Like my true enthusiasm is simply just fucking weird to normal people, I have to actually act more aloof and uninvested for once than what I really feel.
I was messaged by a moderator that it inadvertently came off as fat phobic, and the comment section was only people saying you can be both fat and healthy. I felt pretty damn confident I could say fat people are not gonna have unhealthy joints in their own right.
All the talk about how your personality can outshine a plethora of flaws with your appearance is very much true.
What is also true however is that we live in one of the most socially atomized periods in human history, third places (bars, clubs, etc. where people used to actually meet without an app) are dying or expensive. Outside of school, where many people will be done with by their 20s, or work, which is risky and a discussion in its own right, it's very likely the rest of your interactions with people will be just as superficial as any dating app already was.
Sometimes (A lot of times) life will be hard and unfair, and you're likely gonna get nothing done if you don't want to be pragmatic and go on about meeting new people the old way and how you should never go back dating online.
Just like how maybe someone might have to unfortunately work 60 hour weeks to not get evicted, maybe some of us have to unfortunately conform to the meat market of dating apps and go above and beyond.
Whether that's something like cosmetic surgerys that'll tear your bank account or having a rigorous workout routine and diet where you can't spend even a day not counting calories or straying away from healthy foods to keep your body at it's best shape because your face isn't even fixable to start with, you just might have to put in more effort than others to put it bluntly.
The sides haven't thickened enough for a beard so it's still this combo at most, though I'm most interested in a moustache now only.
The sides haven't thickened enough for a beard so it's still this combo at most, though I'm most interested in a moustache now only.
So it was at work, they were literally standing together while she was staring so ridiculously hard at me and would not break eye contact at all while she kept smiling and asking me questions about me, the bf seemed like he was noticing and gave this irritated "Okay" mid-convo but just kinda stood there, glad no one else was around at least, felt awful for bro and it was cringe af.
Mainly interested in bringing back a moustache or another goatee, I've grown it out for a few weeks and I don't I'm quite there for a complete beard
I'm 22, work in retail part-time so I'm standing a lot and that fucking hurts obviously, even with improvements working 5 times a weekbthe last few months, I just overheard this coworker my age who isn't even skinny like me and just outright fat casually say how they hate breaks sitting in the back and would rather get to keep talking with the person they were working with and it just flabbergasted me even though it's so minor, like I'm gasping for every second of getting a chance to sit down, literally nothing will stop me
22M and I have autism, I only recently became sexually active, I don't think it would be the best choice to say I was disgusted, more like overwhelmed, just all the new sounds and smells and the weight of another person and their body heat and the fact that it's often quite literally all right up against you at once feels like so much to take at once.
I would give anything to know I could make a genuine fuckup, and be able to come back home crying and recieve nothing back but reassurance and love, not be a freak or an idiot, not a liability, just somebody that's hurting they love with everything and want nothing but for them to get better
I had an extra professional lesson the afternoon before, guy said I was spotless, I just needed to keep confident, early this morning my test started, and I completely blew it, I missed a stopline and I had to use test cones instead of actual cars for the parking maneuvers on a backroad that's paved like swiss cheese.
It's probably not much to most people but like the second what I plan is switched up I absolutely fumble. I've been a total wreck all day, just completely shameful like I can't remember feeling so exposed and ridiculous sitting in the car while I get told how I obviously failed, I'll have a couple weeks minnimum before my new test and I'm not sure how I'll guarantee not being anxious without me just showing up already angry
So I had an extra professional lesson the afternoon before ans everything, guy said I was spotless, I just needed to keep confident, early this morning my test started, and I completely blew it, I missed a stopline and I had to use test cones instead of actual cars for the parking maneuvers on a backroad that's paved like swiss cheese.
It's probably not much to most people but like the second what I plan is switched up I fumble so bad. I've been a total wreck all day, I'll have a couple weeks minnimum before my new test and I'm not sure how I'll guarantee not being anxious without me just showing up already angry.
I had an extra professional lesson the afternoon before, guy said I was spotless, I just needed to keep confident, early this morning my test started, and I completely blew it, I missed a stopline and I had to use test cones instead of actual cars for the parking maneuvers on a backroad that's paved like swiss cheese.
It's probably not much to most people but like the second what I plan is switched up I absolutely fumble. I've been a total wreck all day, just completely shameful like I can't remember feeling so exposed and ridiculous sitting in the car while I get told I obviously failed
I had an extra professional lesson the afternoon before, guy said I was spotless, I just needed to keep confident, 7 hours ago my test started, and I completely blew it, I had to use test cones for the parking maneuvers on a backroad when i only ever did it on actual cars, completely flipped my shit internally, I ended up bumping right into them after literally never bumping into a car and that was my reason for failing:(
I had an extra professional lesson the afternoon before, guy said I was spotless, I just needed to keep confident, 7 hours ago my test started, and completely blew it, I missed a stopline and I had to use test cones for the parking maneuvers on a backroad that's paved like swiss cheese, it's probably not much to most people but like the second what I plan is switched up I absolutely fumble.
Literally had an extra professional lesson the day before, guy said I was spotless, I just needed to keep confident, an hour ago my test started, flipped my shit because I walk in after practicing countless times for, you know, actual fucking driving instead of using test cones on a backroad that's paved like swiss cheese.
I think I made new record of how quickly I've gotten to know someone before gaining a genuinely personal vendetta of pure hatred, doesn't matter that I know they're just some guy doing their job, if you manage to make my body activate that especially sore wound that has me feel like the most pathetic, naked and exposed creature on the face of the earth I will legitimately never be able to like you ever again.
One good thing about volatility like that at least is I'm most likely not gonna feel even a shred of anxiety next time because my body's too busy being filled with nothing but contempt and anger, especially if it's the same guy.
22M and I only recently became sexually active, I don't think it would be the best choice to say I was disgusted, more like overwhelmed, maybe I'm just pornbrained and have only processed it as nothing but visual or something, but just all the new sounds and smells and the weight of another person and their body heat and the fact that it's often quite literally all right up against you at once feels like so much to take at once