u/holycrap100

Moderators , can you change that ? I try to keep my NSFW settings turned off because it is easy for me to get triggered

Because that is what happened to me. I am in my 40s and been broke my whole adult life. As a kid, life was good though. I feel like I really fucked up in life.

I sold my ps5 like three weeks ago. Since then, I can't manage to find anything to fill the void. I accidentally watched some twitch because i miss gaming, which is odd because i was getting so bored of it at the same time and started to hate it. I just spend a lot more time on the computer and youtube now . I don't know what to do . I have been feeling kinda depressed over the last three weeks. I kinda feel like I don't fit in (never have to be honest but worse now) because most middle aged men like myself still play games and want to discuss them . Also i used to play a lot of College Football 26 and the new game CFB 27 just came out and im itching to play it even though it will frustrate the shit out of me if i did.

I'm kinda inconsistent with them. Some days I use them and others I don't. I still fail to stop looking at porn somehow . I can't seem to get past like 1 or 2 days without peeking at porn.

I work at a warehouse. The job is very physically demanding. I think my boss hates me. Whenever I ask for something that will make my job easier , she shoots down the suggestion. Also she will walk past me literally twenty times a shift before she stops and speaks to me and often if I say hey to her first she won't respond. Also im being overworked and asked to handle the load of 2-3 people and when I can't handle it her and my co workers accuse me of not moving fast enough. My body literally aches in the morning when I get up , like I retired from playing pro football .

My co workers also gossip about what they think my sexuality is , behind my back of course. They seem overly worried about why I don't have a wife or kids. Also my co workers act like they are the manager and often criticize my work unfairly and tell me what to do and how to do my job. I often get made fun of because of my thick southern accent(even though I live in TN) and co workers mock me behind my back and sometimes to my face.

This shit makes me violently angry and I often think of getting bloody revenge against them even though it won't solve anything and get me in jail

Aahhhh..I just relapsed twice. I feel so freaking guilty and dirty. This shit is so hard. I peeked everyday for the last few days and now it is a full blown 2 relapses.

Does anyone know of any hard to undo blocker software on android that is free?

I have two main triggers and that is sexual thoughts stemming from social media use and loneliness/boredom. How do I deal with these? Nothing really sounds fun except being online and scrolling

I'm 43 and don't have any kids. At this point I don't want any. My co workers think it's weird that I don't have kids . A much younger co worker says stuff to me about it like every other week. He is like " you seem like someone's father. Do you think you might still have a kid? You could get like a 35 or 30 year old woman and have a baby ". Then a few days ago he said to another co worker that everyone should have kids because that's what God put us on earth for. I have heard many other coworkers say shit like this too

I'm not being anti masturbation. As a matter of fact , I don't think I can stop it. I want to be able to more easily enjoy penetrative sex with a condom and gain my sensitivity back. I can't make it more than like 1 or 2 days without "peeking" at porn. How do you stop giving into the extreme urges when you get them?

I'm depressed. I thought it would be busier since it is 4th of July weekend. A storm is coming in the next two hours too so it probably won't be a lot of requests. No one has tipped me either and I had to put 40 dollars of my earnings in my gas tank. Ugh I have been running both Uber and Lyft together too

Should i just sit in a parking lot near stores/restaurants and just read a book or listen to the radio until a ping comes thru for a ride? what if i have to wait an hour between rides ? what is your personal strategy for dealing with this? I plan on driving around 10am this morning to 6pm possibly. im in memphis

I get tired of people in my family teasing me about my weight. I am sick of worrying what my dad thinks of my life and decisions. I am sick of dealing with shitty, immature , homophobic co-workers (I am bisexual. I am not out at my job but my co-workers suspect I am not straight and treat me with a lack of respect). I am tired of people testing me to see how much shit i will take from them. I am sick of dating people who treat me like shit. I just wish I could learn some boundaries . I even had to cut off my only friend because he put me down for not having boundaries with other people.

My self esteem is ruined and I feel like I have dug myself into a hole. I hate that i have allowed people to shit all over me.

I have a 3 day weekend off from my full time job and i only have like 75 dollars in my bank account right now. I gotta get food for me and my cat.and also my apartment complex accepts flex , which means i could divide my rent payment into two payments. the first payment is like 480 dollars but i have to make it by the fifth. I guess I will have to spend most of the weekend doing uber/lyft (neither is particularly busy in my city during the day on the weekends). It sucks because i wanted to try to be a little social this weekend . I hardly ever feel like being social in part because im always stressed about money. I just have the feeling i still wont make enough to eat, feed my cat and make my first flex payment. im so stressed out.

Everyone here is so damn negative, especially about careers and relationships. Everyone is miserable in their relationship, hates socializing, hates people, avoids romantic relationships , and says all careers suck. I am thinking of ending myself because of all the negativity. I hate my job twice as much due to reddit and i feel trapped because everyone on reddit says they filled out 2, 573 applications just to get one interview. I wish I had friends so i wouldn't have to feel lonely enough to turn to reddit. ughhhhhhh

I eat 1 or 2 servings of fruit daily and it still doesn't help.I still feel like I need a cake , cookie or candy bar every day multiple times a day. I have withdrawal symptoms if I don't eat junk, like my stomach will feel funny like I gotta throw up. I waste a lot of money on junk food every week...like probably 70 dollars or more. I don't want to end up with some disease from sugar.

I heard Devon Canup say this on youtube. He claims to have made millions off making faceless youtube videos on several of his channels. anyway, do y'all agree with this statement ? should you basically be working seven days a week , even if you are a middle aged out of shape guy like me lol?

I tried to do Uber/Lyft and ask if I could cut grass to come up with the money and I couldn't get it. Most of my money went back into my gas tank after driving Uber and Lyft. And I was sore from my primary job so I couldn't drive for too long.

Several weeks ago , I got a loan for like $2k that I have to repay every two weeks. At first my minimum payment was 87 dollars then it jumped up to 144 dollars. I can not afford to pay back this loan even though I have a full time job. I'm trying to get a second job as I mentioned in a previous post. Also I keep having to live off cash advance apps just to be able to eat and pay some of my bills. So i feel like I'm screwed. I hate myself. Ugh. My credit is gonna be fucked.

I want to change my life and career so I motivate myself by watching YouTube videos. Personally, I don't even know what else to watch on YouTube. Anyway, I suffer from analysis paralysis and don't act on things that would improve my life, like changing careers. I just go back and forth over what career I actually want but don't act . Anyone else have this issue ?

I work at a warehouse, loading trucks (by hand , not forklift).The boxes I have to lift off a conveyor belt are like 80 pounds sometimes. There used to be 1 or 2 other people working with me to load the truck but anytime they hire someone for the position , they quit and a lot of people have quit or gotten fired in my department and the company chooses not to replace them so I'm doing the work of two or three people . The company is expecting us to fulfill more and more orders with less and less people.

Also my boss doesn't like me. Anytime I ask for something or make a suggestion for something to be done to make my job easier , she says no. She will walk past me 6 or 7 times a shift before she speaks and some days she won't even speak at all. She gets mad when I take days off even though the company gives us vacation time. When other people do it , she doesn't say anything to them . She also micromanages me and she will stand over me while I work but she doesn't watch anyone else closely.

Anyway, I have went from 315 pounds to 250 pounds because of all the work at this job and my body is sore every time I get out of bed in the morning.

I have worked in warehouses (not just this one) for over 15 years . Only been at this warehouse for 3. I can't get any other type of work . I apply for sales , customer service , and office stuff and emphasize transferrable skills but I get rejected.

My co workers often talk down to me and make fun of me and then smile in my face and think I don't know they talk about me. They often criticize how slow I move but I move slow because I'm tired and sore .

How can I get out of this job? Should I get another shitty warehouse job (that is first shift instead of second) while going back to school? Keep trying for jobs outside of warehouse work with current credentials ? I know that staying at this job is not an option. I bust my ass at this job and still can't pay my bills. (I make $19 an hour which is ok but not enough and I live alone )

Nothing seems interesting. I don't really feel like doing anything else. My mental health is fucked. I take meds. Just started taking a stronger dose of Abilify. I don't know what to do. I sold my gaming console last weekend for money and usually gaming was my go to but I started to not have fun with it. I use r/pornfree for support to stop viewing porn so I feel I need to be on here. What do you think about all this ?

I need a second job, BAD. I applied at the Mcdonalds near my house but they said their interview schedule is full right now (I applied online). Where else should I look? It seems like most part-time jobs want you to have open availability , which is dumb. I am going to do some ubering but the market where i live sucks.