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I don't currently believe in any religion, I'm looking for a religion in which there is a creator, I have a panentheistic view of the universe: I believe that the universe is within God and God is much bigger than the universe so we are part of God, I would like a religion or philosophy of life that adopts this thought or one close to it but in any case anything is fine with me, I would also like to be able to do cute rituals and relaxing things and connecting with myself and the nature, set up an altar or oratory at home and wear symbols too thank you❤️

I don't currently believe in any religion, I'm looking for a religion in which there is a creator, I have a panentheistic view of the universe: I believe that the universe is within God and God is much bigger than the universe so we are part of God, I would like a religion or philosophy of life that adopts this thought or one close to it but in any case anything is fine with me, I would also like to be able to do cute rituals and relaxing things and connecting with myself and the nature, set up an altar or oratory at home and wear symbols too thank you❤️

I don't currently believe in any religion but i believe in a creator, I'm looking for a religion in which there is a creator, I have a panentheistic view of the universe: I believe that the universe is within God and God is much bigger than the universe so we are part of God, I would like a religion or philosophy of life that adopts this thought or one close to it but in any case anything is fine with me, I would also like to be able to do cute rituals and relaxing things and connecting with myself and the nature, set up an altar or oratory at home and wear symbols too thank you❤️

I don't currently believe in any religion, I'm looking for a religion in which there is a creator, I have a panentheistic view of the universe: I believe that the universe is within God and God is much bigger than the universe so we are part of God, I would like a religion or philosophy of life that adopts this thought or one close to it but in any case anything is fine with me, I would also like to be able to do cute rituals and relaxing things and connecting with myself and the nature, set up an altar or oratory at home and wear symbols too thank you❤️

how do we pray? I looked for videos but I don't really understand. I saw that you have to do certain movements and cover your hair, but I didn't understand how many times you pray a day. Then I was wondering what other rituals there are in the day, How we do fasting?

تركتُ الإسلام قبل عامين؛ أبلغُ من العمر الآن 23 عاماً، ولا أزال في مرحلة الدراسة للحصول على شهادة الثانوية العامة، لأن أمي أخرجتني من المدرسة وأنا صغيرة بعد أن اكتشفت امتلاكي لحساب على "إنستغرام" ووجود أصدقاء لي عبر الإنترنت. لم يتبقَّ لي سوى عام واحد ومن المفترض أن أتخرج في شهر يونيو؛ ومع ذلك، لا أملك رخصة قيادة ولم أتمكن قط من العمل لأن أمي كانت ترفض ذلك، بحجة أنني -بصفتي امرأة- لست بحاجة للعمل. كما أن أمي توجه لي الإهانات وتحط من قدري، وتراقبني باستمرار، بل وتضربني أيضاً. لست متأكدة مما عليّ فعله. خطتي هي الحصول على الشهادة، والعثور على وظيفة، واستئجار مسكن، ثم -خطوة بخطوة- الانتقال للعيش بمفردي وحياتي وفقاً لشروطي الخاصة. لكن أمي تقول إنه إذا غادرتُ المنزل دون زواج، فيجب عليّ أن أنسى أن لي عائلة من الأساس، وأنهم لن يتحدثوا معي مرة أخرى أبداً. تبدو أمي مضطربة؛ فهي تغضب لأتفه الأسباب، وتلعب دور الضحية، وتتصرف وكأنها إله يُعبد لمجرد أنها أنجبت أطفالاً. علاوة على ذلك، أنا مجبرة حالياً على ارتداء الحجاب والتظاهر بأنني مسلمة عندما أكون بصحبتهم؛ ولا يمكنني الخروج متى شئت -ولا حتى مع الأصدقاء- وبالطبع، لا يمكنني الارتباط بشريك أو ارتداء الملابس التي أحبها. يتوجب عليّ تنظيف المنزل باستمرار، ومع ذلك لا شيء مما أفعله يرضيها أبداً، وكلما رأتني سعيدة، تشعر بدافع لتفسيد تلك السعادة. لقد أنهكني هذا الوضع؛ فأنا أراجع أخصائيين نفسيين وأطباء نفسيين حالياً وأتناول مضادات الاكتئاب لأن العبء ثقيل للغاية. ومع ذلك، أسأل نفسي: "كيف سأتحمل الابتعاد عن إخوتي الصغار وبقية الأقارب الذين أهتم لأمرهم؟" وحتى لو غادرتُ وقبلت أمي بالأمر، كيف يمكنني أن أعيش حياة حرة حقاً -بلا حجاب، مع حرية الخروج والاستمتاع، والارتباط بشريك، وتكوين صداقات، والسفر، وما إلى ذلك- دون الدخول في جدالات أو مشاكل أخرى؟ وكيف يمكنني العيش كغير مسلمة دون الوقوع في المتاعب؟ لا يعلمون أنني تركت الإسلام، ولكن لو عرفوا بذلك، لكانت ردة فعلهم سيئة للغاية؛ ولخشيتُ على حياتي. اسكن في اوروبا

Ho lasciato l'Islam due anni fa; ora ho 23 anni e sto studiando solo adesso per ottenere il diploma di scuola superiore, perché mia madre mi ritirò da scuola quando ero una ragazzina dopo aver scoperto che avevo Instagram e amici online.

Ora mi manca l'ultimo anno e dovrei diplomarmi a giugno; non ho ancora la patente e non ho mai potuto lavorare perché mia madre non me lo permetteva, sostenendo che, essendo donna, non ne avessi bisogno, Mia madre mi insulta anche e mi sminuisce, mi controlla continuamente e mi picchia anche.

Non so bene cosa fare. Il mio piano è ottenere il diploma, trovare un lavoro, prendere una in affitto e poi, passo dopo passo, andare a vivere per conto mio e vivere come mi pare.

Ma mia madre dice che, se dovessi andarmene senza essere sposata, dovrei dimenticarmi di avere una famiglia e che loro non mi parlerebbero mai più. Lei sembra pazza si arrabbia per tutto e si sente una vittima e pensa di essere una divinità da venerare solo perché ha fatto dei figli.

Inoltre, ora sono costretta a indossare l'hijab e a fingere di essere musulmana in loro presenza; non posso uscire quando voglio, nemmeno con le amiche, e ovviamente non posso avere un fidanzato né vestirmi come piace a me, devo continuamente pulire la casa e ogni cosa che faccio non va comunque bene e ogni volta che mi vede contenta deve rovinarmi la felicità

Sono stanca di questa situazione; ora vado anche da psicologi e psichiatri e prendo antidepressivi perché la situazione è davvero pesante per me. Eppure mi chiedo: "Come farò a stare lontana dai miei fratellini e dagli altri parenti a cui voglio bene?"

E anche se me ne andassi e mia madre lo accettasse, come potrei vivere una vita davvero libera senza hijab, uscendo, divertendomi, avendo un fidanzato, degli amici, viaggiando e così via senza litigi o altri problemi?

E come potrei vivere da non musulmana senza incorrere in difficoltà? Loro non sanno che ho lasciato l'Islam, ma se lo scoprissero reagirebbero molto male avrei paura per la mia vita. F23

I've been an ex-Muslim for 2 years, now I'm 23, I'm only now studying to get my high school diploma because my toxic mother took me out of school when I was young because she discovered that I had Instagram and online friends,

however now I'm missing the last year in June I should get my diploma, I don't even have a driving license yet and I've never been able to work because my mother didn't allow me to, saying that I'm a woman and I don't need to work, my mother also insults me and belittles me and always control what i do and also hits me

I live in a European country luckily here there is more help for women and everything, however I don't know what to do because I have in mind that once I get my diploma I'll find a job then find a place to rent and then go and live on my own little by little

but my mother says that if I leave without being married I have to forget about having a family and that they will never talk to me again, more now I also have to wear the hijab and pretend to be Muslim with them and I can't go out when I want not even with friends obviously I can't have a boyfriend and I can't dress how I like

I'm tired of this situation I now also go to psychologists and take I take antidepressants because the situation is really hard on me, but then I think, "How will I be able to stay away from my little brothers and even from my other relatives, whom I love?"

And even if I left and my mother accepted it, how will I be able to live a truly free life without a hijab, go out, have fun, have a boyfriend, have friends, travel, and so on without arguments or other things. And how will I be able to live as a non-Muslim without avoiding problems?

They don't know I left Islam now, but if they did, they'd react very badly.

I've been an ex-Muslim for 2 years, now I'm 23, I'm only now studying to get my high school diploma because my toxic muslim mother took me out of school when I was young because she discovered that I had Instagram and online friends,

however now I'm missing the last year in June I should get my diploma, I don't even have a driving license yet and I've never been able to work because my mother didn't allow me to, saying that I'm a woman and I don't need to work,

I live in a European country luckily here there is more help for women and everything, however I don't know what to do because I have in mind that once I get my diploma I'll find a job then find a place to rent and then go and live on my own little by little

but my mother says that if I leave without being married I have to forget about having a family and that they will never talk to me again, plus now I also have to wear the hijab and pretend to be Muslim with them and I can't go out when I want not even with friends obviously I can't have a boyfriend and I can't dress how I like

I'm tired of this situation I now also go to psychologists and take I take antidepressants because the situation is really hard on me, but then I think, "How will I be able to stay away from my little brothers and even from my other relatives, whom I love?"

And even if I left and my mother accepted it, how will I be able to live a truly free life without a hijab, go out, have fun, have a boyfriend, have friends, travel, and so on without arguments or other things. And how will I be able to live as a non-Muslim without avoiding problems?

They don't know I left Islam now, but if they did, they'd react very badly.

I've been an ex-Muslim for 2 years, now I'm 23, I'm only now studying to get my high school diploma because my mother took me out of school when I was young because she discovered that I had Instagram and online friends,

however now I'm missing the last year in June I should get my diploma, I don't even have a driving license yet and I've never been able to work because my mother didn't allow me to, saying that I'm a woman and I don't need to work,

I live in a European country luckily here there is more help for women and everything, however I don't know what to do because I have in mind that once I get my diploma I'll find a job then find a place to rent and then go and live on my own little by little

but my mother says that if I leave without being married I have to forget about having a family and that they will never talk to me again, plus now I also have to wear the hijab and pretend to be Muslim with them and I can't go out when I want not even with friends obviously I can't have a boyfriend and I can't dress how I like

I'm tired of this situation I now also go to psychologists and take I take antidepressants because the situation is really hard on me, but then I think, "How will I be able to stay away from my little brothers and even from my other relatives, whom I love?"

And even if I left and my mother accepted it, how will I be able to live a truly free life without a hijab, go out, have fun, have a boyfriend, have friends, travel, and so on without arguments or other things. And how will I be able to live as a non-Muslim without avoiding problems?

They don't know I left Islam now, but if they did, they'd react very badly.

I've been an ex-Muslim for 2 years, now I'm 23, I'm only now studying to get my high school diploma because my toxic mother took me out of school when I was young because she discovered that I had Instagram and online friends,

however now I'm missing the last year in June I should get my diploma, I don't even have a driving license yet and I've never been able to work because my mother didn't allow me to, saying that I'm a woman and I don't need to work,

I live in a European country luckily here there is more help for women and everything, however I don't know what to do because I have in mind that once I get my diploma I'll find a job then find a place to rent and then go and live on my own little by little

but my mother says that if I leave without being married I have to forget about having a family and that they will never talk to me again, plus now I also have to wear the hijab and pretend to be Muslim with them and I can't go out when I want not even with friends obviously I can't have a boyfriend and I can't dress how I like

I'm tired of this situation I now also go to psychologists and take I take antidepressants because the situation is really hard on me, but then I think, "How will I be able to stay away from my little brothers and even from my other relatives, whom I love?"

And even if I left and my mother accepted it, how will I be able to live a truly free life without a hijab, go out, have fun, have a boyfriend, have friends, travel, and so on without arguments or other things. And how will I be able to live as a non-Muslim without avoiding problems?

They don't know I left Islam now, but if they did, they'd react very badly.

I'm new and I was thinking about setting up my first home oratory prayer corner, I was wondering what a home oratory should contain and what is forbidden to put in it thank you very much

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused ❤️

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions even if i want because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused ❤️

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions like Sufi Islam or Christianity or other monotheistic religions because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions like Sufi Islam or Christianity or other monotheistic religions because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions like Sufi Islam or Christianity or other monotheistic religions because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions like Sufi Islam or Christianity or other monotheistic religions because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused ❤️

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions like Sufi Islam or Christianity or other monotheistic religions because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way

I need your advice and ideas, I want to find the religion that resonates with me but I'm confused ❤️

F23 I am an ex-Muslim, I have been looking for years for a faith or belief that resonates with me,

I feel (or want to feel) that there is a God, a divinity, a creator, a supreme force, call it what you want, I have read (not in depth) what various religions say,

I like many of them, but now my brain can no longer believe that there really is a god who judges you and sends you to heaven/hell for eternity, because to leave my past religion I had to dismantle the idea that there is a God,

so now I struggle for example to embrace religions like Sufi Islam or Christianity or other monotheistic religions because I feel like I have left one religion and entered another very similar but with a different name,

I don't want to feel like a sinner or feel that I have to go to hell or the people I love have to go to hell, I don't like it, but I feel that there is a force superior to us inside my heart, i can feel this 'love' of God spiritually,

I would like a religion or philosophy that thinks that there is something above but that does not judge me, does not punish me or makes me anxious,

doing rituals, prayers, lighting candles, holidays, symbols, all these things, I like them instead and i like the idea of peace and love and to live your life in a good way