u/ShadowlightLady

I just don’t know how people experience happiness. Over the years it felt more and more difficult to imagine. I will turn 21 this year and I dread it I always dread my birthdays because I always get sad and cry when I’m alone. They say we are 70% water, I am that biologically but in my soul as well. Before when imagining my emotions there is harsh raining, and I am drowning in deep water and always crying inside but since taking antidepressants the skies are simply dull and floating on water but either way I don’t know how to swim. Before I was living on the edge of a cliff but eventually pulled back but even then what do I have to look up to?

I may that feel overwhelming sadness like I do before and I typically feel \\\\\\\*kind of\\\\\\\* okay these days. However I feel like that’s the best it’ll be for me. The things I enjoy gradually lose their flames aside from certain things they feel more like simple pleasures of life than actual happiness. What’s wrong with me am I just broken? Why is happiness such a hard thing for me? My emotional vocabulary is higher negative emotions than positive ones. For some time I just wanted to be okay instead of happy but now being okay almost feels like emptiness. Sure I can feel fine being neutral but emptiness remains. With the antidepressants I don’t feel an urge to die anymore but times like this I question why I’m alive or if my life will actually be worth anything

-20f

I just don’t know how people experience happiness. Over the years it felt more and more difficult to imagine. I will turn 21 this year and I dread it I always dread my birthdays because I always get sad and cry when I’m alone. They say we are 70% water, I am that biologically but in my soul as well. Before when imagining my emotions there is harsh raining, and I am drowning in deep water and always crying inside but since taking antidepressants the skies are simply dull and floating on water but either way I don’t know how to swim. Before I was living on the edge of a cliff but eventually pulled back but even then what do I have to look up to?

I may that feel overwhelming sadness like I do before and I typically feel kind of okay these days. However I feel like that’s the best it’ll be for me. The things I enjoy gradually lose their flames aside from certain things they feel more like simple pleasures of life than actual happiness. What’s wrong with me am I just broken? Why is happiness such a hard thing for me? My emotional vocabulary is higher negative emotions than positive ones. For some time I just wanted to be okay instead of happy but now being okay almost feels like emptiness. Sure I can feel fine being neutral but emptiness remains. With the antidepressants I don’t feel an urge to die anymore but times like this I question why I’m alive or if my life will actually be worth anything

-20f

So say you’re volunteering for a first grade class and you see one of the children crying. You go them and ask them what’s wrong and they exclaim “Everyone here is so dumb!” How would you respond to this?

Hello Oklahomans I hope you are well, I hope I am not bothering you just trying to gain insight. I have an idea for a story where the entire world became an absolute post-apocalyptic mess(sometimes dystopian in other areas). Each country handles it differently and has its own problems. Just focusing on the US first. There are some sci-fi elements to it and I think it would be a fun idea to add difference to madness in different places. What problems there could maximize and what do you imagine new? Again sci-fi elements so you can exaggerate anything you want to

Also it’s idea I also think it would be fun to hear what you may have to say and how you view your own state. Again I hope I am not bothering you.

I(20f) can’t stand either of my parents but my Dad(41m) has been increasingly getting on my nerves. I’m neurodivergent and I can tell he doesn’t like that about me. When I’m talking to myself, rocking back and forth, staring blankly into space or walking oddly he runs up to me demanding to stop telling me to stop that crazy. Saying things like people will think I’m weird, he’ll send me to a mental institution and other things. It’s pathetic he gets so bothered by this telling me this in the comfort of my own home and it doesn’t help my mom tells me to stop because he doesn’t like it. Really? You have to coddle a 41 year old man because he’s too stupid and close minded to educate himself and know that people don’t care. I tell him multiple times people won’t care because people only focus on themselves but he doesn’t listen. Ironically he’s acting like the very people he’s warning me about, people who are judgmental and don’t mind their own business.

It’s infuriating how he demands people to go with what he wants he is incapable of seeing the viewpoints of other people. “Oh yeah Dad, sure I’ll change myself for people who’ll judge qualities as odd so I can fit in and not face judgement instead of people who will like me for me. What a great lesson to teach your kid” Stupid bastard. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME AS A PERSON! I have my flaws and so many insecurities but I know I am worthy of self respect and I refuse to demean myself for other’s pathetic standards especially my Dad’s. Keep sticking with your 90s mindset Dad because you’ll continue to miss out on things. He says talking to me is like talking to a brick wall well like Goddamn Father like Goddamn Daughter. The world is cruel enough as it is why should I waste my time on people who view lowly of me. I doubt I’d get the chance to say this plus the fact he and my mom are incapable of taking any accountability. If I say this his ego will get hurt and have my mom confront me and there is a 50% chance she’d have me apologize for calling him out and standing up for myself. They treat me like I’m exhausting to deal with but trust me they make that feeling mutual.

In these children’s stories you take the role of the protagonist in the story. What will you do in the world of these fairytales? Once you achieve an ending you return to your world it doesn’t have to be the original ending just any ending you lead it up to be good, neutral, or bad. Though be warned some of these fairytales do have dark origins

A- Alice in the Wonderland
B- Beauty and the Beast
C- Cinderella
D- The Golden Touch of King Midas
E- The emperor’s new clothes
F- The Princess and the Frog
G- Goldilocks and the 3 bears
H- Hansel and Gretel
I- Ali Baba and the forty thieves
J- Jack and the beanstalk
K- Rumpelstiltskin
L- Little Red Riding Hood
M- The Little Mermaid
N- Sleeping Beauty
O- One-Eye, Two-Eyes, and Three Eyes
P- Peter Pan
Q- The Snow Queen
R- Rapunzel
S- Snow White
T- The Three little Pigs
U- The Ugly Duckling
V- Vasilisa the Beautiful
W- The Wonderful Wizard of Oz
X- The Wild Swans
Y- The Gingerbread Man
Z- You get to pick

How does each enneagram experience envy and how does it manifest differently?

In this neighborhood on the outside everything seems normal but you can tell them everyone is distant and there’s a reason for that. Everyone there or at least every household holds a dark secret. It’s not a coincidence either that people with dark secrets just so happen to move there the curse attracts people living there. Secrets that can ruin lives if they got out but for them it will take their lives. If your secret gets exposed in the neighborhood the curse sets in and you die not instantly but rather by a fast chain of events like accidents and such.

However if you share a secret with someone in private it gives you protection. It can prevent anything that can cause you harm but it’s risky since you don’t know 100% if that person is trustworthy enough to not spill it to everyone. It doesn’t help there’s a man in the neighborhood that is digging up people’s secrets and causing deaths when it suits him. Also you can’t leave the neighborhood you can when you’re visiting someone or going on vacation but the curse knows when you’re attempting to leave permanently and sets up circumstances where you can’t.

However you learn there is a way to break the curse and that is to reveal your secret of your own volition to everyone. It’s a complicated situation living there because it makes you question if you can trust anyone at all. Everyone is focused self preservation and you can only find a select few to rely on. If a loved one was living there meaning there’s a chance there’s hiding something dark you have no idea about. How would you fare in this situation?

When I say external and internal for external fears things that are out in the world that scare you. Such as darkness, animals, ghosts, etc. For internal fears things that you fear on the inside of yourself such as fear of loss of control, facing your flaws, judgement, feeling trapped etc. So what are yours?