u/TheShadowSong

I'm looking for a second guitar that would be under 600 EUR and have a D shaped and glossy neck.

I'm fine with very smooth polish or satin too but definitely not like a raw wound that you would find on Ibanez guitars.

I would also prefer ST or LP shape with 24 frets and 2 humbuckers for melodic death metal.

I understand that according to Jung's definitions, intuition is quite unconscious and vague.

Isn't intuition in socionics much more conscious and correlated with a conscious and active imagination instead of gut intuition?

Are there detailed and imaginative intuitive types or is this more connected to logic or sensory?

When I was 16 I rejected this 24 goth girl who wanted to sleep with me because I felt morally responsible to be the bigger man or responsible man to reject her.

I felt that I shouldn't participate in such hedonistic behavior which could result in bad consequences but now I'm in my mid 20s and have absolutely no experience with dating.

Could have had cool teenage experience which would result in giving me foundation and experience down the road but now I'm stuck in state of limbo.

My mom was diagnosed with NPD but she never wanted to admit it and claims that it was a misdiagnosis.

I'm in my 20s and currently still live with my parents because I invested all my money into building an extension to the house for my own place which makes it unlikely to move out but I was thinking about it.

I was diagnosed with cptsd and OCD for which I go to group therapy but it's not very effective.

I grew up in the rural, catholic and slavic area which supports physical abuse. I was always beaten and scolded for anything bad happening. If she broke a glass it was my fault.

I was always told that I should've been aborted and that I'm a devil's child. I wasn't allowed to have any friends over and girls thought that I was attractive and some came to my place and they were always thrown out which made me decide that I won't even bother to date nor have friends because it made me feel guilty and unlikely to maintain.

Some notable stuff that she's said and they are still internalized in my head.

"What have I ever done for god to punish me with such a devil's child."

"I wish that I could trade you for one of the neighbor's children."

"I should've had you put in asylum in which you belong."

"No woman will ever love you because you're a monster and I will make sure that they know because I should've aborted you."

I was always told that I'm embarrassment and was told that I bring shame to them for existing and what will neighbors think about them.

All of this was said ever since I was 4 and I could remember.

Her best friend is a woman who gave her son dog food and she told him that she wishes that she had a dog instead.

I always felt responsible for their emotions which made me very cautious and avoidant.

When I said that maybe we should be more polite and maybe use things like thank you or please. They said that they'd rather die than use degrading words like this.

When we were around other people, they always bragged that I don't do drugs and that I will be a doctor.

I always avoided dating, partying and drugs out of a sense of guilt and shame while trying to be the best son and get approval.

I just wait until I'm older in order to feel like I deserve to live my life but I'm trying exposure for my OCD and cptsd and it doesn't work.

What is the best way to deal with this kind of situation and solve a chronic sense of guilt and shame because I literally don't think that I deserve anything in life?

Does anyone else refuse to have friends and refuse to date because they were never allowed to have friends as a teenager due to strict and overly protective parents and now you just refuse to socially all together despite being asked out by multiple people? If I date or go out with friends, I just feel weak and guilty.

I wonder if ELVF can be very picky and pedantic about their senses. Having strong and specific preferences about aesthetics, food and clothes or would this point towards ELFV?

I've read that their physics are more about pragmatic and currently external worlds than aesthetics and sensory things like this.

is it likely that they are also rigid in their thinking while also enjoying to share logic and engage in process with other people while being insecure about taking volitional charge and keeping emotions internal.

There are a ton of websites but what do you think is the most consistent source material with a sense of clarity?

I constantly see that you have to get your needs met and get validated that you actually are good enough and deserve things by other people but I never see anyone talk about how to get this perception and contentment by yourself.

How did you guys solve the idea that you don't have to be perfect and that you actually feel that you deserve to have desires and needs without feeling like you are the most evil person on earth while constantly being shamed by people around you.

I try to reason with those people but they throw everything back in your face.

It feels that the only reason why I keep on living is out of spite and to sabotage my life further in order to make them feel guilty and frustrated.

How do you get comfortable while being surrounded by people shaming you 24/7?

I constantly see posts about people tryin to be better people instead of focusing on being happier.

I recently got a tattoo and because I got it at 10:52 instead of 10:48, I can't sleep for over 6 months. I keep waking up in the middle of the night having panic attacks and I can't focus at college nor at work. I feel like the tattoo is contaminated by an inferior and wrong timeline or timeframe.

I'm not sure how to solve this rumination because ignoring it doesn't help since I genuinely believe that it is contaminated due to the wrong time frame while sounding really stupid.

I am also overthinking about the motive and that I got it on my left hand instead of my right hand. I overthink that maybe I'm an immoral person despite avoiding and planning it for a very long time. I am also overthinking that I should've gotten it before or maybe that I should delay it further.

I've noticed that as soon as someone here hears something that invokes any kind of negative emotional reaction inside of them. they turn so insults and judgement instead of productive conversation on why something is rational or not.

Edit: insults just prove my point.;)

I see many people treat PolR as blind spot and suggestive as something more active but according to source material, suggestive is not necessarily something that you seek and prefer but something that you consider pointless but need someone to show you how to do and why it's important while PolR is something that you're actively bothered and uncomfortable with.

ILI is often much more uncomfortable with negative emotions than LII who is often impartial and indifferent to them until they learn to recognize them.

EII is also often much more sensitive to emotional atmosphere because their emotionality is higher dimensional as compared to LII who often struggles to understand it

Which GPU should I buy that will have better drivers stability, 5070 or 9070 XT?

am I the only one who constantly feels like I'm not an adult yet because I was always told that I'm too young when I have motivation and interest in something?

I was always told that I was too young to have a job, that I'm too young to date, that I'm too young to drive, that I'm too young to drink or smoke and too young to live alone when I was a teenager.

I was denied to experiment in life at the age when I had motivation and excitement.

I have manifested this into my subconscious and now I'm in my 20s and I still feel like a child because I wasn't allowed to grow up by family and society.

If I participate in anything as such, I experience a lot of guilt as if I'm a child and betray my parents and law despite being an adult now.

I feel that this is the reason why many people today become very avoidant and alienated from society.

Do any of you feel the same way?

Is there a more budget Schecter guitar with painted neck because I really don't like those wooden necks.