with schizoid personality disorder, bipolar, AuDHD. I do not desire close relationships, and actively avoid talking with people. I wear ear muff headphones when I go outside just so people don't talk with me. Despite this, I make an effort to try to at least keep a couple friendships alive. It's easier when these friendships are online.

Since I'm 18, I'm still creating an identity. My identity so far revolves around superheroes, working out, self-improvement, and self-knowledge. I try to be as strong as I can, physically, and I try to belong in communities, partially because well, my life is fucking empty. So I fill it with goals that have to do with the physical world, like working out. In reality, I do not care for these communities.

Anyone else trying to create an identity?

I feel nothingness, happiness (sometimes), disappointment, fear, discomfort, anger, hypomania, and depression. I have bipolar type 2, so. 

Therapy is (finally) helping me, this is great news

A person I started seeing as a sister told me she sees me as a brother and a close friend

I'm relieved that I am still capable of close friendships, even if they're rare and require overcoming a lot

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I was 16-17. She was 21-22. I am now 18, and she is 23. I had schizoid personality disorder already starting to solidify back then, got diagnosed at 18. This triggered bipolar, my first hypomanic episode.

I panicked when I saw she liked me in a way she shouldn't. I could see it, how she'd hug longer than necessary, how she purposefully brushed my shoulder with hers, how she watched me when I laughed, how she looked at me for no reason during class. I panicked and texted her a lot, telling her to stop, that I know she's grooming me, etc. She took all of that and ruined my reputation. I lost friends. A lot of them. I tried reporting her to the school but nothing came of it.

I turned 17, she turned 22. She was watching my social media. Months after what happened. She was watching my tiktoks. My cringey teenage tiktoks. I blocked her on Tiktok, she deleted her account quickly after. I then saw how many share counts my instagram reels had. That all triggered my first full-on hypomanic episode. I developed amnesia, so all I got now are fragments.

I am now 18, diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder, bipolar type 2, AuDHD, and OCD symptoms. I know now that she had BPD. I still see her sometimes on my "suggested for you" list, so..

I cannot love. I don't love my family, I don't really love my friends. I see people as mostly just entertainment. I don't really talk to my brother anymore, since we live apart and he's not the greatest guy. I don't really care about my parents or sister, even though we live with each other. I talk to them because they can be useful, and out of boredom.

I try to help my friends as much as I can, and I go out of my way to help people. I talk to fellow mentally ill people to try to help them as much as I can.

I'm getting a bachelor's in psychology, and my plan is to get a master's and help people in the field of clinical psychology. If not that, then work in an animal shelter. In the meantime, I might volunteer for Habitat for Humanity, since I'm quite physically strong (due to a hormone variation) and I think I should use that gift for good.

My favorite superheroes are Spiderman and Captain America, and they inspire me to use my gifts for good. They inspire me to see myself as someone with gifts who can help other people out of choice.

My diagnoses are AuDHD, Bipolar type 2, schizoid personality disorder, and OCD symptoms. I take medication for everything except autism + schizoid.

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I cannot love. I don't love my family, I don't really love my friends. I see people as mostly just entertainment. I don't really talk to my brother anymore, since we live apart and he's not the greatest guy. I don't really care about my parents or sister, even though we live with each other. I talk to them because they can be useful, and out of boredom.

I try to help my friends as much as I can, and I go out of my way to help people. I talk to fellow mentally ill people to try to help them as much as I can.

I'm getting a bachelor's in psychology, and my plan is to get a master's and help people in the field of clinical psychology. If not that, then work in an animal shelter. In the meantime, I might volunteer for Habitat for Humanity, since I'm quite physically strong (due to a hormone variation) and I think I should use that gift for good.

My favorite superheroes are Spiderman and Captain America, and they inspire me to use my gifts for good. They inspire me to see myself as someone with gifts who can help other people out of choice.

My diagnoses, in case anyone was wondering, are: AuDHD, Bipolar type 2, schizoid personality disorder, and OCD symptoms. I take medication for everything except autism + schizoid.