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there’s this one interview where the duffers says Erica stayed for s3 because she was very clipable? I can’t find it

From being on this website I have discovered that I am a prime target for grooming.(I have never been groomed though) I’m 17 so hopefully the creeps don’t want me anymore but it’s still scary what I could get myself into. How do I make sure I don’t get traumatized?

when I was 8 I started getting curious abt my vagina and found where all the discharge was. It was horrifying to me so I scraped it all off and might have been too harsh.

I used to feel a similar sensation to what I feel when I touch my clit but I don’t anymore. Is that weird? it kinda makes me sad bc that might mean it‘d harder for me to orgasm.

I genuinely don’t talk to anyone or have any friends at school(don’t ask me to change that im trying) so all I do is watch tiktoks aside from classes. I could draw or something but that I would also rather do on my iPad.

i also can’t leave my phone at home.

What can I do instead?

I’m 17 and my mom’s probably gonna die very soon. But the thing is my dad is absolutely useless and abusive. Mom has always been the sole person who did the chores and managed finances, if dad got control of the finance he’d genuinely blow it all of on stocks or whatever he wanted(she once told me he was secretly planning to go immigrate to china on his own to escape our family, and I remember him bankrupting us all when I was a toddler).

He doesn’t do any chores and will probably never do them, he’s basically been more of a middle aged brother to me than anything else.

He’s also abusive. He’s never done anything to me, but he’s been mean to my little sister her whole life, screamed at her multiple times and almost beat her once. After that I think he got his ego stroked so he’s being very bad tempered and mean to me as well.

Theres genuinely no way for me out of this since my sister has been talking abt cutting ties with me since elementary and I basically get Fs in everything when even people who went to good colleges can’t move out. I’m Korean and I speak English so there’s that but thats not that useful anymore.

i don’t know what to do other than jump off lmao

edit: I changed choir to chore it was 3 am and I was not feeling good

edit: I live in Korea and don’t plan on living in america

This is just something that pissed me off which made me internalized a bunch of unhealthy things which I am trying to undo rn.

One time I was at a tiktok live and the tiktoker asked what country we were all from. Another person said France I think? and I said South Korea. He read out French but not my country so I said it again which made them say “oh you’re from France that’s so cool!” and then tap the screen angrily a couple times. After, he stopped reading my texts all together when there were only a couple people chatting.

After a while I joined their live again a different time, I didn’t want to be mad at them so I mentioned I was Korean again, but he was mocking me and criticizing whatever I said. It was only after I mentioned I was a trans man(which he also was)that he started to be cartoonishly nice to me, but only a second after he started ignoring me again.

This was the first time I was ever treated cruely just because of where I was from and it was such a shock for me. What made this worse is that this person was insanely left leaning and someone I looked up to as a fellow trans man and I took his criticisms of media and racism seriously. It made me not feel safe in the only community I do in(transgender community) and like left leaning politics wasn’t for me anymore. I just feel so betrayed and sad even now.

i know this isn’t the kind of thing we post here but i felt like i needed to get it out because I was beginning to internalize a lot of toxic things because of the shock. Im sorry if this was too much of a whiplash.

Im not Asian American myself but I thought this would the environment for this post. I won’t complain if it gets taken down though.

One time I was at a tiktok live and the tiktoker asked what country we were all from. Another person said France I think? and I said South Korea. He read out French but not my country so I said it again which made them say “oh you’re from France that’s so cool!” and then tap the screen angrily a couple times. After, he stopped reading my texts all together when there were only a couple people chatting.

After a while I joined his live again a different time, and I didn’t want to be mad at him so I mentioned I was Korean again, which made him criticize and mock whatever I said. It was only after I mentioned I was a trans man(which he also was) that he started to be cartoonishly nice to me, but only a second after he started ignoring me again.

This was the first time I was ever treated cruely just because of where I was from and it was such a shock for me. What made this worse is that this person was insanely left leaning and someone I looked up to as a fellow trans man and I took his criticisms of media and racism seriously. It made me not feel safe in the only community I do in(transgender community) and like left leaning politics wasn’t for me anymore. I just feel so betrayed and sad even now.

i know this isn’t the kind of thing we post here but i felt like i needed to get it out of me since i internalized a bunch of toxic things because of the shock. Im sorry if this was too much of a whiplash.

The worst thing abt studying math for me is that I keep spacing out or at worst falling asleep at random times.

I think this is because whenever I get stuck on a question(and that’s very often) it breaks the flow of my focus and the high I get from the fun parts of math.

How do I keep myself stimulated and focused?

I have never loved my mom, or anyone for that matter. I thought it was because I used to hate her when I was like 5 because I thought she was mean to me(she was tired basically being a single mother to two kids),but I don’t love dad either. I guess dad makes a lot more sense since he’s a an immature person but I liked him a lot as a kid since he was always nice to me, and now he’s nice to me even if he acts like a child.

It’s not like mom has ever abused me. Sure she’s been mean and emotionally unavailable but never abusive. Maybe it has something to do with me only realizing she loved me at 10 but my sister also had to deal with that and I THINK(we don’t talk at all) she loves her..?

Also I’ve heard of a lot of people who’s been through so much worse than me and still love their parents or have loved their parents in the past to some degree, but I’ve never even done that. I’ve always craved their affection but never thought of them as more. I’ve actually hated my mom for most of my life.

I thought I must be a narcissist or a psychopath but I don’t have any of the symptoms. I simply dont love my parents and wouldn’t even care if they died. My mom is dying of cancer right now and I don’t care that much. WHY?????

I got misgendered and called a b over fandom drama and I posted it on Reddit bc I felt bad and wanted people to stand up for me. But everybody just victim blamed me and said I deserved it.

I’m a little sad abt that rn esp since queer fandom spaces is the only place im outwardly trans in. Its probably because those guys are kids and don’t know anything but I’m scared I won’t be able to engage with that media anymore esp since it means a lot to me at the moment.

A lot of people on tumblr and tiktok have started to use this word “manlet” to refer to short guys. Ive even seen a lot of trans guys embrace the term, but I don’t really like it. I have always been insecure of my height esp combined with my wider frame, and a lot of the times I’ve seen people dont call short and slims guys manlet, just the stocky ones.

I’m kinda scared that people will feel braver to insult my body and appearance overall when I transition and I won’t be able to call them out on it as much since people seem to dismiss insecure guys as nothing more than incels.

Idk maybe this is rlly stupid but I wrote this to get seconds opinions so dont dogpile on me please.

I’ve been almost exclusively bullied all my life. So when I started to interact with more people as a young teen, all I got was abuse and trauma. My sister emotionally manipulated me and eventually made my parents not trust me anymore, I was sexually and emotionally abused by a ”friend” from church, got told I should to be in prison and didn’t deserve human rights by my teacher(I know that’s ridiculous) and experienced nothing but microaggressions and disrespect from everybody I met for maybe a few years. And I let all of that happen to me because I genuinely believed they cared for me.

When I realized what had happened to me and started processing it, not only did I have to deal with the reality of my trauma but the violation of trust.

Because of that I am insanely sensitive and needy. I used to yell at my mom everyday after school for not “loving me enough” when I knew she did because I was scared someone would break that trust again.

I lash out at people for absolutely nothing because I’m scared I might get hurt without me knowing. On top of that, my social awkwardness and inexperience I’ve always had makes it very hard to manage positive relationships.

But not only that, I just don’t want to be friends with people. Deep down I do, I want companionship and love as much as I did before. But I don’t want to put myself through anything like that ever again and I don’t trust the peers around me(especially at school) to be better than them. Which is bad since the isolation is turning me into a bitter and angry person.

i don’t know how I could find people i feel safe with and how I could be charismatic enough for them to stay friends with me. I don’t even have that many interests. I don’t watch shows or play games enough.

so if anyone has advice on that it’d be nice

Im 17y btw

I know that if I were cis I would’ve been such an incel. which is why I’m terrified of becoming one if I ever were to transition in any capacity.

I’m terribly insecure and emotionally immature, bad things have happened to me and I’m very bitter abt them, and am very egotistical and narcissistic(I think my dad’s a narcissist and I got it from him). I dont know how to keep myself in check and every time I try I just feel like a time bomb.

I don’t have anybody to talk to either since I can’t go to therapy and don’t have a support system. I don’t know what to do.

I know that if I were cis I would’ve been such an incel. which is why I’m terrified of becoming one if I ever were to transition in any capacity.

I’m terribly insecure and emotionally immature, bad things have happened to me and I’m very bitter abt them, and am very egotistical and narcissistic(I think my dad’s a narcissist and I got it from him). I dont know how to keep myself in check and every time I try I just feel like a time bomb.

I don’t have anybody to talk to either since I can’t go to therapy and don’t have a support system. I don’t know what to do.