Need advice I’m in my 40s
let just say I really got burned on my 20s I ended it he got his fairytale happy ever after he married with kids and he did get heavier.
he did some really mean things he couldn’t have hurt me more if he tried. I believe he never did love me after what he did. He was my first love I adored him wanted to be with him forever.
since then I haven’t been in a relationship. I had dates and hookup I want something more .
i feel like such a failer I never met someone truly loves me yet I’m in my 40 for a long time I was heavily drinking to deal with the pain what he did. I’m sober more than 4 yrs . I been on the Apps guys say I’m good looking but very quiet.
what do I do I’m going to try speed dating soin
any advice im so tired being alone then I rather be alone be in something toxic