I honestly don't like being a male, and why I'm often mocked for it.
17"M", First of all, almost all of my friends are female. I won’t say their names, but I honestly dislike the look of myself, I’m growing my hair out long and I just hate how oily my hair gets. I have to take a 40+ min shower just to rinse off all the dried grease, then I have to use dandruff shampoo.
Also, I’m quite skinny. I HATE having skinny arms. I do Physical Therapy Exercises every other day, and do Pelvic Floor Exercises when I feel like it, because my pelvic floor can get tight and I spent last September to late December going to see a pelvic floor therapist where they had to release the tension by inserting a gloved hand in my butt. It felt really uncomfortable, but didn’t really hurt. She also had to press my belly and back to push the waste out, due to my POTS, which I was undiagnosed with POTS at that point. I may be going back due to excessive urinary leakage and still having other problems. I did do exercises, but they weren’t as tough as the ones I do for regular physical therapy.
One reason I often dislike being a male is due to these urological problems I have (stated above). More reasons? First of all, people at school ask me, “why do you have so much empathy and why are you so quiet? are you a girl?” another thing someone said to me is “Why are your friends almost exclusively girls?” Someone also told me that I look like a character that Trevor Henderson created. I struggle with PT exercises due to my POTS and EDS, my neck and arms will almost lock and tense up to the point where I can’t even feel parts of my body.
Also, what do people mean when they say that you can feel like a male or female. What does this actually mean?