u/RM_MR_Underground

(24H) Uma pergunta meio tonta e simplória, de fato, mas é genuína, pois eu vi num podcast um Ytber superdotado falando dos problemas que ele teve por boa parte da vida, em que ele se sentia diferente e era excluído e subestimado, até que ele descobriu que isso tudo se devia à sua superdotação(AHSD). Eu me identifiquei 100% com essa parte do relato, com exceção que eu nunca fui atrás de diagnóstico. Foi assustador como era EXATAMENTE a minha história até o momento. Mas se eu contasse isso para as pessoas à minha volta, elas com ctz dariam risada kkkkk perguntariam " como você pode ser superdotado se tanta dificuldade em exatas?" E cliches do gênero. E é uma dúvida minha tbm kkk sempre me senti diferente e as pessoas nunca viam minhas diferenças com bons olhos.

(24H) Nunca fui atrás de diagnóstico nem nada, mas sempre senti que era diferente dos outros em muitos sentidos, seja no temperamento, nos gostos, na forma de me comunicar. Tenho habilidades sociais até que boas. Quando tentei socializar, as pessoas quase sempre me tratavam de forma diferente, e algumas eram até ruins de vdd comigo por conta disso, fazendo de tudo pra me ridicularizar e me "diferenciar" ainda mais. Desse jeito, com o tempo fui achando que eu era uma peça defeituosa, e que talvez nunca seria como o cara padrão e funcional que temos na sociedade. O cara que tem uma esposa, um filho e uma filha, que tem amigos pro churrasco e vai pra igreja no domingo. Que tem um emprego bom, tem hobbies em que ele é bom, e tudo o mais...

Acho que não encontrei minha turma, e tenho medo de não encontrar também. Tenho meus hobbies mas eles são mais caseiros, e por enquanto estou estudando e à procura de um emprego. Socializar é sair da zona de conforto pra mim, pq acumulei muitos traumas, mas eu sigo tentando. Sempre observo e vigio meu comportamento e o dos outros. Pois várias vezes fui ridicularizado depois de mostrar minhas vulnerabilidades. Outras vzs tbm fui babaca acidentalmente e ferrei tudo tbm.

Alguém ja se sentiu uma "peça com defeito"? Como vocês resolveram?

(24M) I always felt there was something different about, even tough i'm not diagnosed, bc people always treated me differently. My social skills are not bad, but everytime ppl noticed some different thing about me. There were really rude people who would bully and mock me, exposing my "differences" even more. People i thought they were my friends. At most environments, like college and worplace. So i grew up feeling a defective piece. I tried self improvement, but it wasn't that good, did me nothing in reality. I'm afraid of never being that regular and functional citizen we see going to the church at sunday morning, with his wife and two children, a boy and a girl; he has a good paying job were everyone likes him, he has friends everywhere, he has several jobs everyone appreciate and he is very good ate every single one of them....

Perhaps i didn't found my tribe. or perhaps is something broke we can't repair. Dunno.

Have you ever felt this way? How can we solve that? Are there people who never faced the odds anbd always lived a normal life?

(24M) I always felt there was something different about, even tough i'm not diagnosed, bc people always treated me differently. My social skills are not bad, but everytime ppl noticed some different thing about me. There were really rude people who would bully and mock me, exposing my "differences" even more. People i thought they were my friends. At most environments, like college and worplace. So i grew up feeling a defective piece. I tried self improvement, but it wasn't that good, did me nothing in reality. I'm afraid of never being that regular and functional citizen we see going to the church at sunday morning, with his wife and two children, a boy and a girl; he has a good paying job were everyone likes him, he has friends everywhere, he has several jobs everyone appreciate and he is very good ate every single one of them....

Perhaps i didn't found my tribe. or perhaps is something broke we can't repair. Dunno.

Have you ever felt this way? How can we solve that? Are there people who never faced the odds?

(24H) Nunca fui atrás de diagnóstico nem nada, mas sempre senti que era diferente dos outros em muitos sentidos, seja no temperamento, nos gostos, na forma de me comunicar. Tenho habilidades sociais até que boas. Quando tentei socializar, as pessoas quase sempre me tratavam de forma diferente, e algumas eram até ruins de vdd comigo por conta disso, fazendo de tudo pra me ridicularizar e me "diferenciar" ainda mais. Desse jeito, com o tempo fui achando que eu era uma peça defeituosa, e que talvez nunca seria como o cara padrão e funcional que temos na sociedade. O cara que tem uma esposa, um filho e uma filha, que tem amigos pro churrasco e vai pra igreja no domingo.

Acho que não encontrei minha turma, e tenho medo de não encontrar também. Tenho meus hobbies mas eles são mais caseiros, e por enquanto estou estudando e à procura de um emprego. Socializar é sair da zona de conforto pra mim, pq acumulei muitos traumas, mas eu sigo tentando. Sempre observo e vigio meu comportamento e o dos outros. Pois várias vezes fui ridicularizado depois de mostrar minhas vulnerabilidades.

Alguém ja se sentiu uma "peça com defeito"? Como vocês resolveram?

(24M) I was really stressed of some adverse things that happened to me these last months. I was anxious and irritated all the time. I started taking Lexapro after medical advice. I took 10 mg for 2 months and half, and it was good. But there was the guilty: i was taking it without my father knowing and consentment. He would be really mad, because for him, those kind of drugs are for "mad ppl", and i should "be a man". He didn't like the idea of me going to a psychologist, he would kill me if he found i was going to a psychiatrist, like Livia Soprano hahaha

So i wanted to stop taking Lexapro, and i started to take 5 mg three weeks ago. I soon noticed all the shit storm coming back hahahaha irritated, lack of concentration, neuroticisms... I don't wanna use Lexapro as a crutch and to be addicted, this is my worst nightmare. I just wanted a relief. My plan was to use 5 mg for about 7 weeks before stopping. But i wonder what will happen ...

(24M) I was really stressed of some adverse things that happened to me these last months. I was anxious and irritated all the time. I started taking Lexapro after medical advice. I took 10 mg for 2 months and half, and it was good. But there was the guilty: i was taking it without my father knowing and consentment. He would be really mad, because for him, those kind of drugs are for "mad ppl", and i should "be a man".

So i wanted to stop taking Lexapro, and i started to take 5 mg three weeks ago. I soon noticed all the shit storm coming back hahahaha irritated, lack of concentration, neuroticisms... I don't wanna use Lexapro as a crutch and to be addicted, this is my worst nightmare. I just wanted a relief. My plan was to use 5 mg for about 7 weeks before stopping. But i wonder what will happen ...

(24M) I'm an introvert and sligthly socially awkward. A lot of times when i tried to open myself to others, i would be mocked and humiliated by other ppl, when i was just trying to socialize, being seen as a weird and autistic freak to them. So i closed myself, and i would only open myself to ppl i know very well and trust.

But i noticed my extroverted coworkers say whatever come to mind, be idiot or no, and ppl love them for that. If i say the same thing, i would be considered a weirdo hahaha if someone tries to shut or censor the extroverts ,they just them to fuck off.

I would like to know how can you not be afraid of this public mockery and humiliation, and say what you think no matter the consequences. I know it's not a matter of "don't caring" , since ppl can use what i say against me, like some of them did before.

(24M) I still don't know how to drive. When my dad was trying to teach me, he would yell and roar everytime i made a mistake, as he usually does, since he doesn't like to explain or teach. I told him i wouldn't do it if he continued talking to me on that tone. He sighed and said " Well, so i cannot continue either". He always was like that, nothing was good enough. So i grew up afraid of failing, i always wanted to the right things.

I also had bad friends that also would mock and bully everytime i failed during sports or games. I wanna know how to be confident is this sense, of not feeling like shit when i fail and not fear the judgement, cause the judgement always come to me , and i lose my status and credibility. I had more things going wrong than things going right for me. Every failure for me means shame, guilty, humiliation. It is like being a defective piece.

I tried to think no one would remind my failures, but it wasn't true with my bad friends ,college mates and some coworkers (at work it was more hidden). Pretty much everything i do fails or isn't good enough . Be it a coffee, a beef, a school assignment, a picture, a text. Perhaps i was just unlucky.

(24M) Graduated Pharmacy at college last year and started some preparatory courses to help in growing my resumé. I was laid off from my dream job last year, and i'm back to fight again. I admit i could've been a better student at college, but there was a point i was really disappointed with all that environment, because i was 98% of the time alone. My class mates did everything they could to isolate me and treat me badly. It was excruciating to go to a place were no one liked you or didn't care about. No friend to study together. No brothership, just a witch hunt. So i started to half-ass things, Cs get degrees. Pharmacy is not an easy course, so even to get Cs you must take an effort. You could NEVER go through a subject without studying, like never, even if you're an Einstein. I know because that i had tried. I actually love to study, but i wanted to think the least about college.

I'm waiting for better days to come. I wouldn't care a blue collar job on an ambient of my field (Pharmacy industries - NO RETAIL ). I would do even internships for free. UNLESS it is a place where i have some structure. The drugstore i had worked had no structure or organization at all. The drugstore i've worked didn't have structure organization.

(24M) Graduated Pharmacy at college last year and started some preparatory courses to help in growing my resumé. I was laid off from my dream job last year, and i'm back to fight again. I admit i could've been a better student at college, but there was a point i was really disappointed with all that environment, because i was 98% of the time alone. My class mates did everything they could to isolate me and treat me badly. It was excruciating to go to a place were no one liked you or didn't care about. No friend to study together. So i started to half-ass things, Cs get degrees. Pharmacy is not an easy area, so even to get Cs you must take an effort. You could NEVER go through a subject without studying, like never, even if you're an Einstein. I know because that i had tried. I actually love to study, but i wanted to think the least about college.

I'm waiting for better days to come. I wouldn't care a blue collar job on an ambient of my field (Pharmacy industries - NO RETAIL ). I could do internship for free. UNLESS it is a place where i have some structure.

(24M) Graduated Pharmacy at college last year and started some preparatory courses to help in growing my resumé. I admit i could've been a better student at college, but there was a point i was really disappointed with all that environment, because i was 98% of the time alone. My class mates did everything they could to isolate me and treat me badly. It was excruciating to go to a place were no one liked you or didn't care about. So i started to half-ass things, Cs get degrees. Pharmacy is not an easy area, so even to get Cs you must take an effort. You could NEVER go through a subject without studying, like never, even if you're an Einstein. I know because that i had tried. I actually love to study, but i wanted to think the least about college.

I'm waiting for better days to come. I wouldn't care a blue collar job on an ambient of my field (Pharmacy industries - NO RETAIL ). I could do internship for free. UNLESS it is a place where i have some structure.

Tá aí os meus "malvados favoritos " na infância, eu achava eles muito legais, tanto pelo humor meio ácido quanto pelo design dos personagens. Eu ficava muito triste e decepcionado vendo eles serem derrotados dos jeitos mais tontos e humilhantes tds os episódios , ficava sempre preocupado se eles iam morrer, já que ser arremessado pra longe na vida real costuma dar em morte quando se atinge o chão.

Sem falar que eu achava o Ash o protagonista mais sem sal de tds.

(24M) I still don't know how to drive. When my dad was trying to teach me, he would yell and roar everytime i made a mistake, as he usually does, since he doesn't like to explain or teach. I told him i wouldn't do it if he continues talking to me on that tone. He sighed and said " Well, so i cannot continue either". He always was like that, most of the things did were never good enough. And kept me pressing to get the license . So i grew up afraid of failing, i always wanted to the right things.

I also had bad friends that also would mock and bully everytime i failed during sports or games. I wanna know how to be confident is this sense, of not feeling like shit when i fail and not fear the judgement, cause the judgement always come to me , and i lose my status and credibility. I had more things going wrong than things going right for me.

(24H) Deus sabe que eu realmente tentei socializar, sendo simpático com as pessoas, mas ainda assim fui abandonado. Muitas pessoas pareciam me tratar mal sem razão, desmerecendo tudo que eu dizia, quando eu só tentava socializar ou ser legal( do meu jeito meio excêntrico). Havia boas pessoas também, uma minoria, mas elas desapareceram depois que parei de planejar as coisas sozinho.

N sou um "bonzinho manipulador " , simplesmente trato tds como gostaria de ser tratado, e isso inclui ser bacana com os colegas de classe, afinal vamos nos aguentar durante 5 anos, em nossos melhores e piores dias, por que nao sermos, senão amigos, pelo menos bons vizinhos? . Mas nesses 5 anos tive mais dias ruins kkkkk eles me tratavam mal e me escorraçavam sempre que podiam, como se eu não fosse digno de estar lá. O mesmo no trabalho, só que de forma mais velada.

Eu admito que sou meio lerdão socialmente, um tanto excêntrico, mas não sou um babaca ou inconveniente. Nem gosto de drama e conflitos.

Ainda estou preso à validação externa. Eu vivo em uma sociedade que é julgadora. Se eu não tiver status social, sou um inseto e viro mendigo. Muitas vezes tenho que guardar as coisas que gosto para mim, senão serei considerado uma peça defeituosa. Eu gostaria de saber como superar isso. Como vocês fazem para não ligar pra validação externa e ainda serem requisitados ou benquistos?