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I’m feeling a bit adventurous today and i suppose I wouldn’t be a true clevelander unless I got a tattoo of my favorite Cleveland band. it’s been on my mind for awhile now and I think today must be the day (I just want to feel alive again)

plz let me know any recs !

been going through it and ofc songs like coma white and broken needle help me but looking for other songs to just cry to tonight.

sorry for the depressing question but I guess I’m just going through it recently (or really the last several months) and NIN has helped me time and time again, songs like hurt and everyday is exactly the same and something I can never have.

I miss him I miss him I miss him, we were supposed to be endgame 🥲💔only good thing left in life is NIN and this wonderful community.

Okay so, I left Islam back in December after being a niqabi for years and overall very involved. Ever since I feel like there’s just no purpose for me in life and there’s no reason to do anything and I dunno it’s very hard.

like, Islam isn’t just a belief system but an entire way of life. Leaving and deconstructing that is extremely hard but what’s harder is trying to find something to fill that void. I feel like all I do most days is work, eat, sleep, repeat and there’s nothing that makes me feel like I am doing anything good in life and I often wonder if I’m just going to die anyways then why bother trying to do anything at all?

In other ways it’s been freeing…I’ve redone my wardrobe, gotten a new job, got my own apartment, etc and can genuinely just do what I want but sometimes I miss the guidelines and rules too. Sometimes I miss simply knowing my purpose in life and what was expected of me and how to dress and such. Other days it’s awesome being able to wear whatever but that guilt doesn’t fully leave from simply wearing a t shirt.

Everyday I see people living their lives and laughing and spending time with people and I can’t help but think “how can they be so happy? what is there to be happy about?”

i don’t know what there is to truly live for and I don’t believe in god or an afterlife anymore, not really. so what’s the point? how do I find a point?

going through a weird transitional phase in my life and most days (for the last several months) I feel like all i do is eat, sleep, work, repeat and life feels a bit dull and depressing and I’m struggling to find any meaning and just looking for maybe some good spots to go to…preferably somewhere with a good view or good music or just out in nature.

edit- wow thanks for all of the recs! I’ve read through each and every one and I’m putting together a list of places I’d like to visit. My life has just been so bleh after leaving my faith (see post history for more, won’t go into here) and I’ve been struggling to find reasons to continue here.

So, I got 4 foo fighters tickets for myself(21f), my parents, and my aunt, who were supposed to be visiting from New York but unfortunately my aunt couldn’t make it so I have a spare ticket. It is in section 510 so it’s not like it’s the best ticket (though it was $75), I’m also not trying to make any money off of it but I’m just hoping to find someone who might want to go. you’re welcome to go in with us (I promise my parents are cool enough) or I can just transfer the ticket.

I guess the only thing I ask is no resellers please, I’d rather it go to a genuine fan who might otherwise not be able to go.

So, I left Islam awhile ago and yet I sometimes find myself still making dua or wearing hijab occasionally or listening to nasheeds or whatever, but I don’t do the prayers and don’t consider myself to be a Muslim anymore for a large variety of reasons.

but, does anyone else feel the same?

If I say I like MM to NIN fans it’s an issue or if I say I like NIN to MM fans it’s an issue. I guess I’m not old enough to understand the beef between the two (I’m 21) I am not saying I like one more than the other or supporting the artist, music wise I like both. Anyways, I know it probably goes pretty far back I’m just looking for a simple explanation.

Sorry if I sound ignorant. I’m a pretty casual Marilyn Manson listener nowadays but I’ve seen both live and have both on playlists currently.