u/EtmopterusPerryi

To preface, I know humans are largely irrational in nature, including myself, because that's just how emotions work. Sometimes you feel them with no specific cause. But I just can't stick it in my head from a personal feeling standpoint. I struggle to understand why people don't stop being irrational once they've become aware of it. I don't understand people who don't want help, I don't understand people who hate the situation they're in but don't get out when given opportunities. I understand how manipulation and peer pressure work but I struggle to empathize with situations regarding it. It makes me angry when people complain to me about situations they know how to and are aware of being capable of fixing, and I don't mean slight annoyance, I mean genuinely angry, which I imagine is in itself an irrational reaction but I don't know the steps to fix how I feel about it. But then it gets to being sad in situations. My father has died, my dog has died, and eventually I've just settled on "it's bad that they died but they're already dead now so who am I being sad for?". I don't really understand the idea of missing them. I don't know if I've ever missed people. I'm only just now realizing that as I'm typing this. :P I just don't know what it's like and to me it's just a "move on" situation. I don't like listening to people telling me they miss others. I can't really bring myself to care, because people are either in my life or they're out of it and once they're out of it continuing to sit about thinking of it isn't gonna do any good.

I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm not going to do it, I'd never do it, but I can't stop thinking about shooting myself. I usually have intrusive thoughts, like normal dying ones, these don't feel like intrusive thoughts. They just feel like thoughts. I can't stop thinking about it. I feel like I need relief and this isn't the way to go about it but something inside me keeps idealizing shooting myself as relief. I don't really know how to handle it. I don't want to get in trouble or get sent to like a ward by bringing it up or scare anyone, and I can't even tell if it's worth saying anything if I'm not gonna do it anyways.

I've been so tired trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I've been working through with my therapist trying to be content with myself and my mental state and the fact that nothing's wrong with me. My psychiatrist on the other hand sent me a bunch of questionnaires. The one in regards to BPD fit me to a T and I ended up answering yes on everything. I'm freaking out a little but it's getting really hard not to slip back into speculating about my mental health and asking myself if this is a real answer or not. I don't even know how or if she's gonna respond about it and I'm trying really hard not to think about it.

My mom already knew I was (forgive the wording?) queer about my gender? I don't know how else to describe it. Just in a way that isn't female. But I told her that I intended to fully transition to male (as in like an intent to the degree of entirely passing as male hopefully). The biggest worry she has is about how the world treats transgender people and how I'd be potentially discriminated against and mistreated and I think she's worried about violence. We're in the US and I think the amendment banning transgender individuals from joining the military has been rejected. I'm hoping these anti-transgender laws continue to be rejected or rescinded. I want to comfort my mom but I don't know how.

I feel like I'm in shrimp mode 24/7. I feel like it's been my default position my entire life. I'm posting here instead of the regular posture subreddit because I kinda want to know what advice or methods works for other people who deal with a larger chest (it's not that I don't care about what they're saying I just am looking for advice more oriented to my body type) cuz it's like I have two obnoxious weights on my chest.

Hello, I'm going through the process of requesting accommodations and was wondering if anyone knows whether or not I'd be able to request noise cancelling headphones, or if anyone has any experience requesting them? I'd have a letter from a therapist regarding why they're needed to (?) back it up. (diagnosed ADHD and anxiety for context)

Sometimes it's positive excitement but a lot of times it's negative because of how much excitement it is. When I'm unable to speak it gets intensely frustrating to the point of crying because I have so much to say. If I want to speak to someone I often feel the need to speak to them so bad that I'm shaking if I'm unable to. It makes it hard for me to hold back and not interrupt people because of the genuine physical reaction. I've cried at school more than once because a subject I'm extremely enthusiastic about is being spoken about and I'm at the time unable to participate in the conversation for one reason or another and I don't know how to emotionally handle it. (I'm aware I'm sensitive).
Alternatively, when I am able to talk, I tend to run off the adrenaline, speak at 200 miles a minute, not think about what I'm saying (which often leads to oversharing or misspeaking) because of how fast I'm talking because I just have so much to say, and if I don't get everything I'm thinking out then I get back to the point of frustration. I get told to just slow down but it still leaves me with the frustration of not getting to say anything and I don't know how to learn to just be content when a conversation ends.

I used to have full blown breakdowns until I began taking meds to handle my mood. Now it's just depression. I'm used to handling pms by not handling it at all and digging an emotional pit but I want to begin working on improving my mental health outside of my medication and was wondering if anyone had specific coping mechanisms or preparation for pms to share. (Editing to say, forgive me if the wording is weird but I don't usually discuss my period or pms so I'm not really sure how to word it 😭)

I lack immensely with emotional empathy. My therapist tells me how it doesn't make me a bad person but I still struggle with listening to him. I can't force myself to feel the emotions but that doesn't mean I can't comfort others or be there for them. Regardless it's hard not to feel some sort of way about what emotional connection I lack. I need someone to wrap my head around the fact that I'm normal for me please lol.

The one true exception is my best friend. Otherwise, every single person I'm deemed friends with I'm friends with not because I like them but because I don't dislike them. Anyone else I automatically dislike. I can't bring myself to care about people in general whether or not they're my friend, I comfort people because it's what's expected from a friend and not because I care. My best friend is the one person I can bring myself to feel any sort of feeling for. He's probably the only person outside of my family who I care about on an emotional level about whether or not they live or die. To lose him would be life ruining, to lose anyone else would be inconvenient at most. I like nobody but him. Other people might see me as a real and true friend but he's the only person I care to be a true friend too. With other people there's always an agenda. I have no agenda with being friends with him other than the genuine joy I get.

17m and on Welbutrin, Quelbree, Guanfacine, and Lamictal. I don't have a drive to do anything unless made to. It takes me days to get one thing done. I can't tell whether or not I'm better than before. I feel like I'm constantly either depressed, aggressive, or anxious. Not enjoying the things I used to. I feel like I don't enjoy anything anymore. I can't tell if it's just a swing or something but I went from excited and career driven to unable to care. I usually really like going to the gym but it feels like it's becoming something I do as an obligation rather than something that I do because it makes me happy. That's how it feels for almost everything I do.

I'm only diagnosed with ADHD. I'm taking Quelbree and Guanfacine for ADHD, Welbutrin for depression, and Lamotrigine for mood. I experience incredibly intense depression and less intense mania. Even with my medication I still struggle heavily with depression. I struggle with intrusive thoughts and aggression and paranoia and anxiety and narcissism and it makes me want to rip myself apart sometimes. It feels like my therapist simply doesn't care about talking about it either and I don't know what to do.

(I don't know if I'm going to a general cbt therapist or a specific dbt therapist yet so I included both. I know saying dbt therapy is redundant because the t stands for therapy but it sounds weirder not including it.

Hi, I've never emailed my therapist before except to reschedule. I don't know if it'd be appropriate to just vent in an email but what I'm trying to communicate is inherently emotional. If anyone has pointers on what to say/how to speak when emailing therapists please share.

Not looking exclusive to Virginia Beach but wanting to post somewhere local. 🙂 I've been to one of the CHKDs and it was very nice but was wondering if anyone had other recommendations.