Immigrant’s social life is set up for failure since the beginning
Most of the people meet their long term friends at school or university, but mostly school. I am a very extroverted and expressive person, but I’m 21 yo and I don’t have any friends, and zero close real friends. I don’t have anyone to share my happy news with, or ask anyone for support when I feel bad or smth bad happens. I’m crazy alone.
I was born in a small town, after high school all of my school friends moved to random big cities or other countries for life/study, but me…so I wouldn’t benefit from staying in my birth country much either. I moved abroad for uni, didn’t manage to get any friends, because 99% of people on my studying year were crazy introverted and not into building connections with new people. I managed to find short-term friendships form the Erasmus only among Spanish people ( I live in Poland). Idk if it is our generation that hates warm and expressive people or it’s just smth off about me….but I’m truly tired. I have so much love that I want to share with people, so many ideas on how I could spend with someone time…I’m tired of being alone. I can’t even do some activities that I want to on my own like visiting a night club or bar, because I often end up meeting horrible men who harass me in these places AGH.
I’m sad that I will probably never have a wedding and even if I do, I won’t be able to invite anyone, I won’t have bridesmaids, god mom to my kids if I ever get them, I will never have friends who I could invite over for a bbq as I always dreamt of, I will never go on a girls trip, I will never have any friendly closeness with anyone that I missed so much. It is hard to go from a school extroverted queen to a rejected by the society loner in adulthood. It feels like life is over, for the past 5 years I didn’t manage to find anyone.